Finally! Alright Going To Bed Now T-T

I got booted to the troubled kids highschool

So I'm currently doing orientation, today was my test to see what I remembered since I haven't been to school since last year.

I ended up drawing on my calculation sticky notes lol

I'm distracting myself from life rn.

Omg wait this is kazimir and Domnik core

When posts like this become the reason for surviving while sick lol

Sorcerer: I told you to do the challenge alone young Pendragon.

Arthur: I did.

Sorcerer: Then who is that with you?

Arthur: Oh Merlin?

Sorcerer: Yes him! The boy!

Arthur: What about him?

Sorcerer: I said, Alone! A.L.O.N.E! Alooone! But you brought HIM with you!

Arthur: I really don't understand what the problem is?

Sorcerer: [Turns to Merlin] Is he? You know...

Merlin: Yes he is, in facted he's a dollophead!

Arthur: Oi!

Merlin: But please just ignore me. I'm not even here right now.

Sorcerer: BUT YOU ARE HERE AND HE DID NOT COMPLETE THE CHALLENGE ALONE!!!

Arthur: Merlin, please, she's using that word again.

Merlin: I know sire, I know.

Sorcerer: I don't!

Merlin: You see, in Camelot, the word "Alone" was recently changed to mean, To be with one self and only one self unless your applying the word to his highness King Arthur then it would mean, Arthur and Merlin. Ergo, Arthur is alone.

Sorcerer: I'm going to die aren't I?

Merlin: Probably. Most definitely.

Vent post (aka part of my dark backstory) lol

Tw: sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse, manipulation, self harm, rape, suicide attempts, sucide encouragement/baiting, incest, trans inclusive radical feminist mindset, emotional manipulation, transphobia, fatshaming (Also Anything along those lines)

My step father: he emotionally & verbally abused me. He would also often grope me while I was 9 - 10 years old but the worst didn't happen to me. It happened to my mother and sister but I was still there to witness it all.

I couldn't take it anymore. At 9 years old i made a plan for sucide and failed. So I made another plan in my diray and wrote a sucide note about how everything my step father did was effecting me which my mother found and ended up showing my step father who didn't give two shits. That was what finally got my mum to stand up to him and kick him out.

My bio father: abused me physically (but did it less the older I got) and emotionally abused me. At 6 years old I was raped by my own father, nothing was the same after that. I started gaining weight, I became withdrawn among people my own age and only really talked to adults. I would overeat when stressed and would later get fatshamed for it so much I now struggle to eat twice a day. (My mother was not aware of most of this they had been divorced since I was 2) my father encouraged my sucide attempt and my self harm. I ended up attempting suicide 7 seapreate times. He made sure i felt too guilty to ever tell my mother.

Because of these experiences i distanced myself away from any males, and hyperfemnisted myself. Because masculinity was evil and like all the father figures i ever had, and feminity was my mother, my friends and everyone who made me feel safe.

So unfortunately I ended up down the trans inclusive radical feminist mindset, to specify I included trans women & nonbinary people in radfem mindset but not transmasc people.

I thought trans man were superior to man for their female experiences and feminised them. They were not included in my kill all men mindset and I believed they were nonbinary people in denial. (Which wtf younger me???)

This of course was not good for me. I eventually realised how wrong my mindset was after I had a really caring male English teacher who cared deeply about my well-being, got me a counsellor and helped me heal a lot.

I however made no effort to change this mindset until a few years later. I still have a long way to go towards healing my relationship with masculinity. And i generally sympathise with a fem person quicker than with a masc one still but I'll get there.

We were on the 14th floor in the motel I was kinda scared lol

I feel that.

Tired as fuck and bitch makin me plant garlic

I do this all the time-

I feel so lethargic and dysphoric omg (this is the op btw)

Just so everyone is aware no asks will be answered this week, feel free to send them in but I'm not responding till 7-8 th of April.

Why?

It's my shark week :(

This is my sea life lepoard shark from Melbourne btw

His name is sir Leer

My gf named him :]

Can't find a timkon & damijon fic, if u can plz help me find it!

Okay so basically the fic goes like this jon gets back from something & damian is in colledge. Tim & jon meet flirt a bit then go on a date, one of the bats(duke?) see this and tell the rest of the family.

This makes damian very agnsty and also he won't let anyone in his dorm cause it's Bassically a shrine to jon.

Kon is incredibly upset about it and takes it out a lil on tim. (He is unaware of his crush)

Jon and tim decide to continue fake dating to figure out why their bff/crush is acting so weird

Some stuff happens (damian's b-day?)

Then kon relizes he likes tim while talking to mama kent just before a family dinner jon is coming to. Kon is angry at jon and is upset at himself about it.

This all comes to head at the family dinner and kon learns the truth, after that timkon get together.

Jon comes to Damians dorm and sees inside, they have conversation about whats going on and get together.

Fic found link here