Part One Of 20 Parts.

Part one of 20 parts.

Evan woke up in the morning at Tommy’s with his head still foggy from the night before. Tommy was behind him with his face buried in his neck and their legs tangled. Evan didn’t want to leave this moment of peace.

He didn’t want to go back to his house. He didn’t want to go to work, he didn’t want to worry about the 118, and he didn’t want to be around Eddie.

He didn’t recognize Eddie anymore. His best friend was not the same man he idolized, fought Ravi about, and didn’t see the man Tommy thought was his competition. He couldn’t get over Eddie throwing it in his face that Buck was making Bobby’s death about himself. It was like Eddie never knew Buck to begin with. And that was the root to all of their arguments.

He felt Tommy shift and bring Evan closer to him. He placed a kiss at the base of Evan’s skull.

“Good morning, How did you sleep?”

“Better than the last three weeks.” Evan mumbled as he turned towards the older man and buried his face in his chest. “ I just want to stay here and not face the world right now.”

“Well, you can stay here as long as you want. I’m going to make breakfast.”

“No, stay here with me please. I’ve missed you.” Evan looked pained.

“Evan.”

“Bobby told me I would be ok but, I’m not! I can’t keep doing this by myself.”

“Then don’t. You don’t have to do this by yourself. Let me help you.”

“Then I feel like I’m letting Bobby down.”

“Baby, Bobby wouldn’t want you taking care of everyone else at the detriment of yourself.”

“I know, but, I feel like I’m failing everyone. No one wants to talk with me. I’m trying to make sure the 118 doesn’t fall apart. But, everyone keeps pushing me away, avoiding me, talking behind my back, or in Eddies case yelling at me.”

“They are grieving. But, no one should be pushing you away. Don’t get me started on Diaz! But everyone else should be checking on you too.”

“Bobby was wrong about me no one needs me right now. “ Evan sobbed. He was so over crying.

Tommy held him tightly “I’ve got you babe. Let it all out.”

Evan cried himself asleep. Tommy got out of bed and decided to make some phone calls.