Sorry if it's a rude question, but I'm just curious if your husband knows that you have Ana?
Don't worry! I don't find it rude at all.
Small vent incoming, but he does know, and ngl, he uses it against me. He calls me crazy and shames me for it now. To add on to my last post about him, he used to compliment me when I first started losing weight, saying i looked better and was very happy that i was doing it, but now that I'm skinnier he says I have no ass and I'm just bones. He's told me he isn't attracted to me and that he doesn't find me sexy anymore. I'm kinda happy in a way cause I've come to realize he never cared about me. Just my body, and now I can lose more weight and become completely repulsive in his eyes and that makes me feel safe in a way.
girl exorcism ⊹˚. ♡
cuz sometimes we all get a little off track and need to wake the fuck up again !!! 🫶🩷
──★ ˙ ̟🐰 physical! 🎀
have an everything shower
do ur whole skincare routine
brush ur teeth, floss, dental care
arrange a new workout routine
dance, pilates, exercise, move around
go on a walk and thrive in nature like a plant or a tree
find and try out some new cute hairstyles
pamper urself! face masks, spa day, etc.
get ur beauty sleep
change your bedsheets and pillowcases
clean your makeup brushes
go through all haircare, skincare, makeup, etc. products
organise and donate or throw out all of the clothes you don't wear or don't make you feel like your own dream girl
──★ ˙ ̟🎀 mental! 🧸
write down all your thoughts. every one.
write down all the problems in your life right now
have a mental breakdown over something tiny and let all ur emotions out by bursting into tears
write down what you want and go over your dreams and goals
read over or write out your highest self and everything about them
analyse your mindset at the moment
write what limiting beliefs you have
remember and remind yourself of your "why", keep it somewhere you can see
write down all your bad habits
write down some new habits to counteract them, become your best self and to work towards the future
vaunt and go on a huuuge rant to urself about how beautiful and perfect and amazing you are bc you literally are <3
──★ ˙ ̟💬 personal! 🎀
sweep your room
open the curtains
wipe down all your mirrors
dust down all surfaces
go through all ur clothes and chuck out or donate ones you don't wear
clean out under your bed !!!!!!!!
rearrange your shelves
get some new posters & wall prints
go through all of the books, movies, series, content you're consuming right now and choose new ones that align with ur highest self
──★ ˙ ̟🎀 digital! 🎧
go through ur following on every platform and delete everyone that makes you feel even remotely negative
uninstall a bunch of apps you don't need
install useful, helpful, purposeful apps
go on the hunt for accounts that make you laugh, happy, or confident
redecorate your home page
revamp your social medias (pinterest, tumblr, instagram, etc)
go through all your playlists and reorganise your music
delete all depressing songs and media
go through your contacts, rename, delete, etc
This (but gender swapped)☝️
I hate seeing how many of us are in similar situations. It actually hurts because everyone here is so sweet and empathetic.
" i st4rv3 to have control " " i st4rv3 to look attractive " i st4rv3 myself to stop having the same body type as my abvs3r .
Fuck May.
Can yall stop being so relatable? How am I supposed to feel qUiRkY and different when we keep going through the same things. ( TДT)
lately I’ve been binging my fucking crazy because like you ever have those thoughts where your like “it’s okay I love my body it’s okay to eat!!” Then once you finish that last bite ur like fuck why did I eat that this is why ur so big
just me?
controversial opinion: regular people should not force people with €ds to eat.
regular person = not a doctor
“that’s just your disordered brain talking” hear me out. what does it help? genuinely, what does forcing someone who has an extreme fear of food to eat help with? I’m primarily talking about 4n0rexia in this context but this applies to every €D.
“it’ll keep them alive a little while longer” no, it won’t. one meal will not reverse the long history of damage done to their body. best case scenario: they will never want to be around you again, they’ll go back to isolating themselves which will be detrimental to their mental health because the idea that ‘people = want me to get fat not better’ has been re-affirmed by you and they will not ask for help in the future. worst case scenario: they do the above AND you have guaranteed the fact that the minute they are back home they will try to get rid of it through exercise, l*xatives, p*rging, or long fasts which they likely would not have felt the need to compensate with if they hadn’t been forced to eat.
I know that for myself, and for other people with multiple types of €ds, that being around people when food isn’t involved or at least not the primary focus, while yes it does aid in our disorder because we aren’t eating, it also gives us the ability to engage in positive activities outside of our disorder. If someone is able to take steps to heal their mental health and create friend groups who don’t judge them but supports them, they’re more likely to recover, or at least form some better habits. Our disorders are exhausting. We need times that our disorder isn’t ruling over too.
“part of getting better is doing things that’s hard, that includes eating.” yes, this is true, but you are not a doctor. If a person is in a state where force feeding is required to keep them alive they need more than one meal forced down them. they need mental health support, support in general, and a doctor to oversee all of it. this strongly applies to ARFID and ORTHO as well but forcing sometime to eat their fear foods/foods they struggle with is NOT helpful.
Forced recovery, even in an institutional setting, with our without mental health support in addition to re-feeding, has been shown to be significantly ineffective compared to willing admittance.
This is not a fucking factory where you can pump a person full of food for a few weeks until they weight x-amount, give them no more help than a doctor who can’t be bothered to see their patients more than once a week in their own hospital and even then the time spent with someone and the questions asked are unhelpful for everyone, then drop them back off at home and expect them not to relapse even harder.
Some people do need outside help. Not everyone can/wants to/has the ability to recover by themselves, some will need a push from outside and in the moment it may feel like a loss of autonomy but it’s what they need. The grey line between thinking just eating and doing breathing exercises will fix them vs. structured support and patience in all aspects of a person’s life isn’t that grey.
All this being said, some people will not recover. No matter what you do, no matter how much you care, no matter how much help you give, not everyone gets better. Ultimately, recovery comes from within and it is only up to the individual if they want to recover. If someone has shown they have no intention of recovery and an understanding of the consequences, it should not be forced upon them. Bodily autonomy applies to more than just reproductive health.
Rate my current safe food stash!!
Can anyone give me low c4l orders at Starbucks?
10 of my favorite easy glow up tips! 𐙚 ‧₊˚ ⋅
get a gua sha!! not expensive at all and made such a difference in my face shape and carving out my cheek bones and jawline. there’s lots of good tutorials on tiktok or youtube!
tea in the morning/night! there’s so many teas to help with different things but my favorite’s are spearmint tea for clearing skin and green tea for reducing bloating.
ice your face! helps SO much with de-puffing and closing up your pores! dipping your face in a bowl with ice water can reduce inflammation, help with acne and reduce oily skin!
make sure to get enough sleep! It’s so easy to stay up scrolling on tumblr until the sun comes up but getting enough sleep is so important mentally and physically!
find a skincare routine that works for you and remember too much skincare can be bad for your skin! my skin was breaking out the worst when i was using a bunch of skincare and It’s cleared so much since i simplified my routine.
use a lash/brow serum! my favorite brand is grande lash and it’s a little pricey but using castor oil works as well and it’s super affordable.
going on walks! I’ve never been a fan of intense exercises and I’m a chronic bed rotter but putting on my favorite hot girl playlist and strutting on the treadmill/sidewalk is genuinely so fun!
rosemary oil for hair growth! my holy grail of hair growth products along with a scalp massager. my whole life my hair grew so slow and since using rosemary oil i have to trim my bangs twice a month sometimes!
i cannot stress this one enough..wear what YOU want! don’t let new trends or judgment from others stop you from embracing your true style. we look our best when we feel most confident!
most importantly ~ take care of yourself! make sure you’re eating enough, drinking water, listening to your body and being gentle with yourself always. improving ourselves can be so fun but make sure it’s not at the expense of your mental health <3