Depressedgirxlxx - Pretty & Dead

who am i if not damaged beyond repair?

babyfooji

Smacking them hard across the face every time they moan or sob because toys are fucking quiet, understand?

“that’s ok i understand!!!!” but it actually made me sick to my stomach

I have been trying so hard. To stay strong, to stay smart, to not stare into a spiral and relapse. But my breaks away from hypnosis are getting shorter and shorter each time. The longer I stay away the more want to listen. I always come back again and again, drain my brain again and again. Even just the thought of slipping back makes me wet and needy, makes me want to rub my mind away for hours until I am a drooling dripping mindfucked mess. I don’t know how much longer I can hold out.