I Avoid Writing When I'm High Because When I Was In AA I Had A Conversation There With Someone Else That

i avoid writing when i'm high because when i was in AA i had a conversation there with someone else that basically amounted to shitting on drunk/high me's writing ability.

and so now whenever i'm not sober yet feel the drive to write (something i have not felt while sober as readily. it's a rarity), i don't because i think. well anything i write now won't be as good, and it'll be inherently wrong/bad because i'll have written it from the perspective of someone who was high/drunk.

and i. wow. i am just now realizing that is incredibly cruel. it's dehumanizing actually - as if. high/drunk me (hi hello, it was just 4:20pm) is incapable of having a voice that's worthy of being heard? worthy of ever speaking at all? worthy of being remembered?

that's. that's fucking insane. wow. no wonder i guilt myself so much about my substance use. i literally did not guilt myself like this until other people reacted to me/my use in ways that felt shaming.

ah fuck. guilt/shame isn't a "symptom" of addiction. it's a result of how addicted people are treated, and how their relationships begin to decay. a lot of it is stigmatization, ableism, sanism, and not having a society of community care. awesome.

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