Kuebiko

It’s all come full circle. 

Ophelia, 1872 - oil on canvas

— Jean-Baptiste Bertrand (France, 1823–1887)

Coconut Oil

This is my first fic and I’m posting it for @eriknutinthispoosy since she been going through some things with her Tumblr and my post notifications for her haven’t been working but this is for you boo💛💜

Also for my helpful beta readers @almightyreads and @coilycai 💞

(I do not own this picture, found it on Google and loved it.)

*Slightly very smutty → turned into aftercare and then maybe just some poor writing towards the end, idk Im just really tired. Enjoy…*

“C’mon, babygirl, let’s get you into that tub.” Erik’s calm voice makes its way to y/n’s ears. Everything she heard and felt seemed hazy, distant. She was so worn out that she could almost fall asleep.

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Her body had been used for Erik’s twisted enjoyment. She had been through silk tying her to the bed, candle wax, ice cubes and a Magic Wand vibrator strapped to her thigh to bring her to climax after climax. And as she laid out on the smooth black silk sheets of their shared bed, Erik had been stroking his thick cock, enjoying the wrecked noises that came from y/n’s strained throat. Her moans and cries turning him on to a different level that usually came out when they had their sessions. Normal, slightly kinky, slightly vanilla sex was always great with y/n, but there was just something about breaking y/n to nothing but a disheveled mass of weak sounds and a shaking body that turned Erik into a horny ass beast.

Finally, after hearing her grunt her way through her fifth orgasam, Erik got up to turn the vibrator down to a low buzz. “You good, Princess? What color you at?” Eriks gruff, lust filled voice asked while he came down to lay on the bed next to her.

“Re-red, Daddy.” y/n was barely able to speak, eyes barely open. She felt Erik turn the vibrator completely off, unraveling the silk bind around her thigh then moving to remove her silk ties from her wrists and ankles, planting light kisses on her raw flesh.

“You did so good for me babygirl, so good.” Erik praised moving back up to stroke her jaw while y/n felt her body hum with warmth as she started to come down from all her built up highs. If she had to describe how she felt, she would say that she was floating outside her body and up towards heaven, but could still feel every single brush on her skin. She was on cloud nine and at rock bottom at the same time. She was broken, but in the most perfect way imaginable when it comes to being with Erik.

“Imma go start a nice bath for you and I’ll call Tessa over, aight?” Erik stated and all y/n could do was hum in agreement.

Tessa was a good friend of both y/n and Erik, but she knew Erik longer. They knew each other from their time in the black ops team before Erik went off and almost died in Wakanda then later met y/n after his recovery. One night Erik and y/n were eating dinner in their living room when she brought up possibly bringing someone else, specifical female, into the bedroom. “Oh what, I aint enough for you?” Erik asked acting like he was upset.

“No, nigga, you more than enough for me, but I just wanna know what it would be like to have both at the same time.” y/n had her share of female lovers in college, but always wondered how it would go if she indulged in her appreciation of the female body with Erik, which she explained to him. After this conversation, Erik messaged Tessa, who was all game, and planned with y/n on a day to follow through with the act. To say that the experience was just short of actual heaven would be a justifiable way to remember what happened that night, and ever since then, Tessa would be called upon when they needed, like tonight.

While y/n was dazedly soaking in the warm lavender scented epsom salt bath slowly sipping up the gatorade Erik had gotten her, Erik went to let in Tessa. As she walked into the bathroom, she was talking to Erik, asking what they had done tonight. Erik told her about all the occurrences of the night and how spaced out y/n had become. Tessa make her was to the edge of the bathtub and smoothed back y/n’s curls and she happily leaned into Tessa’s touch.

Tessa was a tall, dark skinned woman who reminded y/n of Erik in how confident and slightly dominant she acted in bed but Tessa always had better aftercare compared to Erik, hence her being called over. Erik could tell that he wouldn’t be able to just cuddle this high away.

“How about we get you cleaned up a bit, rub you down with some coconut oil and while you get some rest, me and E will whip you somethin’ nice, sweets?” Tessa said, followed by a kiss to y/n’s forehead and a look up at Erik, who looked at them both with stirn but soft eyes.

“That would be nice,T.” y/n replied with a meek smile. With help from both strong bodies, y/n made her way out the tub on sore legs and was towel dried and led to the bed. She had noticed that the sheets were changed to a deep purple silk and the room had been cleaned up from all toys and objects recently used to cause her current blissed out state. She noted that Erik must have done this after getting her into the tub.

She was laid on the bed, stomach to sheets with a pillow under her hips. Erik on her right, Tessa her left, as both started to massage the coconut oil into the buzzing nerves of her skin. “How you feelin babygirl?” Erik asked, making sure that his princess was comfortable.

“I’m feelin amazin, Daddy. Everythin feels so gooood.” y/n’s response made Erik and Tessa give soft chuckles at just how spaced out she really was. Usually y/n would keep her answers short, but now she was slurring her words slightly since she got her voice back. ‘She really must be out of it’ both caretakers thought.

Soon enough, y/n had fallen asleep during the massage, leading to Erik and Tessa to wrap her up in a warm blanket to snuggle up into while they go cook her favorite food. It was a Nigerian dish Erik had learned to cook while living in Houston for some time while T’Challa was relocating some of the outreach centers. That is were Erik had met y/n, at a traditional Nigerian restaurant, where she worked, and they had clicked immediately. She had taught him how to make it how she learned from her mother figure at the restaurant. It was a beef stew with a side of okra. Y/n went crazy whenever she had it and Erik knew she would love it.

After a few hours of cooking, Tessa woke y/n up while Erik plated up their food. “C’mon Sweets, we made your favorite.” Tessa said with a warm smile as she gently awoke the other woman from her peaceful slumber. With a groan of annoyance, y/n got out of bed and put on one of Erik’s sweaters and some underwear and walked with T to the dining area near the kitchen. “Thanks Daddy.” y/n said, hugging Erik from behind, resting her head between his shoulder blades as he poured them water.”No problem Princess. You know Daddy always here to please.” Erik said with a smile on his face.

As all three of them ate, y/n looked at both her caretakers and was grateful to have these two in her life. Erik was her rock, keeping her grounded to enjoy earthly pleasures, while Tessa was her helium, setting her free to explore a heavenly side of ecstasy. Having such strong and loving features in her life really allowed her to be her best self and experience what she hadn’t been able to do before.  She was truly living through nirvana.

A/N: I know this sucked ass, it’s whatever, I just needed to get the original idea out and then my mind just went with it and carried it off to crap land. Sorry to waste your time and brain cells, but yea, feedback is very much appreciated, I’m off to go to sleep.

The “What I Need” music video ruined my being. Gay tears were flowing internally. Thank you, @HayleyKiyoko. Thank you, @Kehlani. And happy pride month everybody! <3

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Weighing of the Heart Spread

In Ancient Egypt (and now through Kemeticism), it is believed that when the deceased arrived in the Duat, their heart was weighed on a scale against a feather of Ma'at's in order to see if the person was worthy of to live forever in paradise (if not, their heart was devoured by Ammit).

This spread draws from that story, and lays out what you need to know about yourself and what you need to do in order to grow!

1. How do you currently see yourself?

This card touches on your idea of yourself- do you see yourself positively or negatively? What do you think of your current self?

2. What are you really like?

Following up on the first card, this card brings up what you are actually like, not just your self image. How does it vary from what you see?

3. What are you balancing?

What are you able to do in order to see yourself as you truly are? What do you need to do to "balance" those two view points?

4. What does your ideal self look like?

This card touches on what your "perfect" or "ideal" self, and how they would look or act.

5. What can you do to actually grow?

Finally, this card brings up what you need to focus on in order to grow from your current self into your ideal self.

one piece inspired fits <3

Abraham Janssens, Jupiter Rebuked by Venus

VENUS

Symbolizes attraction of all kinds, infatuation, desire, attachment, and emotional needs. Venus has dominion over intimacy and sexual energy and desire in the woman; it also signifies sex appeal, beauty, grace, fashion and being fashionable, socializing and sociability, partnerships, and the act of unification (weddings), but not the marriage itself. Venus has dominion over combining and coordinating different things, including parts of the body, countries, companies, ideas, and any two things whatsoever. Venus rules the companion and companionship, friendship and friends, being together, joining, cooperating, and merging; also possessions, money, social standing, jewels and adornment, and luxury. This is very interesting: Venus rules seduction, the act of making love, female sexuality, and sexual energy in the woman; and it is representative of charm, harmony, and a sense of humor. Venus is a BENEFIC and therefore symbolizes good luck and elevated levels. (IG:@madaamsaturn) A benefic is a term of ancient astrology referring to a highly beneficial planet that brings good luck or high levels of something beneficial and helpful, as well as victory and championships. Also: Victory in war, beauty, and fashion, harmony, sexual attraction, money, beauty, and money - but neither are permanent because nothing with Venus is forever. Venus is also a sexual planet.

MARS

Represents the body and muscles, motion, bodily movements and activity, energy, initiative, the sex drive (especially in men), war, weapons of war, aggression, anger, violence, temper, belligerency, the soldier, the warrior, violence, accidents, sudden disruption (including accidents), competitiveness, and the athlete. Since Mars rules the body, it has dominion over what we do with the body, such as athletic endeavors, dance, and ballet, and also pure physical labor. Mars is associated with the pure physical attraction of the body, as distinguished from emotional and even sexual attraction. Venus rules female sexuality, but Mars is the ruler of male sexuality. Mars governs initiative and being a person of action, as opposed to indecision and excessive contemplation. (IG:@madaamsaturn)It also rules the dancer and farmer, laborer and carpenter, and any profession that has a primary requirement of using the body. Mars signifies crudeness, vulgarity, macho attitudes, and the he-man. Also: battles, drilling, bodily movement and labor-intensive activities, “sexual” attraction (Mars is a sexual planet, fraternal symbolism with Venus), sports, enthusiasm, stamina, acting (using your body), unforgiving, uncompromising, rape, and co-rules farming with Neptune.

PLUTO

Is the ruler of sexuality, lust, obsessive desires, and sex organs. (This overlaps in some ways with Mars, which symbolizes pure physical attraction, but there is a difference.) Pluto is also representative of power; the establishment; and things that enhance or preserve power, such as atomic energy and weapons, politics, great success, big business, corporations, and advertising. Pluto signifies dictatorships and oppression and the state of being oppressive; this leads to Pluto signifying the superego and undeserved self-esteem.(IG:@madaamsaturn) Pluto represents the ingredients of great wealth, such as investments, the banking industry, the loaning of money, the issuance of debt, and the ability to pay it back; as well as most financial instruments, such as bonds and mortgages. It also represents gambling and betting, the trading of financial instruments of all types and profits therefrom. It provides the ability to take advantage of and capitalize on something in order to make a profit. Pluto has dominion over drastic changes that are true upheavals, and in this regard, it represents beginnings and endings. Pluto rules obsessions of all kinds, including emotional and sexual ones. Also, Pluto is the ruler of the actual sex act, as opposed to lovemaking and seduction, which are ruled by Venus. Venus seduces you; Pluto simply throws you on the bed and says, “Take off your clothes.” Pluto is therefore symbolic of sexism and male chauvinism. Also: Pluto elevates: elevated talent (Pluto-Neptune), elevated mind (Pluto-Mercury), ego, lawsuits, greed, excess, oppression, perpetual dissatisfaction, cold, power-hungry, selfish, abusive, authoritarian, power, success, professional sports, acting, nuclear bomb, economy, big business, competition, competitive sports, entrepreneur, politicians, film stars professional athletes, sexual planet, investment banking.

NEPTUNE

Rules longevity and anything that has to do with the long term, including true love and long-term relationships (but not marriage, because Chiron rules marriage.) It is Neptune that imparts sensuality to women. Neptune also represents creativity, inspirations, and whatever inspires. Neptune has dominion over morals, ethics, and ethical behavior and standards; it signifies sensitivity and gentleness. (IG:@madaamsaturn)Neptune rules electricity and electrical devices, and whatever involves the sea and water, such as shipping. More important, Neptune governs health, medicines, and anything that increases life expectancy or improved health; as well as regeneration, healing, and anything that increases longevity. This leads to Neptune’s rulership of serenity, tranquility, and safe passage, as well as stability and peacefulness at home. Neptune is the planet of youthfulness and being young at heart, spirit, and body. It is Neptune that rules the act of procreation and reproduction; as opposed to Venus, which rules the act of making love and seduction. Neptune is also different from Pluto, which rules the sex act itself. Neptune signifies all long-term assets, such as inheritances, copyrights, and patents; and whatever comes from the ground, such as minerals, oil, plants, and food. It is Neptune that rules long-term financial security. Neptune also symbolizes doctors, nurses, pharmacists, and all artistic and creative professions. Also: soft and gentle, fashion design, inventions and the changes that inventions bring about, hairdressing and make-up, creative talent, creative genius, computers, and electrical devices, ideas, next best planet after Jupiter, true love, medicine and doctors, hospitals, real estate, land, patents (necessary for any long term business), health, endurance, healing, long-term inner beauty, electricity, rubber and rubber products, long-term anything, artistry and talents of all kinds, long-term security, co-rules life and death with Chiron.

JUPITER

Is symbolic of fulfillment, good fortune, success, enrichment, prayers answered and dreams coming true, peace and forgiveness, wisdom and good judgment, reliability and being honorable, promises kept, the law, the principle of order, morality, generosity, fairness, gratitude, faithfulness, selflessness, compassion, optimism, and hope. Jupiter is symbolic of Judeo-Christian religions, Providence, grace, power benevolently used, self-sacrifice, selflessness, as well protection, and the protector. Jupiter is also representative of truth and true genius, the leader, royalty, expansion of what is good or helpful, and contraction of what is bad and harmful. Jupiter is the most powerful benefic (Venus is second), and it improves and helps every planet it makes an aspect with. (IG:@madaamsaturn) Also: Extra-ordinary leader, success and good fortune, creative genius (emphasis on genius), banks, laws and judges, clergy, priests, good judgment, and wisdom.

MOON

Has the rulership of emotions, fluctuating moods, the psyche, the subconscious, greed, fear, capriciousness, and uncontrollable urges.(IG:@madaamsaturn) Because of all these rulerships, it follows that the Moon is representative of fanaticism and illogical beliefs and actions. Also: Crops and food, ocean and water, everything found in the ground - such as gold.

MERCURY

Governs communication and writing, the mind, intelligence, design, logic, expression, poetry, singing, and music. Mercury also rules teaching; and conveying ideas, messages, announcements, and conferences. Because Mercury was the Roman god of speed and messengers, Mercury rules speed and swiftness, travel, transportation, and all vehicles of transportation (including airplanes, cars, and railroads). Since Mercury rules traveling, it also represents exploring and exploration – including the exploration of the mind and space; and exploring for minerals, oil, and gas. Mercury has dominion over very important parts of the body, including the brain, ears, eyes, respiratory system, nervous system, and reflexes. (IG:@madaamsaturn)Mercury signifies the teacher, writer, singer, architect, and any profession that has a primary requirement of use of the mind or that requires the act of communicating. Mercury’s rulership of the mind extends to anything that mimics the mind, such as calculators, computers, and computer software. Also: Reflexes, visual, eyes, ears, nervous system, sound, co-ruler of fashion design, sense of balance, so-ordination, respiratory capacity, exploration, mind, computer software (mind of the computer), acting, movies, transportation and equipment, internet (co-ruled by Uranus).

URANUS

Is symbolic of freedom and independence and the urge for both, and is representative of excitement and thrill-seeking. Uranus also signifies change and what is new, including the news. Also, it represents astrology, because it is the study of changes in planets’ positions, which creates new things. Since change can be revolutionary, Uranus is representative of everything that is new or innovative, including discoveries. Along these lines, Uranus symbolizes what has changed the world, such as inventions and technology, flying, space travel, and aeronautics. But the most important rulership of Uranus are that of fame, the public, and whatever has to do with the public – such as the mass media, broadcasting, and the entertainment business. Uranus is representative of what is worldwide, pervasive, and universal in nature or status, and publicly and publicizing. It is Uranus that signifies the globalization of anything, and it is also symbolic of being massive in general size or amounts.(IG:@madaamsaturn) In our bodies, Uranus is the ruler of what our body does to adjust to changes; this means Uranus rules balance, eye-hand coordination, and depth perception; but it overlaps with Mercury in these areas. Also: Inventions and the changes inventions bring about, internet, depth perception, awareness, ability to judge distance, changes in motion, ability to adjust to change, co-ordination and balance, technology, politics, order and orderliness, universal fame, the world, urge for freedom, with Neptune enhancements - actors/actresses ability to communicate to the masses, voting public, independence, Uranus enhancements - ability to communicate to the masses, models and modeling.

SATURN

Is symbolic of too much or too little of something, and never just the right amount. It is also the planet of control and dominance, and the desire for control and dominance over others. Saturn represents restrictions and constriction – contraction of what is helpful, and expansion of what is harmful. It governs scientific thinking and whatever is contrary to Judeo-Christian traditions. It is symbolic of obstruction, limitations, shortages, destruction, losses, mistakes, hindrances, disruptions, bad luck, dissolutions, and breaking apart. It is also representative of revenge, selfishness, and narrow-mindedness. Saturn is the planet of deception; and signifies temptation, deceit, deceitfulness, the occult and attraction to the occult, and also confusion.(IG:@madaamsaturn) Saturn also governs frustration, disappointment, being unhappy, as well as hatred and repulsion. What’s interesting to note is that Saturn signifies temptations of all kinds and being unable to resist them. Saturn is also a sign of being below average, in a weakened status, in ill health, and in a state of diminished vitality and/or capacity. There are problems in this world, so there has to be a planet that signifies them – and Saturn is the one that does. Also: discipline, control, selfishness, revenge and losses, unfortunate, reduction, undesired, attorneys, science, scientists and scientific thinking, delusions, dominance, obsessiveness, distaste for the status quo, Saturn crystallizes things that have been overlooked or not handled correctly, symbolisms of Saturn are different for historical aspects than personal aspects - Saturn is not bad when it is a personal aspect in the Natal chart - Saturn is bad when it comes to historic aspects.

CHIRON

Is the planet that has rulership over emotional ties, marriages, weddings, the family, spouses, and children. It represents the target of a person’s romantic and marital interest. Chiron also has rulership over promises and commitments of love, including engagements and marriage vows. It governs fertility and pregnancies, and the act of giving birth to children in marriage. Chiron rules the material and romantic instinct and desire of romance, as well as romance itself. It also signifies karmic bonds and intuitive trust.(IG:@madaamsaturn) Chiron has dominion over charisma and a person’s public image; and being noteworthy, esteemed, distinctive, and distinguished in appearance. Chiron is the ruler of your career and how you choose to make a living, as well as where you could be most successful. It also signifies your earning power, the economy, and economics. Chiron imparts extraordinary qualities. It also represents life, death, and reincarnation, and it is symbolic of the future. To say that Chiron is a very important planet is an understatement! Also: Career, trust, free-enterprising, life, and death, earning power, freedom, free will, pioneers and adventurers, famous public image, noteworthy.

SUN

Symbolizes the actual person, day, or entity of the astrological chart. In this regard, the Sun can also represent a relationship, a marriage, a corporation or partnership, a contract, a time period, and anything else that is able to be represented.(IG:@madaamsaturn) If you do not understand this, you will after all the examples that are provided later in this book. The Sun also has rulership over crucial parts of the body, such as the heart and circulatory system, as well as vitality and the essence of the person.

JUNO

Is oriented towards sex whereas Chiron is oriented towards love. Juno rules dating where the goal of dating is to attain uninvolved sex.  Chiron rules courtship and dating with love and/or marriage as the ultimate goal. When it comes to love, there is no planet as potent or important as Chiron. When it comes to sex, there is no planet or asteroid as potent as Juno.  Juno is the most sexual of the planets and is even more sexual than Venus, Mars, or Pluto.  The Juno-Venus Linkage is the ULTIMATE SEXUAL LINKAGE and is the most powerful of all the Sexual Linkages.  The second most powerful Sexual Linkage is the Chiron-Juno Linkage. It is Juno, and not Venus, Mars, or Pluto, that is the primary ruler of sexual attraction and desire.  Juno rules sex appeal and sexual charisma.  Persons with great Juno aspects have great sex appeal.  For example, persons born with Venus trine Juno, or Chiron trine Juno, have enormous sex appeal. A vital characteristic of Juno is that it is irresponsible, does not know how to love, and avoids commitment.  When Chiron has sex, it also makes love; when Juno has sex, it has sex and does not make love. Juno rules the quickie and the need for sexual satisfaction, as opposed to emotional satisfaction. Juno is a Sexual Planet, but the sexual nature of Juno is a little selfish because Juno represents sexual attraction primarily in the physical sense.  Chiron is symbolic of making love in the sharing sense and Chiron represents making love with emotional involvement.  Juno represents sex without emotional involvement or attachment.  For this reason, Juno represents an affair that will not blossom into a marriage. Juno rules sex without commitment. Juno is the ruler of lust and sexual relations without emotional involvement.(IG:@madaamsaturn) Juno represents sex outside of a committed relationship, such as a marriage. For these reasons, Juno is symbolic of the mistress, adultery, infidelity, cheating, illicit sex, casual sex, as well as the affair and the one-night stand. Since Juno rules sex without commitment, Juno is also the ruler of irresponsibility and selfishness, the “me first” and, worse, the “me only” syndrome of a relationship.  Juno is selfish, so much so that Juno is representative of broken promises and the dishonoring of commitments and responsibilities.  Juno (most recently) has also been found to rule drug addiction.

CERES

Although often unethical, materialistic, and selfish, Ceres is considered to be the ‘little Godfather of Business’. Note: We did not formerly include Ceres in charts on the website until one of our articles when we simply explained that Ceres is very powerful, especially when it comes to business matters. Ceres has been included in Magi Society software for well over a decade. In fact, for years, our Members have known that the Magi Society refers to Ceres as the “little Godfather of business” and we have included Ceres in all charts on our Members Only Website.(IG:@madaamsaturn)  Ceres is a Financial Asteroid, just as Juno is a Sexual Asteroid.  Interestingly, Ceres is just as powerful in financial matters as any Financial Planet. (Just as Juno is just as powerful in sexual matters as any Sexual Planet.)  For ease of writing, we will henceforth simply include Ceres as a Financial Planet.

VESTA

Rules friendship, loyalty, gentleness, harmony, compatibility, caring, giving, social relationships, fans, trust, altruism.

PALLAS

Rules logic, organization, and coordination of plans, analysis, and order.

SEDNA

Has no conscience. Sedna is immoral, deceptive, lying, predatory, destructive, violent, bloodthirsty, and rules disaster, upheaval, corruption, illegal profit, and evil.

SAPPHO

Rules fear and panic, extreme and neurotic behavior, compulsions and obsessions, and stock market crashes.

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There is a view that I understand and I find very interesting in this explanation, like Neptune ruling electricity, Uranus is known for that but if we look at it very, very broadly, electricity is a way in which we can control atoms in a way that it generates light, but Uranus is uncontrollable.

However, for meanings like Chiron and Juno it doesn't make any sense, as Chiron's meaning would apply better to Juno, and Juno's explanation would stay with Eros.