Dissociatedbi - This Blog Is My Therapist's Idea

who else mourning the person they could've been if they were treated kindly as a child

“why do you have a gap in your resume” idk why is there a gap in your staff. worry about that

petition for chronic pain to just

not

please make it stop i beg

It's a grey goose for dinner kinda night ifkyk

abused kids daydreaming: but what if there was a situation where I got hurt... and someone cared and comforted me? what then??

abused kids: oh no I'm selfish and stupid for imagining this! How could I think my pain would matter enough for someone to comfort me, I need to get over myself and start living in the real life! Comfort doesn't exist and if I'm not tough I'm not going to make it!

Jess Sharp

Holy shit today has been horrible

isn’t it weird how you can just grow up without a single person caring about you or looking out for you and with extra brutalizing on the side and you’re still alive and almost completely coherent but in so much pain and bursting with paranoia and insecurity and self doubt while all the people who did this to you are just. business as regular. where is the karma.

the fact “doctor shopping” is a term that exists at all is constantly fucking insane to me. imagine if that existed for any other profession. imagine if you went to a mechanic and told them your car was making a strange noise every time it started and they said well that’s actually not a big deal at all and it’s totally normal and you’re overexaggerating the issue so you can get car parts you don’t need. and then you left and told your friend you were considering looking for a new mechanic because of that and they were like ummm why are you mechanic shopping?? you can’t just go around to different mechanics until one tells you what you want to hear. obviously if that mechanic said your car is fine it’s fine! and you’re like oh ok i guess so you just keep driving your car like normal and then two months later it explodes and nearly kills you. now you have to pay for your medical bills AND a new car. also the mechanic that told you everything was fine is deemed completely unresponsible for this and you still owe them 300 dollars for telling you your car was fine and also all your friends STILL think you’re overreacting for wanting to find a new mechanic after the last one nearly got you killed

January was a tough year but we made it