I’m Always In Awe When I See Languages Written With Other Alphabets Like We’re Really A Bunch Of

Remember to get a library card if you can.

Use the Libby app with your library card for free audio or ebooks. Libraries typically offer other online resources too, it depends on your library but mine offers Kanopy which allows you to watch 10 movies a month, from blockbusters to smaller indie movies. We also offer Creativebug which is like a smaller version of skillshare for art/craft tutorials, and we had The Great Courses for a while which was art/history/science courses.

All of these are free with your card and your library probably has a lot of cool stuff you might not know about if you haven't checked recently.

For physical books: libraries (typically) have an innerlibrary loan system so even if your llibrary doesn't have a book, ask at the front desk.

If there's no way to get a book at your library, buy it off thriftbooks instead of Amazon.

nothing feels as good as starting to read again when you haven't held a book in your hand for such a long time and now the setting sun is in your room and there's paper under your fingers and you feel so good about letting the words float into you again

i overthink….therefore….i overam….

no i don't want to use your ai assistant. no i don't want your ai search results. no i don't want your ai summary of reviews. no i don't want your ai feature in my social media search bar (???). no i don't want ai to do my work for me in adobe. no i don't want ai to write my paper. no i don't want ai to make my art. no i don't want ai to edit my pictures. no i don't want ai to learn my shopping habits. no i don't want ai to analyze my data. i don't want it i don't want it i don't want it i don't fucking want it i am going to go feral and eat my own teeth stop itttt

raise your hand if you are scared shitless about the future yet couldn’t care less at the same time

so yesterday i obviously did all my internship work and i was also able to plan my essay. havent written it yet however thats what weekends are made for. i did my portuguese test, (mostly text comprehension problems) but i didnt manage to finish my math set of problems. gonna do it today.

and i did a little of my excel course :D

yesterday was a nice day. hopefully today will be better!

i made a decison as well; wanna try to use my rest time while working or studying to learn something new or getting better at some other skill. like practicing chess or drawing. maybe give another shot to morse code. the thing is, when i have a pomodoro session, which i like because is the way i track my time, and it ends, during my break i usually decide to watch 10-20 minutes of an episode of a tv show or something. but its extremely hard for me to stop! and then get back to work! ive been trying for mooonths. i use an adapted version of the animedoro method and its just not really working for me because i have a problem with limits. so maybe i should stop and only watch tv shows during my free time. gonna try today a skillmodoro or whaterver name ill come up with today and tell you in the future if it has been helping me. if it doesnt work im not sure what im going to do :/

another thing i wanna try in the future is posting pictures of my desk, notebooks, etc. a goal for the short term future :)

day 3 / 15th of september / Thursday

today i woke up feeling so much better. since im still feeling sick i decided to skip today's lecture but im gonna get some studying done so i dont use my time on tiktok and netflix :P

things i need to get done today:

internship work

math problems for college applications

portuguese test for college applications

write an essay for college applications

things i want to get done however it doesnt really matter if i dont do them:

excel course

see ya laterrrr <3

me during the day: ah i'm so sleepy. i'm so fucking tired oh my god i can't wait to go to bed tonight.

me during the night: let's download the top 100 songs from 2010 and listen to them all while writing a novel and watching an entire season of something and maybe rearrange my room or read 2 books and complete my assignment which was due last week haha i'm so productive.

one thing i need to start living by is “become the thing that you want” if i want friends who throw themed parties maybe i should start throwing those parties. if i want someone who writes me love letters maybe i should start writing letters for the people i love. if i want to hang out at museums and pretty cafes maybe i should invite my friends to these places. and maybe even then i won’t find the kind of people i want to be around. but then i would have become the exact person i want to be around. and maybe that’s good enough.