Reading The Infernal Devices Is So Fucking Painful.

i am a big believer in letting music (and other media) come to you when you're ready for it. you may only know vaguely of an acclaimed beloved artist and suspect that you'd be into them but just... not ever get around to it. and then in 15 years one of their songs just hits you the right way and what a gift to suddenly have all of their works to explore! there is no hurry; what is good is always good.

You need motivation to study? Let me introduce you to spiteful studying. When you study a subject to prove someone wrong. When you spend hours writing up notes so that you can get that grade and smile smugly at the teacher who predicted you a lower grade. Find someone to prove wrong, it can be a teacher, a parent, friend or just to prove society that you’re so much more capable then they say you are!

Trust me, it works.

every day o need to save money and then there is some kind of little fucking item

The worst part about Liam Payne dying is that people are posting about “the switch up is crazy”

Like no. He was an abuser and made horrible decisions, but nobody wanted him to die. He was getting hate for an INCREDIBLY valid reason, but we all recognized that he needed mental and physical help. He needed to go to rehab. He needed to get away from drugs and alcohol and improve upon himself away from the public. No one wanted him to die.

We’re not mourning the life of an abuser, we are mourning the part of him that we adored and looked up to for a massive part of our childhood/ teenage years. He was a huge part of how I was introduced to my love of music. And yes, he did horrible things and made horrible decisions and over the last few years has been anything but admirable, but none of us wanted this.

Maya didn’t want this. And everyone saying that it’s her fault can actually go burn in hell. She likely already blames herself enough. She likely already wishes she hadn’t spoken up about it out of the guilt that she likely feels. You guys commenting all over the socials about how this is her fault and “are you happy now?” Are actually horrible people.

A 7 year old boy just lost his father. A woman just lost her long term boyfriend. Two parents just lost their son. Several young children just lost their uncle. Show some fucking respect. Joking about it and hating on people who had nothing to do with what happened is not doing anything but twist the knife for the people who this has ACTUALLY effected.

i'm kinda sad because its been a while since i went out with my "friends"

theyre always going somewhere on saturday nights and i just get so sad because i truly feel like no one wants to hang out with me. so i spend the night thinking about every single time i was with them and wondering if i did something embarrassing or said something wrong.

im kinda addicted to refreshing my instagram feed to see if they're out or doing something . its starting to make me feel sick

but thats okay. i pray that one day ill have a cool group of friends that feels like family. just like how i met your mother , you know?

anyways . im gonna read my book now to distract myself a little bit from this sadness . if there's anyone reading this, i hope you're okay and safe . take care of yourself and dont forget to drink water

:)

zayn using a photo of them as kids is really getting to me. does he still see them like that? i look at some people i’ve been friends with for years and see ourselves as the age we were when we became friends. my mental image is stuck there. this is fucking awful dude

snoopy of the day

If you've heard of writer's block, get ready for reader's block. You want to read. You have time. You know what to read; you have a pile of books ready to be read. You cannot sit still and focus enough to do so or you can't even open the book.