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I am excited to see your takes on these

I don’t like this because I was waiting for the part where Nath realises how Candy feels about him and wins her heart 😭😭😭 they should be together!

but besides this little detail it’s beautiful ❤️

Sober - A CandyXNath songfic

this was heavily inspired by  a conversation I had with @imjustsomebodyelse. I’ll still do the collab piece  with “Undrunk”, but I thought this song also fitted the theme so well!

And also, I did this because of a request I received on my askbox, so thank you anon! 

The song is Sober, by Selena Gomez

-x-

Candy took another shot, hoping that the burning taste of vodka would take her sorrow away, and turned around to look at the crowd. By then, should be studying for the upcoming exam, but her mind could only focus on the face that approached her.

Damn, he was the last person she wanted to see at the moment. After all, he was the reason she was there, drinking all by herself in a corner of the Snake Bar. She couldn’t blame him, though. This place was his second home, of course he’d be there that night.

“Hey.” Nath took a seat  in the barstool next to her and quickly ordered a drink for both of them, as she had already finished hers. “So, how’s college?”

“Good. How’s… Everything?” 

“Fine, I guess.”

They stayed silent, Candy’s heart growing more sad with every second that passed. How did their love turn into this cold, lifeless relation?

We fall for each other at the wrong time

Only for a moment but I don’t mind

Guess I don’t know where to draw the line. the line, the line

We’re playing the same game every night

She vividly remembered high school, their relationship back then was pure bliss. When she moved, all she wanted was to stay with him. Be with him. And then, four years later, she got back. The consequences of her actions, however, would mark her until the present moment.

Candy tried to restore what they had, god knows she did, but his heart was stone cold. He didn’t react  anymore to her touch, his words were always sarcastic.

It took months for him to be his friend again and, even though she wanted more, she was content with that. But, then, one night, he made a proposition, one that she should never have accepted.

Being friends with benefits with Nath was something absurd. She loved him, more than anything, and reducing her dreams of a life with him to some casual hook ups would slowly kill her.

But she said yes. Every damn time, Candy said yes. She could blame the alcohol, but she’d be fooling herself. Her love for him made her accept this crumb of affection. But he fucked her so good and made her feel things that nobody else ever did.

Up in the clouds, yeah you know how to make me want you

When we come down, I know, yeah I know it’s over

That was why she pulled him closer once again and sealed their lips in a kiss. He took her into his apartment, where their drunk bodies became one, roughly pounding into the mattress. When she noticed it, another night had been passed in his bed.

You don’t know how to love me when you’re sober

When the bottle’s done you pull me closer

You’re saying all the things that you’re supposed to

But you don’t know how to love me when you’re sober

Candy opened her eyes and immediately recognized the bedroom where she was. The sound of running water caught her ears, he was in the shower. Quickly, she got dressed and caught her phone to see if anyone contacted her during the night. There was only one message from Chani, an answer to her previous one.

“You deserve better”, it said.

She was about to answer when Nath returned to the bedroom in a towel. He opened the wardrobe and started to look for clean clothes in silence. Not a single kiss, caress or word. 

Why’s it so different when we wake up?

Same lips, same kiss, but not the same touch

Don’t you know you’re doing just enough, but not enough?

But I know what’s next and I want so much

She left the apartment soon after, feeling emptiness fill her up. Her optimistic side told her that one day he’d be ready to love her again, she’d just have to wait. But how much of herself would she lose until then?  Was her suffering worth it?’

I know I should leave, I know I should, should, should

But your loves too good, your loves too good, good, good

I know I should leave, I know I should, should, should

But your loves too good, your loves too good, good, good

She never felt this much love for anyone as she did for him. The  moments they spent together before were magical. They were a  dream come true. But since she came back, he wasn’t the same. Maybe she should accept the truth: perhaps it wasn’t meant to be.

You don’t know how to love me when you’re sober

When the bottle’s done you pull me closer

You’re saying all the things that you’re supposed to

But you don’t know how to love me when you’re sober

As she walked to her dorm, Candy typed a quick message to Nath. As she pressed the ‘send’ button, a part of her died, but at  least she did what she had to do.

“I’m sorry,  but I can’t do this anymore”

You’ve got a hold on me

You’re like a wasted dream

I give you everything

But you don’t know how to love me when you’re sober

Oh, for example minha??? I think it means my. And also família which is family xdddd it’s pretty obv (but it counts too!!) and I also know sim and naõ (or não? I don’t remember sorry) which are basic words but whatever

But I’m really curious about other languages so I hope that I will know more soon

And I almost forgot the most important word: burro (dumb? I guess)

I realised that I'm slowly learning Portugese from your posts. I already know like 2 words (but it's still something!)

Omg kkkkk which words did you learn? I’m curious.

now THIS is something I’m definitely gonna be part of

Hey everyone, we are going to do an event. Everyone is welcome to join, so please reblog this message. So many people can enjoy.

Living together with the HSL boys

It’s a really random something I thought about today, so why not

Armin:

it might be surprising at first, but Armin likes to wake up early

personally, I refuse that shitty job he has canonically, because it doesn’t sound anything at all like him. he has a job what he actually enjoys, but something he can do from home

when you arrive home, he sometimes surprises you with already finished lunch

but if not, you make it together tho the washing is yours

he still spends a lot of time with playing inside, so after a time you buy him a pet

he totally refuses to care for that pet, but if you’re careful enough you can see him cuddling it :)

going to an amusement park is a quite usual habit for the two you

Castiel:

chaotic days are average days, but that’s okay

you might be having breakfast when he stands up I have an idea!, grabs his guitar and plays something

he’s a little bit shy when he has the first ideas for a song, but still asks for your opinion and values it just as much as the other band members’

always be ready to walk Pancake, because sometimes he just can’t, he’s too tired to go out and possibly meet other people

he often lets you dye his hair, but if you ever braid it while he’s asleep, prepare to die tho he secretly likes it

he gets pretty embarassed if you play his songs, bonus you sing it too, bonus if you can’t sing

when he falls asleep, you could even tear down the whole house, he’d sleep anyway

Kentin:

Kentin likes to overlseep, but opening a pack of cookies can wake him up very fast

he likes to snack occasionally, but overall he eats healthily. he doesn’t follow any specific diet, but helps you with it if you do

he also works out every day, usually at Kim’s gym, but he burnt most of his camo clothes on a sacrificial bonfire already

sometimes you just lay out in your garden or in the park, even after it’s already dark

with him, expect a lot of random baking-marathons

you usually bake much more than you can eat, so you often invite over your friends

Lysander:

again, I refuse Lysander’s canon life after high school. I imagine him keeping the farm and often being there too, but in my mind he lives in the city and Leigh helps him with the farm

so when you’re at the farm he likes to change his Victorian style clothes and gives all in all cowboy vibes, and after a time he keeps it in other days too. normal days he wears jeans and a plaid shirt, but every time you go out somewhere (which is pretty often) he changes back to his very elegant clothes

and yes, you often eat out. not every day, but you often have dinner in a restaurant, even without a special occasion

after high school he doesn’t go to university, but joins the music industry as a singer / songwriter. he’d have a hard time deciding between having a solo carrier and being part of Crowstorm

after you’re done with work, he usually waits for you in the parking lot, maybe even go in when your shift is over with a bouquet a flowers

I think you have a flat, because having two houses with a garden to tend to would be too much. the flat would be relatively big tho

I also think that you have a piano as Lysander knows and likes to play on it. sometimes he’d sing too and his heart just dies if you join in

Nathaniel:

between the two of you, Nathaniel is the one who wakes up sooner

he doesn’t let you sleep in for long tho, especially if you have to go to work, but he’s not too harsh with waking you up. he even brings you breakfast to bed sometimes

when he goes to work, he still likes to be updated with small messages like I just burnt the whole kitchen down or something like that

but no, honestly, he likes receiving small messages from you during his day

because being a police inspector takes a lot of time, even when he’s home, you always use your time together to go somewhere

if you have any hobbies, expect him to join in or at least read after it a bit

he works out daily and he also tries to make you go with him. he accepts if you say no, but appreciates if you go and watch him regardless of you not working out

in the evenings, you watch your favourite show together or just a movie. if you sleep asleep in the during it, he carries you back to your bed, switches off the TV and slips next to you, careful not to wake you up

ok I’m inventing a new tag game. when you get tagged you need to say one thing you really like about one of your wips.

example: I did a crapton of research for my wip Unshakeable and I think that made the story a lot more detailed and interesting

ok your turn! @guulabjamuns, @aelenko, @writerlywonders, @teriwrites, @sprigofbasil

Fa:

also Fa:

@vanillaamoursucrethings @marycecilyy I’m not even sorry

15. and 16. for Lance and Guardienne (for celebration!!)

thanks again Fa 🥺❤️ I don’t know much about Lance, I don’t play his route on either of my accounts 😅 so sorry if this is not close to his personality, this is just how I picture him. it turned out a bit short, but I hope you will still like it!

15. touching

I can’t imagine Lance as a touchy person, at least not in public. when it’s just the two of them, I’m sure he doesn’t have anything against roaming his hands along Guardian’s body, feeling that she is there, with him

of course, if someone (*cough* Mathieu... *cough*) flirts with Guardian, he’s there to show his affection publicly. it’s mostly just holding hands or putting his arm around her waist though, he knows she can handle herself well

if it’s Guardian touching him (eg. she hugs him), then he’s surprised first, but he won’t push her away of course. her running her hands down his arms or abs... that’s definitely not unpleasant either

16. favorite types of kissing

small kisses on the lips aren’t really Lance’s thing, he prefers long, tounged kisses

I can picture him liking to kiss Guardian’s hand, but more like in a joking way, along with his mocking smile

when it’s just the two of them, he likes to trail kisses down her stomach, her reaction to it always makes him smile proudly. he also loves her neck; sloppy kisses are not as good as hickeys, but they are not permanent at least

send me headcanon prompts!

Hey, I hope you are doing well and taking care of yourself. Just wanted to tell you that we are missing you, so (no pressure) come back when you will be ready.

ahhh this ask was literally the first thing I saw when I came back after a short break, sorry for only answering now ~_~

(I have to be honest, the thought of not answering at all crossed my mind so I could just see it in my askbox forever, it made me so happy <3 now I must create a tag on my blog for kind things!!! smh)

anyway haha yeah, I'm really sorry for this "wave" of activity - I'm either on the net 24 / 7, or I ignore everyone and everything until the leaves start falling down, there's no in between. I'm trying to be more active and write more! and really, my endless gratitude and love to anyone who cares about me enough to leave a reassuring message like this

wow, that soon?

I'm thinking about having an AO3 account, and uploading everything I've written there... and also start writing there as well

it would be actually useful, because I never know how to write things in as little words as possible, and AO3 is better for longer writings

I could also just simply learn how to write properly hahah

on the other hand, I have fanfiction ideas, and Tumblr is not the best platform for those...