Rivers?? Creeks???? Hello???

12/8/22: decomposing vertebrae harboring algal growth.

dodged a bullet, saw my shadow get blown apart

idiot draws a fully detailed second emily unaware of what's to come

“i didn’t know you were uncomfortable” dude my ears were pinned and the whites of my eyes were showing. bro did you not see me excessively licking my lips and yawning

How to Decay Gracefully (ink redux)

Brad Dourif Behind the Scenes on The X-Files 

Beyond The Sea (S1 EP13)

Night Hunt by John Brosio

In the absence of a clear and obvious angle to attack Bushnell’s protest, most likely due to his status as a serviceman that would make outright insulting him or suppressing the news itself scandalous, discussions on Western shores have now taken on the familiar framing of mental illness. In Time Magazine’s write-up of Bushnell’s death, the article finishes with a link to the suicide hotline, and asks readers to contact mental health providers if they are experiencing a “crisis.” Mark Joseph Stern, a writer at Slate, seemingly unasked, also wrote on Twitter/X:

“I strongly oppose valorizing any form of suicide as a noble, principled, or legitimate form of political protest. People suffering mental illness deserve empathy and respect, but it is wildly irresponsible to praise them for using a political justification to take their own life.”

Conviction does not exist to the American. To be willing to die in a selfless act for what they believe in only exists for those outside America's sphere of influence. Many will recall reporting on those who self-immolated in protest in Iran and in Russia for instance where this sort of approach, unwilling to engage with the root of its cause, would not even be entertained, let alone written and published with sincerity. The Arab Spring began with a self-immolation. The self-immolation of Buddhist monks in protest of South Vietnam’s persecution became defining images of the war and its corruption. Within America’s walls however, there is a belief, unspoken and ingrained from birth, that democracy allows for everyone’s voices to be heard and that its representatives are inherently inclined to respond to the people and their widespread wishes.

Desperation at inaction or complicity in terror and atrocity need not apply. Everyone incensed by their government to such an extent must simply have something wrong with them. To be able to go about one’s day knowing that children are screaming from the hunger that is eating their insides and that pregnant women are eating bread made from animal feed, and that the United States is supporting Israel’s creation of this famine, is apparently the real sign of well-adjustment.

Seamus Malekafzali, “The Words Burned Through His Throat: The Sacrifice of Aaron Bushnell,” February 26, 2024.

The contradiction between what we were playing and reality is this: Oftentimes we worked until two or three in the morning. We’re not the only company still shooting, but, yeah, we’re late. Cars are going through the gate, the arm comes down. There’s a line of cars. Then when I get there, the gate comes down and security says to me, “Open your trunk.” I said, “No. Why? All these other cars just … Why? What do you think I have in this Volkswagon Rabbit? What’s in there, the Defiant?” What I’m trying to say is that the contradiction, or the paradox of it all, we can’t get away from. You see what I mean? I wish sometimes that were true; that the fact I played Sisko would make some kind of difference on the street. No, only on the screen. The contradictions are evident. They are inescapable in a way.”

Avery Brooks, quoted in, The Fifty-Year Mission - The Next 25 Years, Volume 2, Edward Gross, Mark A. Altman