3 Months Of Stress Relief Hawks Doodles Bc I Love The Bastard

from the fear of forgiveness by jihnari on ao3. EYE obviously liked it very much but thats just because im a freak who loves despair, tread with caution. it is not portraying a healthy or happy relationship 

hawks bringing cigarettes to meeting so he can take smoke breaks with dabert

im so bummed we didnt get more of hawks and tokoyami in nyc in world heroes mission i think abt it all the time

father and son in law activities

The art i did for the @hawkszine 2018 (i think) better post this now or it will get lost on my laptop 

OCHACOOO WOAH 😳

looking back at my initial reaction to this moment when it happened in the manga, i can't believe i didn't immediately realise that it wasn't supposed to be taken positively. as someone who's been preaching about shigaraki being an unreliable narrator for years, it's really weird that at the time i didn't realise that the contradiction in what hawks saying ('i had support') and what he's thinking about (his toy. he didn't have any real support, only himself and his dream) is intentional, and didn't notice that his speech-bubbles are shaky. he's not really fine or alright, but he's convincing himself that he is to keep going.

I personally believe Himiko Toga truly represents growing up as a girl who doesn't actually fit the mold of what society expects from being born as one; the refusal to be objectified and subsequently abused to obligate to fit in, despite the cost of rebelling.

It's alright when Himiko hasn't developed her Quirk—her sense of personality and identity—because her parents can play dress up with her as they please. Himiko can just be anything they want her to be.

She has been taught being cute is being human and this link is repeated over and over again when we hear about her. Her parents punish her individuality by calling her a monster, denying any possible humanity and forcing her to suppress herself; Himiko cannot just be anyone she wants to be.

This idea is stressed when she is paired up against Ochako over and over again throughout the series.

Ochako is the perfect example of what a girl should be like. She is selfless, innocent, kind—but she buries deep down, to an unhealthy extent, all possible ugly things. When she is in love or jealous or even sad, she refuses to let these things show until she is alone as opposed to Himiko, who has learned to let herself go (with a cost, of course.)

What does Himiko mean when she says she wants to be like Ochako? We understand that she literally wants to become somebody else, because that is the way she loves, but has Himiko ever loved herself?

In the final battle, Himiko takes the blood of Ochako only to offer all of her blood back. The detail is, when she does this, she keeps parts of her actual features this time. The lightning is used specifically on that side of her face, because Himiko isn't hiding herself anymore under someone else's face in order to feel loved.

She learns to fully love herself because Ochako, someone who has grown on the side of normality, fights to let her know what she means for her. She is ready to take more than one stab wound just to reach Himiko and let her know that she envies her smile. Her freedom. Ochako may have always been accepted, but she now validates Himiko's way of living however she pleases and even claims to want to have the liberty she does.

And Himiko allows her (and eventually literally pushes her) to live however she wants to.

I have mentioned before that in literature, sharing a meal is symbolically an act of communion, usually for the purpose of making peace or coming to a mutual understanding.

At a symbolic level, this scene is Hawks and Endeavor trying to understand each other and their respective ideals. It's a peace offering and request for cooperation on Hawks' part. The strange thing is despite Endeavor's overbearing nature, he let Hawks choose the food and the location of their meal. As much as Hawks said he wants to sit back and take a supporting role, Hawks was the one taking all of the initiative and Endeavor was letting him lead with only moderate complaining.

And this meal did lead to an understanding between these two. It's only because of the understanding they reached here that Endeavor was able to understand Hawks' later message warning of the PLF. It wasn't a perfect understanding: they finished their meal together, but the restaurant was shattered before they could pay the bill. Hawks still kept his face and hands covered by his costume. He was still not being forthright about his intentions. He planned on using Endeavor as bait for the noumu without informing him. And Hawks was not being honest about why he wanted to direct Endeavor's Number One Hero career. Hawks phrased it in terms of not wanting to work hard, but it was in truth about his personal admiration of Endeavor and a systemic critique about the fragility of the existing system that needs heroes on alert at all times.