(Coming From A Transmasc Cyborg) They Call Me An Emale The Way Only My Electronic Parts Make Me Male

Baby bluesೄྀ࿐

In his room, windows open, warm out, smells like woodsmoke. It's quiet. We're playing separate games, looking at each other, separate music. He listens to rock, I have Lana in my earbuds. I'm in his boxers. It's easy. Sometimes feeling like a woman is the best thing in the world. Sometimes, it does feel like a blessing.

"Don't assume that just because you'd like to be with me 24/7 and I'm not comfortable with that that you love me more than I love you"

That's quite literally exactly what that means???? Like obviously you mean more to me than I do to you??? Like you'll fuck me in your bed but then I'm not allowed to stay in said bed because you need your little wind down time (you are my wind down time) which, of course, doesn't involve me, since I'm just too much for you to relax around. Like what??? What the fuck do you think the point of relationships is. "I'd move in with you right now if I could" No you literally wouldn't????? Like obviously if you can't even handle this you'll never be able to settle down with someone! Except, no, you just won't be able to settle down with me. It's not that you don't like people in your space when you're having peaceful time, it's that you don't like me in your space. And the right girl will come along and you'll want to be with her 24/7 and god I hope she doesn't want anything to do with you. And if she does I hope I never hear anything about it. The physical intimacy is just fine, sure, but emotionally it's just too much. Your lifestyle just doesn't allow it. Don't you know what that means to me?? I TOLD him what he was getting into when I agreed to be physical. Like I told you that it would change how I felt about things and it was another level of closeness and if he didn't feel the same about that then he needed to just leave me the fuck alone but nooooo. This is so exhausting. I hope he finds someone that he actually wants to be around and I hope I never, ever have to see anything about it. I hope I don't make it past twenty if it isn't with him.

Y'all ever wake up some mornings and just decide that under No Fucking Circumstances will you be going to school?? Yeah

Oh?? My God????

Felt evil and deranged, but turns out I just needed a nice shower with watermelon soap, vanilla shaving foam, and baby lotion, with Work Song by Hozier playing in the background. Silly me.

Me n this aesthetic are in looove 🍬🧸

Some orange vibes for summer slooowly rolling in ~``☆