Raskolnikov Would Do Numbers On Tumblr

people will clown on me for this because he killed two people but I just love how sweet Rodya is. He is so cruel and mean and uncouth a lot or even most of the time, but then he does things like constantly thoughtlessly give the last of his money away to anyone who needs it more than him, cries when he’s in his psychotic episode and can’t remember who Razumikhin is, has that very sweet and tender moment with Polenka, begs the police to get a doctor for Marmeladov and says he’ll pay for it despite having nothing at all himself. At the same time he is capable of terrible things and is often terrible specifically to the people who love him and want to help, and oscillates wildly between the two. It’s that juxtaposition that holds so much of the interest of the narrative itself for me. A lot of people focus on how awful he is and while that is also honestly such a fun part of his character, that alone is not what makes him compelling to me. I have so much tenderness for his character despite what he’s done because he is just so mentally ill and has been through and been witness to so much hardship. He is not easy to love or understand but it’s so beautiful and sweet that Razumikhin, Sonya, his family and his other friends love him so dearly anyway. I truly think the suffering he is constantly surrounded by is the thing that has driven him to psychosis. Specifically I think of when he goes to the police station in part two and says he has been “shattered by poverty.” In these little moments of sweetness and lucidity towards others, even in the depths of his illness, we can still see the little boy in him who so desperately wanted to help that poor horse.

Federico García Lorca, from "3 Tragedies; Blood Wedding, Yerma, Bernarda Alta,"

starting to think the amount of sleep you get has an impact on how much energy you have the next day. i’ll investigate more and get back to you

seeing that dostoyevsky quote circulated as a tumblr deep quote that’s like “your worst sin is you have destroyed yourself for nothing” or whatever annoys me to no end bc 1) context is raskolnikov telling sonya that her trauma of being forced into prostitution to keep her family from starving is worth nothing because she will never save them which is kind of a thesis the book disproves over and over again as its main theme and 2) that’s rich coming from someone who axe murdered two women because he didn’t leave the house for a few weeks and came up with a theory that said it was ok actually

Anne de Marcken, from It Lasts Forever and Then It's Over [ID'd]

“You may think: What’s happened? Good God, are they kidding? But it is a rule of life, alas, that nobody is kidding.”

— Andrew Sean Greer, Less Is Lost

Oh, Canada (2024)

haiku #6, tathev simonyan

–Beau Taplin

obsessed with her vibe