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When we first started this journey, I wasn’t able to completely enjoy a date or a moment with another man. I do enjoy meeting new men and the fun that comes along with it but I always felt that I was only doing it for my husband.

Don’t get me wrong, not that doing it was bad, I couldn’t just let go and be in the moment. I guess there was always some apprehension hidden somewhere.

I know that my husband loves me unconditionally and I love him back with the same complete absoluteness. However it wasn’t until I was able to love and trust myself with that same absolute certainty that I could fully enjoy this gift that my husband had given me. He constantly reminds me, “It’s ok to let go, don’t worry because I’ll never let you fall.” For me, that was scary, to just let go and enjoy this just for myself. Honestly I didn’t know how to do it. The love and trust it takes to allow this and also to accept this can only be described as skydiving, jumping out of a plane knowing your husband packed your chute. A leap of faith. And when I land, he’s always there with open arms, encouraging me, accepting me, loving me. You keep packing and I’ll keep jumping.