My New Profile Picture!

Demiboy trans transmasc

Decided to some random art lol

shipping chaos

Idk if I should be shipping  pumpkin duo,    tnt duo  or karlnapity    like I know there all toxic af but they weren't always that way there were plenty of healthy moments.

Some headcannons about Tim Drake-Wayne (a reblog chain?):

The first time Damian hugs tim, he just fucking sobs.

Tim could count the number of times he got any physical affection from his parents on one hand (90% of that was all for the press), and as much as he would love it for affection to be normal in his new family, Dick is the only one forgoing with affection in the bat family.

So obviously Tim ends up touch-starved & seeing physical affection as ultimate trust.

So logically when the brother who hated you & tried to kill you the most out of all your brothers hugs you (which basically translates to 'I love you'), what else are you to do other than ugly sob for hours?

(Might add bat family's reactions to this post later)

[But when does a comet become a meteor?When does a candle become a blaze? When does a man become a monster?

When does a ripple become a tidal wave?When does the reason become the blame?When does a man become a monster?]

Man, that cuts so deep

Vent post (aka part of my dark backstory) lol

Tw: sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse, manipulation, self harm, rape, suicide attempts, sucide encouragement/baiting, incest, trans inclusive radical feminist mindset, emotional manipulation, transphobia, fatshaming (Also Anything along those lines)

My step father: he emotionally & verbally abused me. He would also often grope me while I was 9 - 10 years old but the worst didn't happen to me. It happened to my mother and sister but I was still there to witness it all.

I couldn't take it anymore. At 9 years old i made a plan for sucide and failed. So I made another plan in my diray and wrote a sucide note about how everything my step father did was effecting me which my mother found and ended up showing my step father who didn't give two shits. That was what finally got my mum to stand up to him and kick him out.

My bio father: abused me physically (but did it less the older I got) and emotionally abused me. At 6 years old I was raped by my own father, nothing was the same after that. I started gaining weight, I became withdrawn among people my own age and only really talked to adults. I would overeat when stressed and would later get fatshamed for it so much I now struggle to eat twice a day. (My mother was not aware of most of this they had been divorced since I was 2) my father encouraged my sucide attempt and my self harm. I ended up attempting suicide 7 seapreate times. He made sure i felt too guilty to ever tell my mother.

Because of these experiences i distanced myself away from any males, and hyperfemnisted myself. Because masculinity was evil and like all the father figures i ever had, and feminity was my mother, my friends and everyone who made me feel safe.

So unfortunately I ended up down the trans inclusive radical feminist mindset, to specify I included trans women & nonbinary people in radfem mindset but not transmasc people.

I thought trans man were superior to man for their female experiences and feminised them. They were not included in my kill all men mindset and I believed they were nonbinary people in denial. (Which wtf younger me???)

This of course was not good for me. I eventually realised how wrong my mindset was after I had a really caring male English teacher who cared deeply about my well-being, got me a counsellor and helped me heal a lot.

I however made no effort to change this mindset until a few years later. I still have a long way to go towards healing my relationship with masculinity. And i generally sympathise with a fem person quicker than with a masc one still but I'll get there.

Somthing unfortunate happened so time to make a joke about it!

I am now officially Romeo, i can only hope mine & my partners fate will not be as tragic.

That man is a cutie patoie

(Polites? Idk how to spell his name.)

I don't know about the world? Really? I'm a kid who grew up on the internet. I'm trans, I have a girlfriend in a world that believes I'm a girl, I'm still suicidal, I know about all the wars going on, I am a victim of all kinds of fucking abuse.

And you, tell me I don't how harsh this world is? All my father figures fucking abused me. I want to believe the world isn't so bad but thats all your seeing. Why are you even telling me this i just said I wanted to be a counsellor wth

You know me? Yeah right. You know the version of me i use around others to get them to like me. To think of me as a good person.

Sorry just needed to vent lol

When you like skk, a lot of movies & movie based fics so you decide to stay up all night writing fanfic outlines (I'm not even done and this is movie #1)

I am like 3 weeks away from an official adhd & autism spectrum diagnosis :p

(aka when the final test is, my psychiatrist is pretty fucking sure but they need to be certain)