Romeo Gigli velvet Coat In Vanity, Ottobre 1989. Photographed By Alistair Taylor-Young. Headpiece By

Benjamin Sack — Suburbs of Utopia (pen, ink, on woven paper, 2012)

Sergey Shigolev- Morning Stars, 1928.

tiles, united states c. 1880s.

7 years ago today: May 13th 2018 paper collage „Ich suche immer nur zweierlei Orte auf – die, an denen man sich traf, und die, an denen man sich möglichst nicht wieder begegnet“ („I always return only to two kinds of places – the ones where we met, and the ones where we hopefully won’t meet again“). The second of the „Montréal Tetralogie“, and its title more true than ever.

The Angel, Standing in the Sun

Joseph Mallord William Turner

oil on canvas, 1846

Laurent Grasso (French, 1972) - Studies Into the Past (2024)

“I had been right, I was still right, I was always right.”

Albert Camus, The Stranger

running on a different operating system

to brush most people's probing aside

is effortless, deflecting blows so they never see you - I've had to catch myself noticing people in weak moments. they make you feel like some unfathomable pillar

created by something ancient or alien, or maybe just yourself.

I despise the predatory element,

a weakness seen

that could blend in better -

now it’s something kind,

learning what makes people tick. I wonder if other people like me exist

building fortresses of knowledge

no one suspects we possess -

I catch myself studying people,

watching from outside the circle

of normal human interaction.

it’s not malicious,

just different -

a compulsion maybe, or just curiosity distilled into methodical observation.

it started as survival,

now I notice the pause before a practiced lie,

the subtle shift in posture when someone feels threatened -

all these blaring, bright neon signs I used to try to mimic.

sometimes I wonder if they can tell

I’m building libraries of their expressions,

cataloging their reactions

and how they signal belonging - it’s exhausting work.

sometimes I catch someone watching me,

an eye-meet, wonder-if they’re like me moment, or if they just sense something off

and wrong -

we were constellations once,

maybe now there’s just a slight delay

in recognition,

while I wonder if they’re like me

collecting a moment for too long.

Found in an old polish apartament building. Most probably it is the main switch for the building.

Blixa Bargeld and Meret Becker, Ende Neu promotional poster (2000)