I Want A Story From Fyodor's Perspective But It Turns Out He's Just As Unhinged As The Protagonist Of

I want a story from Fyodor's perspective but it turns out he's just as unhinged as the protagonist of Crime and Punishment. Like I just want scenes that we've already witnessed from other people's perspectives where Fyodor's outwardly playing the level headed mastermind, but this time we get his internal monologue and he's always two seconds away from loosing it entirely.

After successfully pulling off his murder spree on Ace's ship he just goes and lies face down on his bed for a week, flipping between being sick at what he's done and then proclaiming his own genius the next. Throwing about his things in a fit of disgust and then sadly picking them back up again.

Fyodor zoning out during one of his and Dazai's prison conversations because he's gone from admiring Dazai's smarts to picturing murdering him with an axe and then chastising himself for thinking of such crude methods. Meanwhile Dazai has started throwing things at the barrier to get Fyodor's attention again, until Fyodor decides actually axe murder is the correct thought.

I want him stood with that practiced smile on his face as Nikolai is explaining his prison break game, meanwhile there's a smaller internal version of Fyodor screaming and crying about how unfortunate his choice in minions is.

Laughing as he injects himself with a deadly poison outwardly and inwardly just going "shitshitshit- I can't back out, Dazai's doing it, so I have to, he can't look braver than me, better laugh too, hahaha, Dazai you fool you've injected yourself too, WHY AM I DOING THIS, I HATE NEEDLES, I WANT MY BED."

I just think Fyodor deserves to be a mess as much as the other geniuses.