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Independence Day

Happy 4th of July, Pixies! 

Vent- Why am I always the Bad Guy?

Sorry, guys, I know it's random and it seems like I'm just rambling about nonsense but I just really need to get my feelings out right now. Please understand. 

     Why am I always the bad guy? I am always willing to listen to my acquaintances, friends, teachers, and of course, my family. They could be complaining or crying over the most randomness of things, but I still listen to them and keep my comments to myself because I know it would not be kind to say in a time like that. However, the tables turn when it comes my time to ask for support or someone to talk to. Everyone plays the "woe is me" card and wants me to bust out the violin for them. They start to make me feel bad and sure, on the outside it looks as though I'm coping with my issues just fine, but in reality, you all don't know how much your non sympathy truly hurts me. You make me feel as if I am a little kid whose opinion and feelings don't matter. Obviously, you don't seem to understand that I am a person just like all of you and that I will have thoughts and emotions because I am a 16 year old teenager. 

     You may think, "Oh, you're being stupid, just brush it off." Well, it's not easy for me to brush off crap like this especially when you try to guilt-trip me and make me feel horrible like I'm being rude to you when all I'm asking is for some support. That's what your family and friends are here for, they support you, not shove you away like you don't matter! I guess you could also argue "We only want what's best for you though. You should be grateful!" Oh, don't get me wrong, I am grateful for what I have. What more could I even ask for? I have many things that not all kids get to have, a roof over my head, food to put in my gullet, a school willing to give me education, a nice car, and even the opportunity to go to trading school. Heck, colleges from all over the country are requesting me to be one of their future students. I am extremely grateful for all this, I tell you that. However, let me address one of these things as an example of what I'm trying to say. 

     You can argue with me "I only want what's best for you." Yes, I understand you want what's best for me, but also take into consideration at least a little, is that really what I want though? Recently, I was accepted into trading school for a biomedical program, which for many high school students, can be the opportunity of a lifetime. I am still planning to attend that school, but the main reason I applied for a program like that is because I felt I would be unaccepted if I didn’t. It was not necessarily something I wanted to originally do, I only did to impress my family and also gave up on the idea that my friends would be happy for me. I previously had some of them complaining to me to stop bragging, when all I was doing was discussing plans that were stressing me out on the inside. I was not trying to be a show off, I just really needed to get that angst off my chest, but apparently that’s not okay if I do that. It’s only a luxury that everyone else gets because they have so-called “depression” and “disabilities.” 

     Now, before you start getting angry at me, I am fully aware that depression and disabilities are a real thing. Trust me, enough family members and friends I know suffer from at least one of these things. That’s fine, I understand you have a condition and I’m not blaming you for something you received that was completely out of your control, but please don’t use it for your every advantage to earn attention and guilt-trip people. Also, I personally view the idea of self diagnosing yourself as complete bullshit (sorry for swearing). You never know, you think you could have depression, but in reality, you are just unhappy at that moment. That’s all I’m trying to say. I also disapprove of the fact how people tell me this constantly too when I am unable to sit and do their bidding. “I’m gonna go kill myself!” Look, suicide is no joke and people who actually say that seem only to do it to earn attention, because if you were really serious about it, you would not be saying it and you would have already done it before anybody even realized that you were suicidal. Let’s face it though, a majority of people who say “I have depression” and “I’m gonna kill myself” is commonly teens and young adults. Why? It’s simple, because they have nothing better to do than sit on their asses, on their electronics, and complain to start drama and earn attention from others when really they were the ones to start up all the crap. 

     I know, I know, truth hurts, and I’m such a horrible person for telling you like it is, but you will either understand that I have a point or you will just leave because you can’t handle the real and ugly truth. You obviously have been cooped up living in a digital bubble for so long that you can’t even accept the truth about reality and the world you live in. I am a person who can’t be stuck in front of a screen all day because I actually have responsibilities in real life that I need to do, not just sit and play video games and text people for 16 hours a day. It’s ridiculous how many people can’t understand that. Especially when it’s those closest to me who can’t seem to get the message. Why should I keep wasting my breath with people like that if all they’re going to do is guilt-trip me for attention and judge every move I make to be a well adjusted adult? I don’t judge you and I don’t try and guilt-trip you for attention even when I need it. I never talk to you about my problems because you don’t give me that same luxury I give to you. That just shows how much you care about yourself and not your peers. You don’t know how much I care about each and every one of my friends and family, whether it be knowing you in the real world or knowing you online, and it hurts to know that I would put my life first before you, but you would never do such a thing like that for me because you care more about your well-being than mine. If you cared in the same manner as me, we would both be on the same page, not in separate books. 

     Alright, I think that’s all I have to say. If you’re lucky enough to be reading this part, that really means the world to me. That shows some of you proved me wrong and that some of you actually care. For that, thank you from the bottom of my heart. It makes me feel so much happier. :) It gives me another reason to smile again. :D Again, thank you and sorry for the rambling, but I just really needed to get this off my chest. It’s been bothering me for the last few weeks and I feel that writing this vent out was actually very good therapy for me. So, I much appreciated you listening, and I will be sure to post again very soon. Thank you and have a jolly good day. :) :D :) :D 

Mine-imator - Curiosity 

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One of my new ocs-- she is one of the split personalities of my main oc, Dawn Wasabi. I can say this at the least-- she's childish and somewhat aggressive. I have yet to develop a bio for her and she is still unnamed. 

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Romeo (The Admin), Admin Xara, Xara, and Gordon @ GaryTheCreator Human Romeo @ FlareRC Magnus and Ellegaard @ XxderpykevinxX Unnamed OC @ dawn-wasabi  Scenery @ dawn-wasabi 

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Romeo, Xara, Gordon, Magnus, and Ellegaard @ TellTale Games Unnamed OC @ dawn-wasabi 

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Minecraft Story Mode @ TellTale Games 

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YouTube

BBH, CG5, Hyper Potions - MUFFIN | (Crystal Harp cover) #shorts

I tried to increase the volume because of the creek rushing in the background. We filmed this at the vortex in Sedona, AZ. I apologize again

New YT short:

"BBH, CG5, Hyper Potions - MUFFIN | (Crystal Harp cover)"

Among Us NG - Mother Orange and Cyan 

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Speedpaint - https://youtu.be/FrY57gxaMF4 

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Description and Credits - https://www.deviantart.com/pixiemafia137/art/Among-Us-NG-Mother-Orange-and-Cyan-857802235 

Full Image: https://www.deviantart.com/pixiemafia137/art/MCSM-Next-Gen-Eating-for-Six-808511787 

DSMP/iDots - The Conception V2 (Crimson NG) 

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A different perspective of my previous post, "The Conception." 

Though it was not noticeable, Bad and Skeppy were each holding one of the twins in version one. However, with having their backs turned towards the camera, the babies were not visible in any way. I allowed my family to have a first look of version one, and it was my mother who suggested I make a view where the twins were seen. So, with having the SAI file saved with the extra edits, and than some, I created this version. 

Version One 

If you have not seen version one, or a recent status post of mine, this render is fanart in reference to a chapter of a new book I recently published on Wattpad. I have released part one of a particular oneshot titled "The Conception." Be sure to check it out if you are interested. 

“The Little Things” (Crimson AU/NG) 

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Models: 

BadBoyHalo @ TheBioticJoker (Planet Minecraft) (edited)

Skeppy @ Pumpapastej (Planet Minecraft) (edited)

Skeppy eboy @ P0mp (Planet Minecraft) (edited)

Abel (Infant Style 1) @ dawn-wasabi

Asriel (Infant Style 1) @ dawn-wasabi 

Textures: 

Wiccan White Pentagram Vector Clip Art (edited) 

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Featured: 

BadBoyHalo

Skeppy 

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MCYT @ various content creators. Abraxas and Asriel belong to me. This next gen/au belongs to me. 

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The great granddaughters of Romeo, Xara, Magnus, and Ellegaard. It’s been so long since I last drew them and their designs have been outdated. 

http://fav.me/ddyl3m7 

Credit to https://www.deviantart.com/diamond-bases for the bases. 

MCYT - American Doll Posse Parody 

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US Version (top image): 

I’ve listened to Tori Amos’s album, “American Doll Posse,” since its release in 2007 when I was only three years old. It has always been a major favorite of mine above all other albums and musicians’ work, and I feel that it is “under fucking rated” by even most Toriphiles. It seems only the most biggest or true fans seem to actually like this album despite its controversial themes. I just recently returned to jamming out to it, but what came with re-listening was sparked motivation for another render. Similar to “Cornflake Girl” and unlike this album as a whole, I have made both an American version and European version. Those featured in each piece are based on their current situation in the world. Quite obvious, the YouTubers seen here are all (originally) American content creators, so perhaps who other to feature. I chose the particular set of characters to use based on the creators I most favor, those being the Dream Team, the former Trio, and the Benchtrio, but excluded some of these individuals and placed them in the EU version. They are lined up in the postures of the dolls I felt their personas can be most related or similar to (personal choice). 

EU Version (bottom image): 

A quick disclaimer: my geography and flags may be incorrect, but I assumed the flag I depicted here is the European Union flag, or Europe as whole’s flag. Please correct me if I am indeed wrong. Also, I conducted my simple math incorrectly and thought I had five characters to work with, but then realized I only had four remaining personas that I originally intended to work with. Instead, I have featured four out of the five dolls, one of which is duplicated (George and Tubbo both in the place  and postures of Clyde). One more thing to clarify is that I know a6d is not a member of the Dream SMP, but I featured his persona here anyway because the rest of the former Trio are in the US Version I made beforehand. 

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US Version Line-up; left to right: 

Santa (Sanatorium) - Skeppy Clyde (Clitorides) - BadBoyHalo Isabel (Historical) - Ranboo Tori (Terratories) - Dream Pip (Expiratorial) - Sapnap 

EU Version Line-up; left to right: 

Clyde (Clitorides) - GeorgeNotFound Isabel (Historical) - a6d Tori (Terratories) - Tommyinnit Clyde (Clitorides) - Tubbo 

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EU Flag - http://marionfellows.scot/2021/06/18/mp-urges-applications-as-eu-settlement-deadline-approaches/ 

Mo'Creature Complete Pack (Models, Armors (WIP), Sounds) @ Milix_Dr3AM[FR] Polaroid Camera (gray) @ Minecraft Heads Skeppy eboy @ P0mp BadBoyHalo @ EB21 Ranboo @ Ender_Cookie Dream @ Maddcroxk Sapnap @ Derpp 

Hoodienotfound @ OhWowItsAndy a6d @ N/A (original uploader deleted or deactivated) tommyinnit @ Cornygenixyt tubbo @ crisboy 

*Rig pack and its creator can be found on Mine Imator forums. The skins I used and their own creators can be found on Planet Minecraft. As listed here, the camera improvisation can be found on Minecraft Heads. 

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Skeppy’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/Skeppy 

BadBoyHalo’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/thesaintsofgames 

Ranboo’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/Ranboo 

Dream’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/dream 

Sapnap’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/Sapnap 

GeorgeNotFound’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/GeorgeNotFound 

a6d’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/a6doff 

Tommyinnit’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/TommyInnit 

Tubbo’s YT - https://www.youtube.com/c/Tubbo 

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American Doll Posse @toriamos 

Album photography @ Blaise Reutersward 

Photography inspired images - http://www.yessaid.com/photos-2007-americandollposse.html 

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