Don't look at my husband.
She knows you are a cuckold and she should share this with you. She also knows that cheating sex feels so much better, you not knowing, not having to tell you the details. Just enjoying that feeling of being wild and free.
Now that your wife has a boyfriend, and now that she and he have become sexually exclusive to each other, you sometimes wish that she wasn't quite so beautiful and sexy, because her beauty just makes it all that frustrating for you to have to live completely pussy free.