[my Edit]

Time to go to sleep and not wake up again

Your daughters do not exist to give you grandchildren

my two very conflicting personality traits

showering: take cold shower so you don’t get dizzy and pass out! Self care!

also me: it must feel like satan is PISSING on you and your skin must peel off like a face mask or it isn’t hot enough. You fucking wimp

negativity

i want my lungs to ache with bathwater wash my dirty soul with soap

If I live through my 20s, I’ll genuinely be surprised

Gentle reminder that the brain gets used to intense stimuli over time and that it tends to seek out things that make you feel bad again once you’re in a better place

So if you’re suffering from trauma, abuse or depression then don’t beat yourself up about wanting to feel bad again and seeking out triggers or abuse. It’s not because you deserve any of that, it’s because your brain was exposed to bad things for so long that it can’t make sense of how you’re doing now.

We’ve all been there. It’s going to be okay. You can do this.