Tryna >:3 My Way Into Getting Other Trans Dudes To Dominate Me

i think I bother everyone by being alive

feeling unwanted ruins my whole fucking day

scoliosis

the problem with me is when i’m in love i’ll devote myself for eternity like a vampire

All my life, I have been living for other people. Most of the decisions I have made were because someone else wanted me to make them. It's time to start living for myself, but I have no interest in life at all. Killing myself will be the most selfish thing that I will ever do, but at least it will be my own decision.

I hate it when people ask me if I'm feeling something. Are you excited? Nervous? What do you want to watch? Do you wanna do something? Are you relieved now that it's over? Happy that you graduated? Proud to have achieved so much?

The answer is literally no. I have dysthymia, I do not care about anything nor have I for a long time. There is no point to anything so why would I have feelings related to something being important?

Thanks for reminding me that I'm empty inside though. Now I feel depressed about that so I guess I do have feelings after all. It's sure nice to graduated BSc and feel only sadness because you're not feeling happy about it.

Memories Made In Moonlight

Watercolor on Black Cotton Paper

2024, 9"x 12"

Blue Forget Me Nots

Private Collection

i want a gf or a bf or a partner or some undisclosed fourth thing i dont care about gender or what people call "standards" i just want somebody to fucking love me

normalize having favorites. in fact, normalize me being your favorite. normalize loving me more than you’ve ever loved anyone else. please please please please please please

love getting ghosted 🤗🤗🤗