JAMES POTTER X F!READER
hello hello again!! this is part 4 (!!) of my james potter fake dating series. oh my wordddd do these two have it bad đ„č i'm having sooooo much fun writing this, it's mostly done by now i'm just refining little bits and pieces. i'm also aware i can use a lot of the same words again so i apologize for that. anyways i hope you enjoy!!! xoxo sunny âïžđ»
wc: 2012
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3: Fake It 'Til You Make It
â 1 â
I should have known this would happen.
A weekâor maybe twoâhas passed, and somehow, this strange, impossible arrangement has settled into something almost routine. People still notice. They still watch. But the whispers have changed. Less sharp, less scandalized. Now, they sound more like admiration, laced with something close to adoration.
"Theyâre actually kind of cute." "Did you see how he looked at her yesterday?" "Merlin, I think I believe it."
I donât scan the room like I used to, searching for stray glances or hushed gossip. My eyes naturally glide to the Gryffindor table, the usual spot where four boys are chatting raucously. And, unable to focus on anything else, I focus on James.
Heâs already there, draped across his usual spot like he owns the very air around him, a laugh spilling from his lips at something Sirius just said. Thereâs a looseness to him, a careless sprawl that makes my fingers twitch with irritation. Because of course he isnât fazed. He was built for thisâthe way people track his every movement, drawn in without even meaning to be. He soaks it up like itâs his birthright, as if the entire room is simply bending to accommodate him, orbiting around his gravity.
Meanwhile, Iâm fighting to keep planting one foot in front of the other.
And yet, as if feeling my eyes on him, James turnsâand the second he sees me, his entire demeanor shifts.
The dazzling grin stretches wider. His eyes brighten in delight, like heâs been waiting for this exact moment. And then, because heâs insufferable, he lifts his hand in greetingâfingers wiggling, smirk widening.
âMorning, baby!â
Itâs loud enough for people to hear.
I swear I hear someone gasp.
Alice, walking beside me, chokes back a laugh. Jade just mutters, âUnbelievable.â
But then I spot Simon, sitting just a few tables away. His posture is stiff, his hands clenching his goblet a little too tightly. Heâs looking at me. Or ratherâat James.
And suddenly, I donât care anymore.
Before I can think better of it, I move toward James, and the smile on my face doesnât feel so forced.
â 2 â
I sit down, and James immediately moves closer. He doesnât hesitate. He throws an arm over my shoulders, the weight of it easy, natural, like heâs done it a hundred times before.
I donât know why that makes my stomach flip.
I expect him to say something smug, something loud and theatrical to make the whispers grow, but insteadâhe lowers his voice.
âWas starting to think you wouldnât show.â
I freeze for half a secondâjust long enough for him to notice.
Itâs different. The teasing intonation is still there, but his timbre is quieter, softer, meant just for me. Not for the show, not for the audience. Just for me.
I recover quickly, reaching for my goblet. âI almost didnât.â
James hums, fingers drumming idly against my shoulder. He glances at Lilyâjust for a moment, just long enough to see if sheâs looking. I should feel triumphant. The plan is working. But the moment stretches too long, his gaze lingering, and something distasteful coils in my stomach when I glance at Lily, too.
Heâs still looking at her, but when he speaks, heâs only talking to me.
âThat wouldâve been a shame.â
I donât respond immediately. I canât.
Because he leans in, just slightly, his lips brushing the shell of my ear as he finishesâ"I wouldâve missed you."
I donât stiffen. I donât freeze. Instead, I react exactly the way Iâm supposed toâlike this is normal, like we do this all the time. A slow, easy smile tugs at my lips, and I let out a breathy little laugh, tipping my head just enough to brush against his.
"Good thing I showed up, then," I murmur, voice smooth, effortless, the perfect counter to his. Commitment to the bit.
Itâs a performance, it has to be. But itâs too easy, too natural, the kind of rhythm we shouldnât have mastered so quickly. It doesnât feel like a role. It feels real. And judging by the way Jamesâ fingers falter slightly against my shoulder, he feels it too.
Across the table, Siriusâ smirk falters.
"Well," he says, tilting his head, too perceptive for my liking. "Thatâs new."
James leans back, grinning again, too quick, too easy. âNothing new about it, mate. Just talking to my girl.â
His girl.
I force a laugh, I force myself to look away, to refocus. But the damage is already done.
Because for the first time, Simon isnât even in my mind, and Jamesâ flirting feels like itâs not just part of the plan.
And worst of allâfor the first time, I think he felt it too.
â 3 â
The corridors are crowded between classes, students weaving between one another, voices overlapping as they rush to their next destinations. I should be doing the sameâmoving, blending in, not lingering long enough to be noticed.
But then, a body steps into my path, not unlike the feeling when I first collided with James. Only looking up, I see Simon.
I halt, too fast, too obvious.
He smiles, but itâs different. Not amused. Not easy. Just⊠considering.
âDidnât think he was your type,â he says slowly.
It takes me a second too long to respond. I blink, my brain working to catch up. "What?"
Simon gestures vaguely, but I already know what he means. James.
I could laugh it off, make some snarky comment, dismiss the way Simon is watching me like heâs actually trying to figure something out.
Instead, my fingers tighten around my books.
"I didnât think you cared," I reply coolly.
Simon huffs out a short laugh, tilting his head slightly. "I donât."
Liar.
But before I can push, before I can say anything else, a familiar voice cuts in.
"Alright, sweetheart?"
And just like that, James is there. Not from around the corner. Not catching up. Just⊠there. Like he knew Iâd be standing here, like this is just another part of the routine.
Except it isnât. We never made walking to class together a rule. And yetâhere he is, standing beside me, slipping into the moment effortlessly, like he was always meant to be there.
His arm doesnât come around my shoulders this time, but his presence is heavy enough to feel. His gaze flickers to Simon, just for a second, assessing.
Simon shifts, just slightly. "We were just talking."
James smiles, too tight, too sharp. "Yeah? About what?"
Simon doesnât answer, because he knows.
James knows too. His presence is imposingâhe knows heâs interrupting, I know it, and Simon definitely knows it. Itâs strangely⊠protective.
I exhale slowly, turning my main attention to James. "Nothing important."
James turns to me then, ignoring Simon entirely, his eyes softening just slightly. "Walk you to class?"
My heart stumbles.
Itâs not in the rules. Itâs not for an audience. Itâs just⊠him. Asking, sweetly and kindly. I should overthink it. I should question it.
But instead, I only nod, unaware that Iâm smiling.
And just like that, I walk away with him.
â 4 â
The library is quiet at this hour.
Itâs always quiet, but now itâs the kind of silence that settles into your bones, the kind that makes every movement feel heavier, every breath feel louder than it should. The lanterns flicker, casting long, stretching shadows across the towering shelves. The whole place smells like fresh bundles of parchment and half-empty pots of ink, and for the first time all day, I feel like I can breathe.
Except⊠I canât. Not really. Not when I know exactly why Iâm here.
I told myself I was coming to study. To clear my head. To force myself back into something normal after a day that has been anything but. I told myself it had nothing to do with him. That it wasnât about the way my pulse jumped when he showed up beside me earlier, that I wasnât still thinking about the way Simon looked at us, or the way I had felt when I chose to walk away with James instead.
But lying to myself is getting harder.
The chair across from me scrapes against the floor. I donât have to look up to know who it is.
James doesnât belong in the library at this hourâor any hour, really. The last time I saw him with a book in front of him, he was using it as a makeshift pillow. But I feel him settle into the chair, his presence too tangible, too heavy, and just like that, the air shifts.
I should ask him why heâs here. I should question it, tease him, brush it off. But I donât.
Instead, I just turn the page in front of me and keep my voice steady, even. âDidnât think Iâd ever see you here voluntarily.â
James doesnât respond right away. I can feel him watching me, the weight of it pressing against my skin, penetrating into all my nerves as if theyâre exposed. Then, finallyâ âI was looking for you.â
I falter.
Itâs not what I expected. Not the easy banter, not the teasing. Itâs quieter. Too honest.
I turn the page again, even though I havenât actually read a single word. âWhy?â
James leans back slightly, like heâs considering it. âNot sure.â
I finally glance up, and thatâs a mistake.
Because the way heâs looking at meâitâs different.
Not smug, not amused, not like heâs trying to prove a point. Itâs like heâs trying to figure something out, like heâs looking for an answer in my face that I donât even have yet. He steps closer, approaching my seat slowly.
Thereâs a pullâdeep, insistent, like gravity shifting just for him.
âYouâre staring,â I say lightly, tilting my head. I mean it to be teasing, something to break the tension thatâs building too fast, too thick. But my voice isnât as steady as I want it to be.
James doesnât look away. âSo are you.â
I donât have a response to that.
Silence stretches between us, thick and humming. The lanterns flicker again, casting shadows that move over the sharp angles of his face, and Merlin, I should say something. I should look away.
But I donât.
Because heâs leaning in. Not much. Just enough.
Just enough that I can feel the space between us getting smaller, smaller, smaller. Just enough that I can see the flicker of something hesitant in his expression, something unsure, like heâs waiting to see if Iâll stop him.
I should.
I should pull away, laugh it off, remind him of what this is supposed to be. But his eyes drop to my mouth and I forget how to breathe.
A heartbeat passes. Two. The air is thick, crackling, waiting.
I blink, snap back to reality, shift slightly in my seat like I just remembered where we are, like I just remembered what weâre doing. My chin drops, I pull back.
James exhales, the spell breaking, the moment slipping through my fingers before I can fully grasp what it was.
He leans back, just enough to make it seem like it never happened at all.
And thenâthe smile is back. The effortless, easy, practiced one. The one that puts the distance back between us.
âCareful, sweetheart,â he says, voice low, amused. âYou almost looked like you wanted to kiss me. âS against the rules, yâknow.â
So were feelings.
I huff out a laugh, shaking my head, forcing myself to roll my eyes even though my heart is still pounding against my ribs. âIn your dreams, Potter.â
His teeth show. âEvery night.â
I shove my book at him, because itâs the only thing I can think to do. He laughs, catching it easily, the moment slipping into something safer, something familiar.
Tomorrow, weâll pretend this didnât happen. Tomorrow, Iâll tell myself it was nothing.
But right now, I can still feel the ghost of his breath on my lips.
And I donât know what to do with that.
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Dance With You Tonight - Masterlist
Joel Miller x Fem!Reader
Chapter names and fic name are based on the Laufey album - âEverything I Know About Loveâ.Â
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Synopsis: You were training and studying to become a professional ballet dancer, until fate had other plans. Leaving you crushed and headed into a new career path. Becoming a dance teacher, a way of keeping dance in your life. Still in the process of healing, you meet Joel Miller. A single dad working as a contractor, trying to make his little girl happy by signing her up for dance lessons. Guarded when you first meet him, he teaches you to love a way you haven't before.Â
Warnings: It might be slow at the beginning, slow(ish) burn, Eventual Smut. Fluff, angst, No outbreak Au. MDNI, 18+ (Mature content). No use of y/n.
There will be warnings above each chapter indicating mature content!
Chapters - Not full list but will change as time goes on.
Chapter 1 - Beautiful Stranger
Chapter 2 - Falling Behind (coming soon!)
Chapter 3 - Fragile
summary : you may be Percy's girlfriend, but not his first choice.
word count : 0.9k
type : imagines
pairing/s : Percy Jackson x Annabeth Chase, Percy Jackson x Daughter of Hades! Reader.
warning/s: angst lol, and a little cliche. never settle for fucking less, guys.
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Note : I'm not against Percabeth, just so you know. Or Annabeth, I think she's a badass. I just thought of this and I was like "Damn, did I just hurt myself?" Blue aesthetic since the color represents sadness. It will have a Part 2.
You knew what you were signing up for when Percy Jackson asked you out.
You fell in love with him despite knowing the risks.
The constant danger, the relentless quests, the whispered rumors, the pointed stares whenever you were togetherâ none of it was enough to scare you away. He was the great hero of Olympus, the son of Poseidon who had saved the world twice and continued to do so. Of course, people talked.
And you could handle all of it.
All of itâ except one thing.
Annabeth Chase.
You were new to Camp Half-Blood, but not naĂŻve.
You knew, the moment you agreed to be his, that you were stepping into a love story written long before you came along. You werenât a new chapter. You were just a footnote, scribbled in the margins, fighting for space in a tale that was never yours to begin with.
Even your own brother, Nico di Angelo, had warned you. Everyone did.
They had seen Percy and Annabethâs story unfoldâ the rivals turned partners, the friends turned lovers, the two who walked through literal hell together and survived. The kind of love even the gods envied.
"It will only end in heartbreak."
But you ignored them all. Because when Percy pulled you into a fierce kiss after winning a game, when he whispered sweet nothings as you lay beside him, when he held you like you were the most precious thing in the worldâ it was easy to pretend.
Pretend you didnât notice the silver owl pendant he kept hidden under his shirt.
Pretend you didnât see the way his sea-green eyes softened at the mere mention of her name.
Pretend you didnât feel the hesitation in his touch whenever she was near, or the way he always seemed to be waitingâ for something, or someone.
Forget that you were never meant to be his forever. That you were just the one keeping his heart warm until she wanted it back.
And yet, you knew Percy loved you. Maybe not in the way he loves her, maybe not in the way you deserve, but in the only way he knew how.
You never doubted your own worth before. You were the daughter of Hades, powerful in your own right, admired, desired. But with Percy, doubt bloomed inside you like a slow-growing poison.
And you loathed it.
Loving Percy Jackson is your greatest blessing. And your greatest curse.
Annabeth never tried to take him backâ not outright.
She didnât need to.
She moved like the strategist she wasâ calculated, deliberate, patient. Weaving herself into his life in ways you couldnât contest.
Inside jokes only they understood.
Touches that lingered just a second too long.
Shared memories and unfinished dreams that whispered, This isnât over.
She never crossed a line.
She never had to.
Because she was Annabeth Chase. His first love. His best friend. The one who had built a world with him long before you ever arrived.
You were the outsider.
Because Annabeth never really lost Percy.
She had simply let go.
And Percy? He had never truly moved on.
So, you waited for the inevitable. Like an inmate on death row, counting down the days.
Maybe you were still hoping. Hoping heâd look at you and finally see you, not her shadow. Hoping heâd realize that you were the one here, standing beside him, loving himâ not better, but differently.
Or maybe you were just a fool who enjoyed her own suffering.
Or an addict who couldnât let go of her drug, even as it destroyed her.
Then one night, walking through the woods, finding solace in the quiet and darkness, you heard them.
Percy and Annabeth. Sitting on a log beneath the stars, wrapped in the weight of a history you could never rewrite.
"Do you ever think of what couldâve been?" She whispered.
Your breath caught in your throat.
"All the time." Percy admitted, after a long silence. "Annabeth, you know Iâll alwaysâ"
She moved closer. Too close. Her fingers brushed against his wrist, and you felt the chill of inevitability run down your spine.
"If I asked for a second chance..." She breathed. "Would you give it?"
You braced for the pain of hearing him say yes, for the final dagger to be driven into your heart.
But he hesitated.
Perseus Jackson, who never think twice in the face of death, hesitated.
But Annabeth didnât.
Before he could answer, she leaned in, claiming a kiss that had always been hers. Her arms wrapped around his neck like they belonged there.
"Choose me, Percy." She whispered against his lips. "You know itâs always been me. Be with me again."
You turned away before he could kiss her back.
You didnât need to hear his answer.
You already knew it.
Shadow-traveling to your cabin, you threw a few things into a bag. Nico wasnât thereâ probably off with Willâ and you were grateful. You werenât in the mood for questions.
You couldnât stay long enough for Percy to look at you with guilt-ridden eyes and tell you what you already know.
So you left a note on his nightstand.
"I wish you and Annabeth the best. Donât let her go this time."
Some might call you a coward for walking away.
But you didnât care.
Percy had made his choice.
And now, you had made yours.
MILLER'S GIRL â SERIES MASTERLIST
Chapter Two: Delusions of Fantasy
Chapter Summary: Settling into the semester, you find yourself in an unsuspecting position with your professor, meetings that shouldn't feel so secret but do and an assignment that may change the course of things for the better...or much worse. [5k]
[student/teacher relationship, age gap, no outbreak, power dynamic]
Chapter Warnings: 18+, fem!reader, professor!joel miller (his teacher persona is v different from outside of the classroom, so if he seems slightly ooc....close your eyes), dom!joel, sub!reader, reader is a little obsessed with joel (and delusional), mentions of infidelity (not by joel), sarah doesn't exist here, background tess x joel, inappropriate relationships/actions, talks of literature and lots of random writing topics, more dream smut that translates into writing, gratuitous descriptions of mr. miller's body and personality, joel is conspicuously toeing the line of lusting after a student while reader is very obvious, some unspoken sexual tension
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You werenât sure when days would begin to blur, pulling all-nighters to finish assignments that you kept putting off until the absolute last minute. But, the small coffee shop on the edge of campus has become your pseudo-home, early mornings and occasional nights when you need the extra energy boost or focus.Â
There was a perfect little nook in the corner of the coffee shop that was hidden behind a wall. A small alcove that was usually emptyâat least, it was when you tried to use it. And you find yourself there on a lonely night, crisp autumn air biting at your skin as you slip into the coffee shop. Itâs mostly empty at this hour and you order your usual drink of choice before youâre slipping around the corner with your coffee in hand, startled by the sight before you.
âOh, shitâMr. Millerââ You stammer, stepping back awkwardly as you almost run into his arm that is flipping a pen between his fingers, his gaze flicking up to you curiously.
Heâs just as surprised to see you here, but ultimately, it makes more sense in retrospect.
He had a house, an office (both here on campus and at home), but he preferred a place like this, surrounded by the smell of coffee and the gentle ambience. He couldâve gone home to Tess and gave up grading and preparing assignments, but that didnât sound appealing either. He finds the more heâs in Tessâs presence, the worse his thoughts wonder.
That maybe escaping to the coffee shop would push you from his mind, but here you were, in the flesh, and Joel couldnât do a damn thing about it.
He offers a curt nod, polite. Part of him expects you to justâŠgo away. But, he has the idea that heâs probably taking up your usual study spot. Before he entertains the idea of leaving, you take a seat silently in the chair across from him, holding up your hand.
âNo, itâs fineâyou donât have to leave or anything.â You tell him assuredly, opening up your laptop as you settle into your spot, eyes connecting with his over the edges of your screen, his expression looking a little more jaded than your own.
You were exhausted, but he was exhausted and upset. You couldnât be sure at what, but there was the glaring fact that he was here, nearing midnight, when he could easily be at home. You didnât question it though, finding that if you wanted to, you could wear him down enough to talk.
âSo,â After a long stretch of silence and his silent typing away at his keyboard and you still staring at a mostly blank screen, knowing you wouldnât be able to get much work done with him around, thoughts and eyes wondering curiously, âI read those books you suggested.â
Ah, right. The email heâd sent on a whim. A lapse of judgment after the fact, seeing how it could be misconstrued, knowing it could be viewed as inappropriate.
The thoughts he was having were inappropriate, but even then, he knew he would never entertain it. And shit, youâre still looking at him, expecting some type of answer.
âDid you enjoy them?â He asks simply, no elaboration or asking for much.
 Just a simple yes or no.
Thereâs an angst that settles in your gut over his acknowledgment of the email, nodding quietly.
You had, truthfully. It was a few poem books he said were his favorites, and you could see where your interests intertwined, finding that the tone in the poems he enjoys reading is what you also enjoy reading.
Angst, dread, intense feeling that was hard to ignore.
And truthfully, Mr. Miller was impossible to ignore.
âI read them the other night,â You add, pulling up a half-finished assignment from your English course, âyouâve gotâŠgood taste.â
Joel chuckles quietly at that, easing slightly in his seat. Part of him was worried, even if his intentions were in the right place, that things may be misconstrued. He breaths out a sigh of relief he didnât realize he was holding in.
âI figured youâd enjoy them.â He smirks slightly.
You feel your cunt clenching at the subtlety, crossing one leg over the other as you find a hauty comparison to his words, thought flashing through your mind.
Youâd gone to bed with the words of the poems on your mind that night, but the voice wasnât lacking in tone or voicelessâin fact, it was his voice. His words as he pumped one, two, and then three fingers into you over his desk, hands clenched into his shirt as you held onto him like a lifeline, only surfacing back to reality just as you were about to come.
But, he didnât need to know that.
And you didnât need to know how desperate he fucked himself into a lonely fist when he was pent up from work (which was more often than not, lately) with the image of you on his mind.
Heâs never had thoughts like this and he canât comprehend whyâpart of him wants to blame Tess and her choices and the stress it has put on his marriage. But, Joel has been checked out for a while and this, even though only in the confines of his mind, feels like an even worse betrayal.
âYou should send me more.â A soft sip on your coffee as you stare flirtatiously over the rim of your cupâcool it, you tell yourself. But, it doesnât work.
Thereâs a small twitch in his face, the deepest hint of a smile sayingâyeah, Iâll challenge thatâbut it quickly fades.Â
âJustâŠif you want to,â You add, playing things subtly, carefully, âif thatâs okay?â
Joel knows he shouldnât entertain the idea, but he sees the genuineness in your expression, beyond his attraction toward you. You had a desire to write and share and feelâhe could respect that. He nods slightly, pressing his laptop closed and gathering his things slowly.
âAlrightâgive me a couple days,â Joel bargains, âAnything you prefer?â
You shake your head innocently, wishing he would recommend his own literature. You wanted to see how deep his ego ran, if he had the nerve to be so bold. âAnything you like, Iâm sure Iâll enjoy it too.â
It was an understatement.
And the accidental coffee shop mishap doesnât end there. In fact, it quickly grows out of control, beyond your own intentionâthis was natural, no coaxing needed.
â
Joel hated how much he craved your presence outside of work, in this stupid fucking coffee shopâbut like his dependency to schedule and caffeine, he finds you become a normal occurrence and it throws him out of wack when youâre not around.
Luckily, you never strayed. You were there every night, even early mornings when he had to take a retirement for the nightâyou didnât need to pry, you knew. Heâd twist a nervous hand around his wrist that slowly trailed to his ring finger, fingers flexing anxiously. He had to be home, he didnât want more problems. Even if this was somehow helping him work through his inhibitions, he still had a responsibility.
And Joel knows the time heâs spending with you could be misconstrued, but he does it out of a genuineness to further your interest and desire into literature if anything. Heâs met with many students after hoursâthough, not to this extent. And always within the grounds of school, either in the classroom or his assigned office, nothing beyond the border of allowing a personal connection.
He was bending rules for you and he couldnât help it.
Thereâs so much you learn in the short month or so that this drags onâJoel likes black coffee, no add-ins or sweet touches. He fidgets a lot, fingers constantly twisting at the watch on his wrist or scratching at his slowly regrowing stubble when he had just shaven a day or two priorâyou start to notice the small blank patches in his beard because of it.
He seems so unsuspecting and normalâmaybe that was what drew you in. You couldnât really pinpoint it anymore. There was a point where the secret admiring morphed into open admiration and maybe Joel shouldâve stopped it there. But, it made him feel good.
It made him feel wanted. And that was his first real mistake he made with you.
Allowing it.
It never breached anything inappropriate, but heâd notice when you would track the movement of his hands, rubbing over his face or neck in exhaustion, arms stretching over the back of his head after a long period of sitting down, hunched over in the small sanctuary you two had constantly found yourself in.
Mr. Miller was fair in that he never helped you with his assignments. He wasnât there to give you a leg up or help you out in that regard, he knew you were capable. Competent. But, he fed your desire for him and literature by asking about your own interests and melding them his own, curating your time together in the small cafe with topics you could both find yourself getting lost in.
It was easy to lose track of time with him. And very irresponsible.
Joel does notice your longing glances and subtle twitches in your face when he does certaIn things, moving his body in a way that accentuates his strong formâhe wasnât toned necessarily, but he was broad, large, and he wasnât amiss to how his own shirt clung to his body or how well-tailored his slacks were. He liked things to fit well. And you appreciated that so much.
But, beyond your own disappointment, things never cross that line.
He never makes a comment or threads the line of touching you, his hands always aware of their placement around youâand maybe he was just being respectful and was terrified to lose his job, but you can see the flex of his fingers when you remove your sweater or lean in to close to him, his eyes dragging along the slope of your neck, nostrils flaring in response at how comfortable enough you feel to just lean in.
Heâs foolish to think this wouldnât mean anything to you, but he allows that thought to stray from his mind and continues, too attached to these meet-ups like they were his own form of free therapy, beyond the dreadful marriage counseling he was going through.
It wasnât working, but this was.
And he thinks that it is partly because itâs you and not Tess.
In fact, he knows itâs you.
The emails continue for weeks, days upon days of trading back responses and linksâand really, everything is telling him to stop. Everything.
The guilt. The fear. The anger.
Yet, he never tries.
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Joel can feel you breaking out of your shell little by little, more engaged in the group setting of the classroom the more time heâs spent with you one on one. He doesnât want to initiate a responsibility in it, but he can since the familiarity and comfort when you speakâeven if it's mostly directed at him.
Truthfully, you didnât have a problem speaking in front of the class, but if it filled Mr. Miller with a sort of pride, you werenât going to deny that.
You try to ignore the way he speaks your name, calls on you and beckons you to speak with a raise of his eyebrows, arms crossed firmly over his chestâand your eyes draw to his stomach, following along the soft slope and over his groin and you see his thighs tense as he crosses his legs too, one gently over the other as he leaned against his desk.
You smirk slightly, feigning a look of innocence as your eyes drag to his face, answering his question mindlesslyâsomething about how to capture dialogue properly and even Joel can see that youâre not fully there, mind elsewhere.
It wasnât hard to surmise where, but he ignored it. For now.
But, it wasnât until the day was nearing the end of your class, head buried in your laptop as you copied your handwritten notes down into a document for later, knowing absently that he was perusing around the room but trying to ignore his lingering presence every time he glanced over at you.
His hands surround your chair before he announces himself, flimsy plastic creaking underneath his grip.
âMr. Miller.â You address pleasantly, typing idly away at your keyboard.
He speaks your name gently, a reverence in his tone that allures fondness, a smile creeping on his lips.Â
âAny questions?â He asks curiously, brow furrowing in confusion, âOn the assignmentââ
He points blindly to the board, eyes still locked on you as your head turns toward the board, down at your notes, then back at him.
âI meanânot really?â You sound unsure, âWrite something fantasy, make it interestingââ
He can feel your interest waning, seeming rather nonchalant about the topic, like it would be an absolute breeze and wasnât worth the wasted energy. But, heâs challenging you.
To what, you werenât sure.
Joel clears his throat, grip tightening on the back of your chair as he leaned over subtly, chest crowding around the back of your head, examine the notes you did have type out before his eyes dragging back toward you, and you canât ignore his gaze, chin turning up toward him and your eyes soften as they connect with his.
âBut, specificallyâdreams.â He clarifies, âSometimes your best ideas can come to you in a dreamâso think of it as journaling them but, expandingâŠbringing it to life.â
DreamsâŠ
Youâve had enough of them in preceding weeks to last you a lifetime, all including him.
âBringing it to lifeâŠâ You echo his words, mincing the words on your tongue as the idea flusters your mind, a small nod from Joel in response.
Of course, he had no idea the extent of how deep your mind wandered, but his words were edging too close for comfort, like he had the faintest idea.
Thereâs a brief moment of self awareness as his eyes drag to your lips, tongue dampening them as you soothe the chapped skin, nodding absently.
âI thinkâI think I understand what youâre saying.â
Mr. Miller smiles then, whether fake or not you couldnât tell, âGoodâfeel free to, uhââ
Email him.
You see him hesitate to force the words out, chuckle awkwardly as he leans away, breaking the built up tension between you both.
âYeah, yep.â You laugh softly, infectiously as you turn your attention back toward your laptop, a small smile tugging at your lips. âThank you, Mr. Miller.â
He pats your shoulder softly and squeezes, the only point of contact he ever allows himself, never letting his touch linger or stray because he knowsâif he broke that point of contact and wandered elsewhere, he wasnât sure he could stop.
-
You tap mindlessly at the edge of your keyboard, laptop resting wobbly in your propped up legs, start to type a word before quick erasing. Mind flicking through baseless and boring ideas, wondering how easily you could muster up a fake dream and amaze Mr. Miller with your lackluster writing skillsâjust lie, it wasnât that hard.
You feel your mind wandering then, head hung back against your pillow as you stare at your ceiling, his expression etched into the back of your mind, eyes wandering along the dip in your cupidâs bow and the less than subtle lick of your lips that you offered in return.Â
This couldnât all be in your head.
You sigh, heavy and thick, but the soft ding of a notification on your laptop pulls your attention.
On the other end, Joel sits anxiously at his desk, foot tapping insistently against the hardwood floor, still fully dressed from work sans his tie that laid slack on his desk.
It wasnât even a fully drafted email, rather a precursor to beginnings of an improper, but casual conversation. He tried to keep an open line of communication with all of his students, but when you donât show up at the coffee shop that night, too burdened with the idea of just what you were going to writeâhe worries.Â
âAre things coming along? Didnât catch you at the cafe tonight.â
You stare blankly, unsure how to respond.
It feltâŠodd, starting a conversation over email.
Of course, you didnât have any other means of communication, so this is what Joel was forced to devolve too, tapping nervously as he awaited your response.
âHaving trouble actuallyâany suggestions?â
Part of you craves to hear his voiceâand selfishly, he does too. And Joel knows the moment he offers the information up, heâs going to regret it. But, he does.
The house was empty, thankfully. Tess was working later than usual and Joel couldnât be bothered with the semantics, finding himself straying further and further from this bed every night. His office was his new sanctuary, bad back be damnedâhe would choose the couch over a bed with her, knowing she still judged him for the choices she made.
A phone number is attached to the email that follows, âIâm free, if you want to talk through it.â
Your heart desynced from its usual rhythm for a brief moment, nearly fleeing your body if you hadnât felt it so deeply in your chest. You couldnâtâthisâŠit couldnât be all in your head.
You quickly type the number into your contacts, hovering for far too many minutes over the call button, wondering if it mattered how you lookedâif he would judge. You didnât appear much different, but you were in your own comforts, vulnerable. And as much as he appeared here in your dreams, the reality of him being this close was startling.
You bite thoughtfully at your bottom lip as you prop your phone against the screen of your laptop, a blank document open behind the calling screen as you went through with your hesitation and attempt to connect the call, chin resting against your fist as you waited, eyes wandering aimlessly around the room.
When the familiar tone blares of the call going through and Joel is suddenly appearing on screen, youâre not sure why you followed through with this in the first placeâeven if he was the one who insisted it by offering up the information.
He looks slightly more disheveled across the screen, still dressed in the outfit you saw him in earlier, his tie gone, a button or two undone, and heâs definitely allowed his fingers to run through his usually quaffed hair, a curl falling freely over his forehead, his phone seemingly propped up in a similar manner as you can see most his upper body that wasnât hidden by his desk.
âSo, whatâs the issue?â
He jumps right in, which isnât surprising.
You feel the sense of familiarity in your usual conversations, like you were almost there in the room with himâyou couldnât imagine how exhausted you looked or seem currently, but you push the thought from your mind and hoped it didnât cross his, that he wasnât harping on your similarly disheveled appearance in his mind.
He seemed as if he genuinely wanted to help.
You hated it, wishing he wouldnât drag things out.
If he wanted you, he could have you.
Instead, it felt like he wanted toâor rather needed to keep you at a distance, just out of reach for his own good rather than yours.
âJustâŠwondering, I guess.â You look down briefly, feeling his curiosity through the screen as you pick at a frayed thread in your blanket. âHowâhow detailed are you asking?â
âI mean, it doesnât have to be so loud that it feels likeâŠtoo much?â Joel feels like he may not be making complete sense, but he tries. âDo you have a few dreams you remember well that you feel the need to jot down, that you can morph it into something tangible?â
The way he speaks so eloquently, even beyond the guise of his profession, never gets old. Maybe it is a habit heâs formed, speaking and teaching for so many years that he canât force himself out of that modeâbut maybe he was also allowing it to be a barrier, that if he let his guard down too much that you might sneak in and find a way to pick at him and allow yourself to get comfortable.
He couldnât doâŠcomfortable. But, thisâthis he could manage. It allowed for a clear divide between student and teacher. Professional and casual, even if he didnât hand out his phone number to people so willingly.Â
âUmâŠyeah,â You nod slightly, mind filtering through the filthy thoughts of him over you, breathing a deep satiating desire for relief into your body, lips on your body, fingers buried deep inside of you, bringing you right near the precipice before youâre being ripped away from the glorious fantasy, âthereâs a few, I guess.â
âDo you wanna share?â His eyebrows raise inquisitively, his hand disappearing off screen to bring a clear glass to his lips, half-filled with a dark brown liquid.
Tequila, maybe? Whiskey?Â
His lips curl around the edge of the and he sips, ice clanking inside of the glass as he awaits your response.
You shake your head hesitantly, smiling slightly, âI think the whole point is to surprise you, right?â
He chuckles softly, âI suppose.â
âMaybeâŠsome vague advice, if you have any?â
Joel sets the glass against the desk a few inches off screen, thinking quietly. Eyebrows furrowing deep as he contemplates. Hard.
âDonât hold back,â He starts, staring mindlessly off into the distance as he speaks, âbeâbe authentic and try not to limit yourself.â
âSo, no sparing any details?â You ask teasingly and he smirks at your playful tone.
âWhy would you do that?â He asks unknowingly of the thoughts on your mind, âYouâre a beautiful writer, donât discredit yourself.â
It tugs at something deep inside of you, a subtle frown forming on your face as you nod in response. âThank youâŠâ
âHey,â Thereâs a gentle utterance of your name that has your eyes connecting fiercely across the screen, âI mean that.â
Youâre silent, at a loss for words. It wasnât for lack of knowing what to say, but how to say somethingâhow to extend your appreciation. But, you figure that may translate better through writing, brewing over the idea in your head.
âMr. Millerââ Your mind lingers on unspoken words and thoughts, begging to be spoken, but the faint creak of a door in the background on his end has you both shooting to attention, a shared understanding as he scrambles slightly.
âIf you run into any road blocks, just send me a message, okay?â
You nod, cut off by his sudden eagerness to end the callâfeeling you just got caught doing something horrible, a shunning on the horizon.
You sleep that night with a fresh revelation on your mind, smothered by the feeling of special treatment that Mr. Miller was offering, wholly committed to your own delusion and it fuels and stokes that fire effortlessly. And the vivid scenes of your dream flow onto the page the following morning in perfect detail:
It starts off innocent, a bland tale of forbidden love orâŠsomething thereof, playing at the idea that this wasnât supposed to be. Two parrying forces that yearn for the other but canât find the courage to jump or take that leapâfull of dread and hesitance and intensifying that idea.Â
Until, thereâs a major implode of tension.
A sudden snap on the male character that resembles Joel so much it is unsettling, down to the subtle mannerisms as he takes in the characters appearance and words throughout, slowly describing yourself in a way that isnâtâŠobvious. But, it is heavily implied.Â
Thereâs a sudden confession of desire, not love, but a definite yearning that is mostly mutual, leading into a fantasy of filth. Debauchery personified in a way that feels inappropriate to write for a college assignment but is therapeutic for your mind.
His hands wander with a restrain that reads as worriedâunsure of what the other character expects, but the moment your lips connect all bets are off, clothes rapidly disappearing amongst the confines of the maleâs vaguely described quarters, laid over a flat surface. His bed or his desk, the detail is omitted, but he crowds dream you in and devours, capturing your mouth in another heated kiss, hands wasting no time as they slip over your cunt, beyond the sacred barrier of your underwear and inside of you like heâs done this a million times before.
In your mind, he had. But, that was beyond the point.
His fingers work you over expertly, your own hands wandering over his strong frame, biceps flexing underneath your touch as you describe a distinct feeling of stubble as he decends and you feel the texture against the inside of your thighs, underwear disappearing at some point you canât remember before his mouth is latching into your cunt without hesitation, feeling the warmth of his mouth so vividly it almost startled you awake at the time, the distinctness of his voice echoing in your mind, biting your lip to stifle your desperate moans.
âDonât hold back.â He echoes, a distinct line of dialogue that sticks out in your mind as you type it into the document, feeling your inside twist and clench at the fleeting memory of his voice.
You come against his mouth with a shout, fingers twisting into his horrible disheveled hair, just long enough that you can secure a good grip before youâre pulling him upright, tasting the slick of yourself on your tongue as you kiss him.
Itâs all a dream, after all.Â
You take your own liberties, playing up the descriptions in a way that feels sinful, but you do it anyway. You finished the assignment in a few hours despite the ability to extend it over a few days, not bothering to wait as the idea was still fresh in your mind as you typed it out.
You donât even hesitate to send the assignment once it is finished, fully confident in your abilities and Joelâs echoing encouragement.
It may have been the best thing youâve ever written.
-
Joel is blissfully unaware of the debauchery awaiting him in his inbox, busying himself with the endless list of divorce attorneys in the state, wondering if he should really go through with thisâending his marriage, starting anew and cutting ties with Tess. He isnât sure, really.
He isnât positive about anything in his life anymore.Â
He sips gingerly at the steaming cup of coffee, his second of the night as he switches between his browser and a separate page of assignments he was concocting for the rest of the semester, specifically tailoring some around your own interests. He couldnât explain why he was putting the effort in, why there was genuine concernâbut he wanted you to succeed, if anything.
You donât see him at first, he wasnât hidden away in your usual spot, but heâs tucked away in a quiet corner near the back of the cafe, and you almost decide to ignore him and give him the space he seems like he craved, wondering if he had already read through your essay, but he nods at you subtly when he catches your gaze, a quick look up from his computer as you grabbed your coffee order from the barista.
Come here, he beckons silently.
You cross a single arm over your chest and press the lid of the cup to your lips and sip, gentle are careful steps progressing his way as you stop, hip pressing against the edge of the table. He looks at you, friendly and innocent, like he hadnât offered up his phone number without precautions or asking, handing out the final line of connection that sealed the deal for you. This wasnât justâŠhelp. It had to be more.
âJâMr. Miller,â You catch yourself, finding his first name almost slipping from your lips, too close for comfort but he doesnât seem to catch it, âreading through the assignments?â
Youâre curious, but silently hoping he hasnât crossed yours yet. Or, if he had, wondering if he was calling you over for that very reasonâhe wouldnât express his thoughts in the coffee shop though, he couldnât. If he lies, you canât see through it.
âUh, not yet, giving that a couple days,â He shakes his head, closing out of the browsers and shutting his laptop, âsit?â
Heâs extending the invitation, hand gesturing toward the empty seat.
You bite back the smile that creeps on your face and take a seat, pulling at the sweater that covers your body, the cold chill creeping into the cafe as the bells to the entrance ring.
âDid you ever figure out what you were struggling with?â Joel asks curiously, still painfully in teacher mode, much to your dismay, âI didnât hear from you, soâŠâ
âOh, um,â Thereâs an excited fluttering in your tummy, hesitant to debrief him on the details, but you nod, âyeahâjust took a little bit of thought and the words started flowing.â
âWell, thatâs good,â He offers politely, âIâm glad I could helpâifâŠif I did.â
âOf course,â You smile more confidently, âYou always do.â
If he only knew.
His eyebrows furrowing subconsciously, staring at his watch as the numbers creeped closer to midnight, his mind heavy with thought he wouldnât speak out loud. So, you ask.
âAre you okay?â You utter softly, knowing it was the instance either of you have ever made the effort to askâthrough countless meet-ups and secret conversation, feeling a need to keep it all hushedâit never occurred to you until youâre saying the words out loud. âYou seemâŠirritated.â
Joel laughs bitterly, a soft chuckle that radiates in his chest. âWho isnât?â He challenges, seeing the familiar look cross your own face, âSorryâthatâsââ
Joel looks away briefly, feeling that confiding you was a line he couldnât cross, even though heâs blurred just about every other one in existence.Â
âI donât mean to pry,â You shrug, âbut I figureâit doesnât hurt to ask?â
Heâs withholding and you can see it, clock it in the way he checks his phone screenâa few missed calls and a text but you canât read out anything other than the name. Tess.
Tess Miller. Got it.
âDid you get your assignment turned in then?â He asks curiously.
You nod shyly, twirling the cup slowly on the table, eyes drawn away from him despite how starkly he glared at you, hands cupped in his lap underneath the table. If you scooted closer your knees would knock together and you fight the urge to do so.
Joel notices the way you curl inward, a subconscious act that always denotes something simmering beneath the surface with you. He was used to your forwardness, your inability to respect personal space to a degree thatâŠdidnât necessarily bother him in the way that it should. And he hates how his cock twitches at the sight of you glancing away, intimidated by his eye contact for once in the few months heâs gotten to know you.
Thereâs a creeping thought edging its way into his mind, an urge to force your wandering gaze on him, coax you into trusting him, wondering just how easy it would be for you to comply with his will, if it would take any fight on your part at all.
âGood, Iâm excited to read it.â Joel replies honestly, a genuine smile finding its way onto his face, âIâm always lookinâ forward to what your mind thinks up.â
He may be asking for more than he bargains for with that.
âWell, Iâll see you on Monday then?â You confirm, feeling the need for a quick escape, things getting entirely too close for comfort, âHopefully with a perfect score?â
Joel smirks knowingly, âDonât get ahead of yourself now.â He teases.
Unfortunately, you were yards if not miles ahead.Â
Beyond saving.
And Joel had no idea.
Chadwick Boseman: Ew. What kind of tea is this?
Michael B Jordan: I boiled Gatorade.
02: Barbie's Dreamhouse.
Joel Miller x f!bimbo!reader. previous. series masterlist. next.
02. Strawberry Lemonade.
warnings: reader stares at joel a lot and finds him hot as hell, reader is dramatic as hell (might be annoying to some), explicit thoughts, suggestive, sarah is alive and 12 years old here, reader thinks she's a homewrecker, not beta read.
summary: you just can't help but gawk at your hot contractor who's working for free, thank god the view is free too. but a revelation makes you question if you're lusting for a married man.
reader's outfit is the blue one of the dolls from the barbie movie (this one under)
You had settled on the couch on the second-floor balcony with a glass and pitcher of cold lemonade and a few snacks, while Joel was up on the roof, using a ladder to climb up to the edges.
There was no mistaking his experienceâ he made little noise at all, moving around the structure as if it were just another Tuesday. Despite his hardass appearance, he was a very skilled worker.
He eventually climbed down from the roof and headed inside, taking a second to catch his breath before spotting you upstairs.
He was immediately thrown off by the adorable dressâ especially the heart detail. But he knew it was rude to stare, so he did his best to keep his eyes on yours.
"That⊠was actually a lot quicker than I thought it would be," Joel said, clearly pleased. "I should have the rest of the replacement shingles put on in no time at allâŠ"
"Are they pink?" you giggled.
"They're white but I painted over the roof last time, I'll just paint over em' some other day."
"I got some snacks for us. I tested the fridge and it was working too." you poured him a glass of lemonade. "Here, cool off."
Joel took the drink. The cool liquid was very much appreciated after all of that hard work. He took a few swigs from his glass before he looked you over again.
"Thank youâŠ" He nodded, clearly still unable to tear his eyes away from your dress. "Where'd you stay last night?"
"I found a nearby bed and breakfast beside a gasoline station. At least they didn't question why I was all dirty when I checked in." you giggled. "So, what's next?"
"Hmm⊠the plumbin'. Iâm assuming it hasnât been fixed." Joel's brow furrowed slightly. âThe main shutoff doesnât work very well, so if thereâs a leak, you wonât be able to do anything about it. Thatâs pretty much a priority.â
"Oh, right. Um... so what do we do?"
"Well, weâve got to find the shutoff for now," Joel said as he set his drink down. It was clear he hadnât done much plumbing in his life, but from the times he had worked on it, it was also clear he was quite skillful when it came to repairs.
"Follow me. The main one should be in the basement, from what I remember."
"Alright! Lead the way."
You follow Joel as he headed down the stairs into the basementâ it was pretty cluttered down there, with lots of old junk strewn around. As he made his way across the room to the back wall, he grabbed an old flashlight and turned it on.
"Hopefully, the shutoff valve ain't coated in any rust," he muttered. "But if it is, might be tougher than expectedâŠ"
Sure enough, he found the right valve, but it was covered in that awful orange rust and was completely stuck. He frowned as he studied it.
"Oh⊠that ain't good. This could be a problemâŠ"
"Oh no... what do we do?"
He looked at you and shrugged.
"We could apply some WD-40 to it and hope that loosens it up. But thatâs a long shot. In all honesty, I think weâre gon' need to hire a professional plumber to come in and see what can be done about this."
"Well, uh..." you trailed off. Joel watched as you fidgeted with your fingers as your body grew stiff.
Joel could tell that you were trying your best not to worry, but he really couldnât come up with any alternative. As much as he hated to ask, he really didnât think there was another way around it.
"I'll cover it. Don't worry."
"Thank you, Joel." you put your hands behind your back and smiled cheekily at him.
In the course of the next few weeks, Joel hired workers from an electrician to install the chandelier and fix the wiring, to plumbers to fix the plumbing issue. With his own money, nonetheless.
"Thank you, seriously, Joel..." You stared up at the pink jewels dangling off the chandelier in awe.
Joel chuckled softly and was about to respond, but he paused, realizing just how many times heâs heard those same words in just a few weeks.
"You don't have to thank me so much, you know. This was nothing"
"I mean, giving thanks is always a basic human thing." you smiled and placed both of your hands on your hips. "Appreciation can do amazing things."
There was another pause. He shrugged and smirked. "I mean⊠are you always this appreciative?" he asked, trying to hide his smile.
"Of course! Why wouldn't I?"
"I dunno, I've just never known anyone who can be this appreciative, you know? Itâs definitely not something I'm used to hearingâŠ"
There was another pause as he was contemplating what to say.
"Itâs just that⊠you're never gonna make me feel bad for it or anything, right?"
Your shoulders dropped and you tilted your head to the side. "Why would I?"
He sighed.
"I dunno. It's just that most people I know like to take advantage of or make me feel bad for what I do for them. You know, like always makin' me feel like I should do more just because I'm helpin' in the first place. But you don't ever act like that, and⊠well, I dunno. I guess I haven't been used to it."
"Why would they do such a thing?" you looked offended, furrowing your brows.
"I've always just been surrounded by assholes. I guess it's what's really normal for me. But with you⊠I mean, the difference is staggerin', isn't it? I guess I'm just now realizin' just how shitty most people that I've known actually are."
You smiled and walked towards him. "And how many people did you offer to fix their house for free?"
He laughed as he thought about it.
"Never before have I offered something like that. Usually, it's more like helpin' 'em fix their car or somethin' like that. So honestly, this is new territory for both of us. Though, even then, you're still much more appreciative than just about anyone Iâve ever come across."
"But I do promise," you held out your pinky finger with a wide smile. "I will pay you back soon."
For some reason, the pinky finger was funny to him. Maybe it was just that you were so genuinely innocent in your promise, or the contrast between how serious of a situation this could potentially be and you being so playful. He took your pinky finger and wrapped his own around yours. He looked you over.
"Do you swear? Because if you don't, there's about to be hell to pay. I take pinky promises quite seriously."
"That's so fun! I always keep my promises."
"I know you will. So this right here is a sign of a promise. And I trust that you will be able to keep that promise, so I don't need you to repay me right away."
"I promise. Cross my heart, hope to die."
He laughed and nodded, his smile growing as he squeezed slightly harder around your pinky. "Okay then. Just remember, you break this pinky promise, and I won't hesitate to let you know just how disappointed I am."
You let out a giggle after letting go of his pinky "Ooooh, I'm so scared."
He laughed as well.
"I think you should be! I'm not usually one to joke around when it comes to stuff like this." he chuckled again. "But just so you know, even though I'd be pretty angry, I really wouldn't have it in me to stay mad at you. You know that by now, right?"
"Why?" you batted your eyelashes at him "Is it because I'm preeeeetty?"
He was trying really hard to suppress his smile and hold back from laughing.
"It is indeed because I think you are prettyâŠ. But I can't deny the fact that you've also become really good at pushin' out my buttons. Even if I really should be furious 'bout all the money I spent on this house, you make it tough not to just smile back at 'cha and forgive ya."
"I know, I'm sorryyyy..." you clasped your hands together and dramatically knelt down in front of him.
He chuckled. "Well, I really mean it. Your personality is one of the most refreshin' personalities I've ever come across in a long time. And I never would have even met you if it weren't for this house and Mags. That has to count for somethin', right?"
"Sentimental value?"
"Yeah, exactly. It's like the universe knew I needed someone like you in my life. Who knew a house could actually lead to a meaningful relationship⊠I definitely didn't see that comin'."
"The world works in mysterious ways." you shrugged. "Keep up, old man."
Joel laughed louder. There was something about you calling him an old man that he loved, even though he should be offended.
"Watch it, before you start makin' this old man feel his age. My body is just now startin' to fall apart on me, don't give it a reason to start fallin' apart faster than it already is!"
The both of you laughed. You got up from the floor and fixed your dress "So, is there anything else the house needs?"
Joel thought for a moment, finally coming to the realization that the house was probably good for now. It'd definitely need some more work on the interior in time, but at the least, it was liveable.
"Honestly? No, I don't believe there is. I think this house is good for now. I'll keep doin' my check-ins every few weeks or so to make sure that everythin' is alright with the house, but besides that, there's really nothin' more we need to do here."
"So..." you fiddled with your fingers. "What do we do now?"
Joel shrugged. "I'm not sure. I guess we just have ourselves a nice, long moment of standin' here and being proud of the fact that we've both survived the experience of trying to renovate this damn house. Itâs a miracle either of us has our sanity still intact."
He laughed as he leaned up against the wall of the dining room.
"You know, you've spent a lot of time here. I've never even seen the inside of your house." you giggled.
"You know you're not wrong, I was here almost every day for weeks on end." his eyes trailed off as he thought and sighed. "I guess I should invite you over sometime then, right? It's not nearly as interesting as this house, but I'm sure you'd love it."
"My house is pink. Big deal." you rolled your eyes and walked towards him, leaning against the kitchen wall "You know every nook and cranny of my house, of course, I deserve to know yours."
"It's only fair."
"Indeed."
You kept staring at Joel. He had some beads of sweat falling from his scalp to his face, and god did he look hotter than hell. You felt like a Victorian lady seeing an ankle.
"Are you single-" your question got muffled by the sound of the doorbell, and turn your head towards the door "Coming!" you said.
You walked towards the door and swung it open, greeted by a young girl. "Hi, is my dad here?"
Your brows furrowed. "Dad?" who could possibly-
"Sarah," Joel said from behind you. Your head immediately snapped towards him and your eyes widened like a deer in headlights. "Have you met my daughter?" he asked you.
You blinked twice. "I-I don't think I have."
You really had no idea he even was a father... or even considered, married.
Sarah looked around the room in awe, her eyes trailing all across the furniture and her expression changing several times as she looked.
"Did you fix this house all by yourself?" she asked Joel, her eyes wide.
Joel cleared his throat and nodded. "Yeah. I rebuilt this whole house pretty much myselfâ minus the plumbin' and electrician work, which I had hired some guys for. We still have to go through planning on each room, but it's almost done." he pointed towards you. "She's still thinkin' about what to do with all these rooms."
Sarah's facial expression changed to a small smile as she giggled. She turned her head towards you. "Daddy tells me a lot about you. He says you're so nice. The nicest lady he's ever met. Was it all true?â
You were still in a shocked state but you shook your head a bit and gave her a smile. "Why don't you be the judge of that?"
"You're really pretty..." Sarah stared in awe at you.
"Hey, didn't you say you gotta pick up your Girl Scout cookies today?" Joel looked at his wristwatch. "We gotta hurry if you wanna start sellin' 'em tomorrow."
"Oh, right!"
Joel and Sarah waved goodbye to you as they walked out of your house, and you stood there on your porch questioning everything.
"He's... married?" you closed the front door and walked up the stairs, slowly and dramatically. You tried to think of the signs that he was married. Ring? You didn't even notice! Well, not counting the times you stared at his large fingers and imagined them inside of you...
"Oh, god..." the realization hit you. You entered the main bedroom and you fell to your knees. "I'm a homewrecker!" you cried out.
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Paring: TASM!Peter Parker x Fem!Reader
Summary: You make your way over to Peter's apartment and an onslaught of memories hits you again. What starts as playful banter turns into a charged moment; it leaves you questioning if the chemistry between you two was always one-sided or if you were delusional and seeing things that couldn't be possible.
Word Count: Roughly 2.4kÂ
Warnings: Fluff, teasing, light sexual tension, playful banter, suggestive and mild language, power dynamics, mentions of past embarrassing childhood memories
Author's Note: There's like one (or maybe more) grammar error that I can't seem to find ://
And I'm sorry for the delay on this one <3
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Divider by @strangergraphics
Thirty minutes later, you stood in front of Peterâs apartment door.Â
You purposely tried to make yourself late. You walked instead of driving, stopped at the deli to get juice, and helped an elderly lady cross the street.Â
You did every single thing fucking imaginable.
You hesitated, fist hovering just inches from the door. You contemplated running back home or throwing yourself down some stairs so you had a legitimate excuse for missing your date and not having to see Peter.Â
But before you could talk yourself out of it, the door swung open with a creak, and there he was.
Peter Parker.
He was leaning casually against the doorframe, arms crossed over his chest, wearing a smirk that could only mean one thing: he was about to have way too much fun with you. He was looking at you like heâd just caught his favorite target.
Well, he had.
And he had been doing that since you were kids, so what was one more round? But you'd prefer several rounds.
You glanced up at him before looking away.
Peter had changed.Â
He was still Peter, but the years had definitely worked in his favor. His shoulders were broader, his jawline sharper, and those reading glasses, those glasses, gave him this nerdy charm that reminded you of when he was younger. But that somehow made you want to both roll your eyes and blush at the same time. And donât even get started on the muscles. His biceps were practically screaming to be noticed under his T-shirt.
You had to resist the urge to salivate.Â
It took you a second to pull your thoughts together.Â
You hadnât seen him since high school graduation, five years ago, but who was counting? You were.
âWell, well, well,â Peter drawled, his voice smooth as honey and laced with that signature mischievous tone. âLook who finally decided to show up.â He gave you a once-over, eyes lingering just long enough to remind you why you used to dread him. âI was starting to think you were too chicken to face the music, peach.â
Peach. Of course, he had to use that.Â
Your face instantly flared with heat, and the flood of mortifying memories hit you like a tidal wave. The peach nickname came from that god-awful summer barbecue when you bit into a juicy peach, only to choke on it and turn into a red-faced mess in front of everyone, including Peter.
You could almost hear his smug chuckle from all the way back then.
You forced yourself to stand tall.Â
âI didnât exactly have much of a choice,â you shot back, but even to your ears, your voice cracked a little. Damn it. âNot like I couldâve canceled now.â
Peterâs grin deepened, almost impossibly wide. âYeah, youâre pretty much stuck with me.â He took a slow step forward, eyes glinting with something far too playful. âLike that time you tried to impress me by climbing that tree. You remember? Arms scratched up, hair all over the place, and then that pout you had when you couldnât get down? Classic move.â
You narrowed your eyes at him. âAre you seriously bringing that up again?â
Peter shrugged, unrepentant. âWhat can I say? Itâs a core memory from your childhood.â Peter leaned closer. âYour mom sent me a picture, you know. Framed it. Right next to my bed.â
You blinked rapidly as your face turned completely red. âYouâre an ass,â you muttered.
âYou love it.â His smirk never faded.
Your retort caught in your throat when his hand curled around yours. âCome on,â he said, his tone softer now, almost coaxing. âThis is supposed to be fun.â
Before you could protest, not that you wanted to, he'd tugged you into his apartment, closing the door behind you with a soft woosh and a click of the lock.
You took a quick glimpse around his apartment. It was cozy and very much Peter, an organized chaos in the way only he could pull off. Books, tools, gadgets, and half-finished projects are across the floor like a mad scientistâs lair. And then there was the smell: it was him. A blend of cologne, something faintly smoky and sweet, and something warm and earthy that made your pulse skip a little. It was almost unfair how well it suited him.
When he turned to face you, he hadn't let go of your hand. His thumb rubbed slow circles on the back of your hand, his touch warm and inviting.
âHello, peaches,â he murmured, his voice a teasing caress.
âHi, Peter,â you replied, your voice barely above a whisper as you avoided his gaze.
He chuckled, the sound wrapping around you like a warm hug, as he lifted your hand and pressed a slow kiss to your knuckles. The rasp of his stubble against your skin sent a shiver down your spine. âDonât be shy. Itâs just us.â
Your cheeks flushed as you huffed and pulled your hand back, ignoring the way his lips curved into another smirk. âThis is torture,â you grumbled.
âSweetest kind,â he shot back, leaning against the counter like he had all the time in the world. âSo, whoâs the guy? The one youâre trying to impress?â
You fidgeted under his gaze. âJustâŠsomeone I met through friends.â
âAh, the mysterious friendâs friend,â he mused, his tone laced with amusement. âAll right, letâs start with the basics. Confidence. You need to feel comfortable in your own skin.â He tilted his head, eyes gleaming. âBut youâre still shy, arenât you? Just like when we first met.â
You groaned. âDonât start.â
âOh, Iâm starting,â Peter said, clearly enjoying himself. âYou know, I still remember the first time we met,â Peter added playfully. âYou were so shy and quiet, hiding behind your brother's leg. And I was your brother's best friend, who decided to befriend the sweet little girl too.â
âNo, asshole. You roll your eyes. âYou decided that you would make fun of me from that day forward.â
Peter shrugged, his grin unrepentant. âI was just poking fun. You always blushed so easily. But I never did it in a mean way. Well, not too mean,â he amended with a chuckle.
âWe teased each other, remember? That was our thing,â he said, tapping the tip of your nose with his finger.
âNo, it wasn't.â You grumble.
âWas too,â he teased, eyes sparkling with amusement. âYou'd challenge me to a video game, get all pouty when you lost, and I'd tease you for it.â
He paused, watching you closely. âCome on, peach. You loved it as much as I did. All our inside jokes, the nicknames, the way we teased each otherâŠâ
His voice dropped. "And now, he said, his gaze dropping to your lips, making the heat in your cheeks flare, âI get to teach you how to flirt.â
You roll your eyes.
Peter was way too close, so close you could feel the heat radiating off him. You quickly took a step back, but it didnât help much. Peter smirked, eyes narrowing just enough to let you know that he could read you like an open book.
The sincerity in his tone made your breath hitch, but before you could respond, his teasing grin returned. âNow,â he said, straightening up, âletâs see if I can teach you how to stop blushing every time I say your name. What do you think, baby?â
Your stomach flipped at the nickname, but you rolled your eyes, refusing to let him win this round. âYouâre insufferable.â
âAnd youâre adorable,â he shot back, grinning as you sputtered.
âFuck you,â you muttered.Â
âStill got that attitude, huh?â he teased, his voice a little quieter now, almost like a challenge. âHard to believe youâve grown up. Wasnât it just six years ago when you told me to âfall in a ditch and dieâ?â
You blinked, the blush creeping up your neck again. âShut up, Parker,â you muttered, your arms instinctively crossing over your chest. âYou and my brother basically stalked me on my first date. I was a disaster. You guys made me cry.â
Peter chuckled that deep, rumbling sound that made your insides do something weird. âOh, come on. It was hilarious! You were so flustered, like a deer in headlights. You couldnât even speak! And then your face-â He paused, dramatically pouting. âI mean, seriously. Who else trips and falls into a pile of mud on their first date?â
You wished for the ground to swallow you whole. âYou guys were awful.â
"Awful?" Peter echoed. "I wouldn't have had to do that if you hadn't snuck out without telling anyone."
Peter shrugged, but there was that familiar gleam in his eyes. âBut, I did pay for your dry cleaning and bought you ice cream, so I don't have remorse.â
He leaned a little closer, almost like he was enjoying this more than he should be.
âI was just looking out for you, baby. You know that.â
Baby. That damn nickname. You tried to stay mad at him, but he knew exactly how to melt that armor.Â
You buried your face in your hands. âI hate you.â
âNo, you donât.â Peterâs voice softened, and when you peeked through your fingers, he was closer, his expression more serious now. âI was just looking out for you. Always have.â
Peterâs smirk deepened as he leaned against the wall, arms crossed, his entire presence screaming arrogance and charm.Â
"Yeah, well, you didnât exactly make me feel protected when you were laughing at me," you shot back, trying to regain some ground. Your voice wavered, though, betraying your confidence.
His cocky demeanor softened slightly, just enough to throw you off. âThat guy you were with? He was a total creep. And you? Youâre too sweet to be rude. But me?â He pushed off the wall, stepping closer, his voice dropping low enough to send a shiver down your spine. âIâm going to beat someoneâs ass if they deserve it.â
You froze as his eyes locked onto yours, the intensity of his gaze almost too much. Then, his smirk returned, softer now, but no less disarming. âAnd youâŠâ His voice was practically a murmur now. âYouâre my favorite little peach, and peaches? They need protection, donât they?â
Your cheeks burned. You crossed your arms, a weak attempt at a barrier between you and the way he made your pulse race. âYeah, well, Iâm grown now. A big girl. I can take care of myself,â you retorted quickly, too quickly.
Peterâs eyebrow arched, his expression smug as if daring you to believe your own words. âOh, is that right?â He tilted his head, eyes sweeping over you, lingering just enough to make you squirm. âThen why are your arms crossed like youâre holding yourself together?â
Peter raised an eyebrow in a silent challenge. You could feel his eyes on you, the way they looked at you like you were something worth being seen.Â
It was intoxicating. It was terrifying.Â
Your breath hitched. He was too observant, too good at peeling back your defenses with a single question. âIâm fine,â you insisted, but your voice lacked conviction.
Peter took a slow step forward, closing the distance between you. His scent hit you first: spicy, earthy, and undeniably him. It was a heady mix, and you found yourself shifting closer to him.
 âTell you what,â he said, his voice smooth and warm, dripping with challenge. âWhy donât you show me how a big girl flirts? Think of it as a trial run before your date.â
âI-IâŠâ You faltered, your mind scrambling for words as he moved closer, the heat of his body radiating against yours.
âWhatâs the matter?â he teased, his lips twitching into a smirk that made your knees weak. âI thought you were a big girl now.â
You swallowed hard, the heat in your stomach pooling as his words wrapped around you like a velvet rope. He was too close, close enough for you to feel the warmth of his breath near your ear.
âC'mon,â he coaxed, his voice a whisper near your ear, and you shivered despite yourself. âA big girl knows how to flirt.â
You could feel his breath tickle your neck, his hand resting on your waist like he always did when he was teasing you. And for a brief moment, you were that awkward teenager again, and he was the older boy next door with all the arrogance and charm.
âIt's just you and me here, peach.â His voice was low, his thumb drawing idle circles on your hip, making it damn near impossible to think straight. âShow me what you've got.â
âFine,â you said, trying to maintain some semblance of cool, giving him what he wanted to hear. âI can't flirt to save my life. Show me how to.â
Peterâs smirk widened, his eyes lighting up like heâd just won a game you didnât realize you were playing. âThat much I already knew,â he murmured, his hand moving to your waist with an ease that made your pulse stutter. He pulled you closer, your bodies mere inches apart.
His thumb began trailing under your shirt, tracing lazy circles on your hip, and your breath caught. The deliberate touch sent a delicious thrill through you, making it impossible to focus. You tilted your face up to meet his gaze, catching the flicker of victory in his eyes. He knew what he was doing to you. He knew, and he was reveling in it.
âWhatâs wrong, peach?â he said, his voice low and teasing. âCat got your tongue?â
âYouâre insufferable,â you muttered, but even you could hear the waver in your tone.
âAnd yet,â Peter replied, his smirk softening into something more dangerous. âYouâre still here. Inches away from me. Looking at me like youâre waiting for something.â
Your heart hammered in your chest. He wasnât wrong, but you werenât about to give him the satisfaction. You straightened your shoulders, trying to regain control. âI didnât come here for your games, Peter,â you said, though your voice trembled slightly. âI came here because you owe me for all the humiliations youâve put me through over the years.â
Peter chuckled, the sound low and rich, sending another shiver through you. âYouâre right,â he said, stepping even closer until there was barely any space left between you. âI do owe you.â
His eyes dipped to your lips, and your breath hitched. âAnd donât worry,â he murmured, his tone full of promise. âIâve got plenty of ways to make it up to you.â
Your heart stuttered as the air between you grew thick, heavy with tension and something you werenât sure you were ready for. You tried to speak, to push back, but the words caught in your throat.
What the hell had you gotten yourself into?
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