“The best advice I’ve ever received: ‘no one else knows what they are doing either.’”
— Charles Bukowski (via quotemadness)
True Story
accidentally indulged in too much ‘me time’, turns out i’ve been reported missing for over six months and presumed dead by most local and national authorities
the trauma moods
i wonder why my life is in shambles that's weird
i'm going to redesign my room and paint a portrait and binge watch six shows and dye my hair and start a makeup brand and write a novel and read poetry and clean my whole house and
i Can't Get Out Of Bed
uh oh sisters! *showers with the lights off*
cries in the car and almost crashes accidentally
tv static noises
*wakes up* [redacted] *goes to sleep*
i haven't slept in 72 hours and i'm talking a lot about ophelia and reciting hamlet's soliloquies and everyone around me is worried
trying to sleep but there's Something In My Room
*texts abuser(s)* oh this is a fantastic idea
i'm horny and angry about it
i'm horny and sad about it
masturbates and then cries
If You Touch Me I Will Kill You
*thinks about trauma* oh that sucks for whoever that was
oh, wait, that actually happened?????
Shame
i'm going to starve myself until i'm so small no one will want me
i'm going to overeat until i'm so big no one will want me
*throws up for unknown reason*
talk about trauma, but make it funny
I CAN'T DO SOMETHING REALLY SIMPLE AND INSTEAD OF WORKING THROUGH IT I'M GONNA YELL AND HURT MYSELF UNTIL I GET TIRED
i have forgotten every single coping skill i've ever learned
hnnnnnnng
*listens to music from That Time and gets weirdly nostalgic*
i Want To Be Abused
i will never love again! ever!
confuses platonic and romantic emotions because anything that feels Good is confusing
Moon Stories AI by Alexander Tsaruk
whenever a celebrity or someone i know overdoses i always think about that study they conducted on rats in the 70s which showed that addiction isn’t some moral failing nor is it an uncontrollable monster that takes over your brain - it’s a major symptom of complete loneliness and mental isolation and the most important antidote is genuine human connection and stimulation