Death Must Be So Beautiful.

1 Lord of all hopefulness, Lord of all joy,

whose trust, ever childlike, no cares could destroy:

Be there at our waking, and give us, we pray,

your bliss in our hearts, Lord, at the break of the day.

2 Lord of all eagerness, Lord of all faith,

whose strong hands were skilled at the plane and the lathe:

Be there at our labors, and give us, we pray,

your strength in our hearts, Lord, at the noon of the day.

3 Lord of all kindliness, Lord of all grace,

your hands swift to welcome, your arms to embrace:

Be there at our homing, and give us, we pray,

your love in our hearts, Lord, at the eve of the day.

4 Lord of all gentleness, Lord of all calm,

whose voice is contentment, whose presence is balm:

Be there at our sleeping, and give us, we pray,

your peace in our hearts, Lord, at the end of the day.

- Jan Struther (1931)

At lunchtime l bought a huge orange-

The size of it made us all laugh.

I peeled it and shared it with Robert and Dave -

They got quarters and l had a half.

And that orange, it made me so happy,

As ordinary things often do

Just lately. The shopping. A walk in the park.

This is peace and contentment. It's new.

The rest of the day was quite easy.

I did all the jobs on my list.

And enjoyed them and had some time over.

I love you. I'm glad l exist.

Der schnelle Tag ist hin, die Nacht schwingt ihre Fahn'

Und führt die Sternen auf. Der Menschen müde Scharen

Verlassen Feld und Werk, wo Tier und Vögel waren,

Trauert itzt die Einsamkeit. Wie ist die Zeit vertan!

Der Port naht mehr und mehr sich zu der Glieder Kahn.

Gleich wie dies Licht verfiel, so wird in wenig Jahren

Ich, du und was man hat und was man sieht hinfahren.

Dies Leben kommt mir vor als eine Renne-Bahn.

Lass, höchster Gott, mich doch nicht auf dem Laufplatz gleiten,

Lass mich nicht Ach,nicht Pracht, nicht Lust, nicht Angst verleiten!

Dein ewig-heller Glanz sei vor und neben mir.

Lass, wenn der müde Leib entschläft, die Seele wachen.

Und wenn der letzte Tag wird mit mir Abend machen,

So reiß mich aus dem Tal der Finsternis zu dir.

- "Abend", von Andreas Gryphius (1663)

If only I could do that...

“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened… or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.”

— Tupac Shakur

i need 40yo me come from the future right fucking now and say don't worry wait a little longer it's gonna be okay you'll find your place