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Me trying to explain to my friend why I felt fine an hour earlier and why I feel bad now (I have BPD):

It seems as if no one will ever put in extra effort for me

watching my close friends live their life normally hurts so much because i wanted to achive things too. seeing them study what they want and actually can do it, get what they want, not having any problems in life, good family, and etc... and then there is me whos life is just a whole failure. it makes me wanna kms more when i hear how their life is normal and good. because i will never have a life like theirs. and before eveything, i wont see the world like them again. i lost my spark. i feel empty all the time and i dont find any meaning in living. i cant enjoy even little things like them anymore. i wish i was them. but i'm not. i'll just die in this darkness, alone with my all thoughts. there is no chance for me to see the world same again.

I wish i could have a normal crush... but no, my brain wants to worship every little detail of you until it drives me insane

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I fake being well.

crying and sobbing bc at the end of the day all i want is a partner who is sweet to me and thinks of me fondly