My Befriended Domme Allowed Me To Stroke Myself Until I Cum But Only Using One Finger.

Well that's my tumblr side, that's my nasty side.

I got a nasty side that I keep to myself cause nobody else is into that shit 😔

The Early Years - Part 1

Partly inspired by the awesome first blog post by @markie_monroe, I am doing something I’ve been thinking about on and off and writing about some of my early experience. In a way I want to write about it because I think coming of age and early sex is still something that’s not really talked about especially for young girls. It can lead to confusion and frustration.

I grew up in a small town in the south of the UK. It was a time before the internet had made its way into homes and mobile phones were reserved for rich business people to call their stockbroker. The summer holidays when I was a kid felt like an age and it was great to have so much free time. I think it was tough for my full time working parents to know how best to keep an eye on me.

I think it was the second week of the holiday when I started meeting up with a friend and her sister. We would walk to the park or some open fields, talk and gossip, make up stories, drink coke or sometimes if we were lucky some alcopops. My friends sister was older and confident. I think that young Lucy probably had one of my first crushes on her but I didn’t really know that’s what it was at the time.

We met up most afternoons and one day we were sitting on the grass when my friends sister who I’m going to call Karen just asked out of nowhere, do you touch your pussy?

I wasn’t naive and I knew what the question meant but I was a bit thrown by the blunt nature of it. No one else I knew had ever talked about this. “Uh um I er”

Karen interrupted. “Do you know how to touch it?” Has Beth (her sister) shown you? I stared at Beth, stunned that it seemed she knew more than me about this. “Uh no I think I know.”

Karen laughs now “so you’ve done it then? You’ve touched your pussy yeah?” I was feeling more in control now. “Why? Do you want to perv over me or something?” I pushed back trying to hide my embarrassment. “I’ve seen Beth do it.” Karen replied. I watched as her sister turned a deep red colour and avoided my eye while reaching over to poke her older sister in the ribs. “It’s not pervy. I just don’t mind helping if you want to know how.” I don’t think I knew how to reply. I just shrugged and pretended to be looking at the clouds or the fields or something. I think I was hoping Karen would drop it. “You need to rub first. It helps you get wet so you can get a finger in like a cock.” I stared now, deep inside I badly wanted to know more and ask questions but I didn’t want to seem silly and babyish so I just nodded suggesting, I hoped, that this wasn’t new information to me. “You can just rub if you want. You can cum that way or put a finger in once your wet. I have cum from both.” I didn’t really know what cum meant but again I didn’t want to ask.

Karen nudged her sister and it all went quiet. After a few minutes Beth said “I’m only doing it if you and Lucy do it too.” Karen frowns “But you agreed. Bitch I want my halter top back.” It didn’t really make sense to me then but I realise now that the sisters had reached some kind of deal where Beth was going to touch herself but she backed out.

There was silence again. I tried talking about something else, a TV show I think or maybe a film. It didn’t last though, after a few minutes Karen says “I’ll do it, it show you how Lucy.” And she began to undo her jeans. I was torn. I didn’t want to seem uncool or embarrassed but at the same time I was massively curious. In a few moments, Karen was naked below the waist to her ankles with her legs open on the grass. I can’t deny I was staring. She did as she and touched herself occasionally mumbling instructions presumably aimed at me. These became more and more sporadic though as she enjoyed her own touch. After a few moments she climaxed, breathing heavily and moaning softly. Not long after she calmly pulled up her pants and smiled. “That’s how you touch yourself Lucy. You can try it at home.”

That was it then. We started talking about another film and the moment was gone. I did as Karen said though. Later that day, in the privacy of my own room after bedtime, I removed my pyjamas and lay on my bed naked. I hadn’t really looked at my vulva before and I considered it with new thoughts now. Slowly I ran my hand down my thigh and then between my legs. I gently teased and rubbed which felt good. I kept seeing Karen in my mind and I enjoyed rubbing myself thinking of what happened earlier but after a while I noticed that the shudder and moan that Karen seemed to experience wasn’t happening to me. I wondered if I was doing something wrong or maybe I needed to try a bit longer. After a while I just assumed she knew the trick that I didn’t and gave up.

Being friendzoned by a girl who doesn't care that you see her in teasing underwear. That's just hot.

This. The annoying orange isn't a leader at all.

sunday morning... rainy outside... and i'm a bit angry...

i know i will lose some followers with this post, but i'm sorry.. this is not just a "porn blog" it is "me".. it is about my feelings, what i crave, how i wish the world would be...

i'm angry, because of some comments i've read on insta, accoding to trump.

i read every day insane news from the US, and i get feared every day a bit more... but what i can't tolerate is, that in german comments to trump they all write about "the americans", the "USA"..

i know many of my followers are from the US... and yes, i do often chat with them about politics, and what is going on there... and i know many of you don't support trump, so no german should write about "the americans"... that's why i wrote on insta some comments to get the difference between "the americans" and the current president..

one important thing for me:

i'm natural submissive. i do believe in "misogynistic" fundamentals, i do believe in traditional gender roles. for example i don't think that a top leader should be female (i don't really know what gender merkel has.. "it" is brilliant.. but if she is really female, she is a huge exception).

i by myself refused the leading position in my company, because what i believe doesn't end if it comes to me. i try to act in my real life how i think it is right or wrong.

i'm against feminism. feminism for me is based on a inferiority complex. the complex to "try to be like a man". i never wanted to be a man. i love that both genders are different. i love that i'm weak, soft and round. and i love that men are stronger, harder and more muscular than me. it matches.

and one more thing: i'm very successful in my real life - and i swear, i've never been discriminated because of my gender. never ever in my life (and i work in a typical "male" job).

but all this, all my belief - has something to do with this current mad person, on one of the most powerful positions on this world!

i've read often, that everybody who is into traditional gender rules has to support trump. this is bullshit (sorry).

a good leader (the same as a good dom/master) is empathic and self-confident. he acts wise and advised. he first thinks, then acts. he first reads in the internet, what causes which beating, before he tries it in real with his sub.

i have a very good instinct for leaders, for men, for doms/masters.

and when i see trump, with his absurd hair, his absurd kind to speak, with his ridiculous way to act, he is a shame for every true alpha man. he is an ignorant, and i never get to knew a good alpha man with this trait. this trait is reserved for idiots, which need a good alpha to be leaded.

yes i do believe in male superiority. and i wish and beg, that exactly this will take place, and many american men will take care and push this idiot out of his current position. and i hope that they will speak with the tons of stupid (here on tumblr are soooo many) female subs, that voting for trump is not clever at all.

honestly, i'm not surprised - that more females vote for trump than men (in many areas). it is one argument, why i truly think about if my gender (me too) should have the right to vote.

sorry for this post... but i'm truly scared... and i feel helpless..

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I love when our bull makes my girl do nasty tasks

anyways, those cute wrinkles men get on the corners of their eyes when they smile

very cute 💖💕💘💖💞💓💘💓💘💗

Feminized

Our first feminize experience,

My Mistress dressed and styled me up, as a hook up slut. After the styling, which was very funny, we had some drinks and danced a bit...

I was her gurl for that long, hot night 💃🏼

🍆💕👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

You pigs are only worthy of me with your money

But, but,... normally I jacked off twice a day.😵