I Know We’re All Mentally Ill Here And Everyone Is Going To Scroll Past This But I Feel Like I Have

I'm going to the store after school today yay :D

I think I'm just going to buy some protein bars and sf energy drinks and gum... I may buy some corn/rice cakes as well and look for new safe foods in general, if I have time... Man, I haven't been shopping like this in a while and I'm more excited than grocery shopping probblably justifies to be lol

Any suggestions on what else I could look for?

Just tried that light green/paradise monster and it reminds of me those apple gummy bears I used to eat as a kid? Idk it's just kinda sweet and not my favourite but I think it's definitely drinkable

I mean it for sure makes me kinda nostalgic - I mean these gummy bears made me (among sooo many other things) a fatty little kid and then I got bullied and then there were Mom and Grandma's comments and you know how the story goes lol.

Yeah... the good ol' days

(The more I'm sipping in that monster rn though the more I like it so I guess 7/10???) lol no one asked for a monster review yet here I am

(Can you tell I'm fucking bored?)

femmes... 😍 butches... 😍 mascs... 😍 studs... 😍 stems... 😍 futches... 😍 people in between... [im very gay guys]

i feel so gross knowing i ate all the food on my plate but they didn’t even make a dent in theirs. like hello wdym

I fucking hate myself guys

It's the start of Easter break now and like any rational person I ditched all my plans and binged the first day and today as well

If I skip dinner and work out though I can probably do at least some kind of damage control (because I've eaten about 2000 calories now which is really fucking awful) and I can get my steps in as well... I'm just so disappointed in myself, because I was prepared for having my intake be a bit higher during the holidays, because sometimes when I have to eat with my family it just can't be avoided, but not like this, seriously

Anyway, looking forward I guess because I've already fucked shit up I can't change anyway 🥲

I feel so bad turning down the food my parents or friends got me just to make me happy

Because despite the fact that my mom and I watch shows or movies almost every day together, it's kind of rare that my dad joins in as well and recently we're watching through some old classics and it's kind of special

And I was really excited to watch another movie with them today and I told them and they extra bought chips and said they were for me and 🥲

It's so sweet but chips are like my fear food number one

Powerwalking around the schoolyard because my friends want to play Volleyball

(I look like a fucking weird loner but at least I'm getting in my steps)

Tw: Talk of self harm, vent

So, we got this new girl in our class and she doesn't bother hiding her scars - they're all over her arms and look like they were quite deep and I don't know if I'm wrong or being an asshole for feeling like this, but a while ago I kind of told a friend of mine that I used to cut (I told her "used to" so she wouldn't actively worry and at that time, I was really trying to quit) and now we have to take these stupid swimming classes - and don't get me wrong, I'm actually glad I don't have these permanent bright pink scars (I have some which are like dents in my skin, but mostly mine are white or light pink) and I schedule when I do cut in a way they'll be as healed as possible for the next swimming period - and I just feel like such an attention-seeking crybaby now for having told my friend without even looking like it's bad - heck, maybe she didn't even notice at all, because she hasn't said a word to me about it!

And I feel so bad for feeling somewhat, well, competitive towards that girl in a way, because I didn't start off for attention at all and now the last thing I want is to be discovered probably, but I guess I'm just really worried about what my other friend thinks of me now, but I can impossibly bring it up to her-

It's just really something else when you see something on the internet, sometimes even as "motivation", than seeing it in real life.

I had my first strawberries these time of year. They were fucking huge and juicy and so, so red and they reminded me of that huge ass banana I had the other day.

Fruit are so fucking good they're like my candy

(I don't even like that packaged junk anymore, but now when I crave it's oats and yoghurt and honey and - thankfully - fruit, which is still super easy to binge on, even if it's healthier)

If your 13 or older and still sleep with a stuffed animal please rb this im tryna prove a point to my friend.