This And Finding Out My Ancestors Were Slave Owners Definitely Did Something To Me

Leo Fashion Pt.2

My ex used to talk up lightskin/latina women to me so much, his phone backgrounds was always one, the celebs he crushed on just the women in general he found attractive and i was like? What are you doing with me?

I did things for him.

Babied him, treated him like gold, but he never wanted me, he just wanted to be taken care of.

That’s what they use us for, until they find a lightskin women that wants them so they can trip over themselves for someone who ‘deserves it’.

I’m just really down and emotional today, being a black woman is so hard and I’m tired of crying and feeling worthless to these men that we continue to do everything for.

Man.. growing up is so hard

When you're marrying or giving it a thought, check your s/o Moon sign's nakshatra 'Gana'

'Gana' means Clan. Gana matching is very important for a long term commitment or relationships

In Vedic astrology, there are 3 ganas:

Dev gana(divine, godly category)

Manisha/Manushya gana (human, earthly category)

Rakshasa gana (devil category, sort of tamasika)

If any of these are not compatible, its known as 'Gana Dosha'. But one exception is if your sign lord are good /mutual, or if the ppl involved have same Navamsha, this Dosha won't be taken into account.

Dev gana people have good intuition, their spiritual manifestation works faster than the latter two. They won't hesitate to help people. Stubborn. Don't change thier views or themselves easily. Can be prideful.

Manushya gana people are human like, they are people who are obedient to the elders and are ethical. May not help others but are mixed.

Rakshasa gana people are dominating/bossy (in a good way tho) they have a good direction of things and are impulsive too. Go getters. Can easily read energies. Cruel and selfish at times.

Side note: In Hindu epics, even the demons (called 'daityas', 'danav', 'asur' or 'Rakshas') possessed as much powers as the gods and demi-gods. (Or even more, but it depends on the penance)

So here's the thing, compatibility between these are important:

1) Dev gana combos

Dev Gana + Manushya gana= good 👍but the dev gana would be dominating. Unity is nice, lesser conflicts. Harmonious relationship. (5pts are rewarded)

Dev Gana + Dev gana= Very good understanding between both. Unity🎀. Perfect for marriage or any relationship (6pts are rewarded for this combo)

Dev Gana + Rakshasa gana= not compatible. Since the clans are total opposite, there maybe fights, adjustments are only valid till a limit. Don't get along well due to the polarity in their thoughts.

2) Manushya Gana combos.

Manushya + Manushya= again, same thinking, good unity between partners.

Manushya + Rakshasa= this is where the bad news comes, humans can't rule over devils, so this thing is a problem in the relation. The Manushya gana person gets dominated by the Rakshasa gana. The cruelty of the Rakshas gana person starts showing up. Lots of power play (if the other placements in the chart state otherwise). (Idk if true but, my grandma used to believe that in this combo, either of the partner lives, and mostly it is the least dominant party which is taken away, lol) (0pts for this combo)

💙 Dev Gana nakshatras: Ashwini, Mrisgshirsha, Punarvasu, Pushya, Hasta, Swati, Anuradha, Shravana, Revati.

❤️ Rakshasa Gana nakshatras: Krittika, Ashlesha, Magha, Chitra, Vishakha, Jyeshtha, Moola, Dhanista, Satabhisha

🧡 Manushya Gana nakshatras: Bharani, Rohini, Ardra, Purvaphalguni, Uttaraphalguni, Purvashada, Uttarashada, Purvabhadrapada, Uttarabhadrapada.

In conclusion, i would say, please don't base your opinion solely on this Gana of Nakshatras, other things in the d9 chart and the natal horoscopes are important and are being taken into account, this thing is just a part of it.

That's all for today, i hope you enjoyed this post ✨🖤

Saturn and restrictions 🪐

Saturn restricts us and usually comes from our childhood traumas. In Greek mythology, Kronus was the God of the time. He knew that one of his children would defeat him. So, he decides to eat each of his children, basically, he restricts them from living. There is no surprise that our placement regarding Saturn presents delays and restrictions. These restrictions come from authority figures since we are young.

⚠️Read. This post is about things that I notice about Saturn in the houses. Just take what resonates. If this post triggers you for any reason, it's okay to try to breathe and don't force it.

Furthermore, Saturn can show our restrictions due to karmic consequences. If you have Saturn retrograde, this may take longer to acknowledge.

These are possible issues, but just take what resonates.

꩜ Saturn in the 1st house: these natives were restricted in their appearance or approach to life. Others, rigorous figures dislike the way they present themselves to life. Restricted household name. Imposition of a purpose. Problems with self-image due to parental comments. People tell you how to behave and act in front of others.

꩜ Saturn in the 2nd house: they were restricted in drawing boundaries. It may be the case that the native always feels pressure to share their possessions with others. Stability and comfort were not expected. Money was too much or nonexistent. Stability over love. Poor self-esteem. Others took your time and things for their use without asking.

꩜Saturn in the 3rd house: Parents or teachers restricted the native communication. They make the individual feels incompetent or out of place, whenever they share opinions or ideas with others. Bad relationships with siblings. Siblings laugh at how they talk. Problems with words. Others tell you how "awkward" you sound or the worst thing. They make you regret expressing yourself.

꩜Saturn in the 4th house: a restricted home, this could be throughout inheritance of some sort of. Their emotions and feelings were prohibited by a mother or a maternal figure. This could also be a physical space: a small house. The 4th house is ruled by the moon. You were called "weak" or too sensitive. You should honor your traditions even if you didn't like them.

꩜Saturn in the 5th house: these people were obligated to act mature or calm. Even though they were expressive, others degraded their creativity. They were too happy or too naive. People make them feel out of place. They were told to shut up because they were too loud. People make fun of them.

꩜Saturn in the 6th house: they were exposed to overindulgence in childhood. Also, poor health habits or poverty. Their parents never limit their habits. So, now they may overwork in their health or workplace. Routines were so present that bored them or everything was spontaneously making them feel unsafe. Being organized was part of their routine. Eating was complicated. Eat guilt and shame from your parents "you should finish your meal because many people are starving"

꩜Saturn in the 7th house: power struggles and restrictive relationships and partnerships. Parents were always in conflict. People who were close neglected or ignored the native's needs. They didn't learn what companionship or equality is. Others push your boundaries, and you didn't act on it. A need to be perfect was a thing.

꩜Saturn in the 8th house: identity crisis or hiding self. They were dictated to hide due to an image. This also means someone controlling you like a possession. Sexuality was a taboo, so they restrict you from expressingyourself. Other people manage your money or possessions to leave you in fear. Hiding your fear under your bed. Religion imposition and all the issues around it. Feeling ashamed because they are "different". They put you on the pedestal and you didn't like it.

꩜Saturn in the 9th house: You were restricted from following your convictions and philosophies. Life was under a regime of education for others. Maybe, you study too much in different educational institutions. Learning was too insufficient or too exhausting. They make fear knowing things; you were constantly told to stay still. "Don't move"

꩜Saturn in the 10th house: People give you responsibilities that you didn't deserve. They make you grow up too fast. They make you aware of your persona, and now you feel restricted to feel free. Constant burnout, too. Child prodigy issues. You need to be active all the time because productivity is key to success; this constant movement makes you feel empty.

꩜Saturn in the 11th house: you were restricted to use your knowledge and compassion toward others. Your parents reprimanded you for using technology devices or you didn't have any device. People restrict your higher knowledge and being "different" was seen as bad. Also, you were pushed to be alone and be away from communities or "your people".

꩜Saturn in the 12th house: people restricted your inner essence. The unknown part that they felt was not you. Also, you were secluded from religion; either your spiritual beliefs and experience or religion restricted you, too You may lie to yourself often. Mental health was restricted too. Parental figures hide you from others.

Take care <3

Scorpio Fashion Pt.2

JUNGKOOK WHAT THE FUCK

Vedic astrology notes

Based on my own experiences

• shravana girlies are loved by other women and the type to attract both genders. Their femininity is strongly felt 🎀

• anuradha is strongly associated with spiders , spiders become mostly significant for them when they're conquering their fears and owning their power 🕷

• bharani women make rly good leaders as they seem grounded but also people tend to look up to them. Venus energy is elite ✨️

• tiger yonis (chitra/vishaka) are fierceee badass bitches they can come off as Intimidating but ppl can't help but notice them 🐆

• vishaka women start out as "good girls" from a young age but the more society or people try to control them they bottle it up and then lash out or spiral out of control at one point becoming destructive, these women grow more into themselves later as they find it important to be authentic and true to who they are , thats how they shine🌻

• ashlesha women can bring out the worst in someone like they really know how to push someone's buttons lol

• mrigashira women are very smart and intellectual they tend to follow their logic rather than their heart when it comes to relationships 💭 they also can keep secrets v well

• krittika women tend to have messy love lives with love triangles or cheating but they're also v attractive to the opposite sex

• revati women have 2 sides to them they're either badass from the outside and soft from the inside or they show their softness but internally they're badass and smarter than they led on

• jyestha women have so much sex appeal and they're not afraid to show it. They tend to have issues with other women whether its jealousy or competition but that doesn't take away from their success. Jyesthas end up being on top they make sure they win 🔥

• purva phalguni fr are sex freaks both men and women , but they can also channel all that sexual energy and passion into their creations which makes them very passionate and creative people overall

• shatabhisha women are so smart especially when it comes to getting info and secrets out of people but its mostly not for personal gains but for the highest good 👀

• can we talk about swati women and how they're strongly associated with cosmetics and beautification? 💄

• purva bhadrapada women hate being controlled or restricted especially when it comes to ideologies, concepts or beliefs. They don't like to be put in a box or labeled and would push against those barriers

Let me know if I should make more of these or if anything resonates

A Working Bibliography of Books On Rootwork/Conjure/Hoodoo That Are Actually Authored by Black Folk

 “Wherever there are Africans, or people of African descent, there is magic.”- Faith Mitchell

 My calling to rootwork is ancestral. However, I unfortunately I have yet to encounter elders in my life to apprentice under on this plane of existence.  Coming up, I didn’t know other people who identified themselves as rootworkers/hoodoos/conjurers etc. Being a scholar (among other identities), my entry point into hoodoo began with books, archives, and scholarly journals. As a result, I was able to garner a wealth of information as to what hoodoo is and isn’t, which recipes (old school hoodoos don’t cast ‘spells’) to use for what, to be able to engage in an intangible mentorship with the elders that came before me. All of these things have informed how I move through the world and grow stronger in my practice.

    As a result of a White spiritual hijacking of African Traditional Religions and Africana Magico-Spiritual practices (i.e. hoodoo), the vast majority of the information about hoodoo on and offline has been authored by white people, so much so that they have become the face of hoodoo (similar to white women and yoga). 

    For those of us who are looking to grow and learn from other Black practitioners, here is a working list of books. This list consists solely of non-fiction texts, however, there is a lot to learn from novels as well, perhaps I’ll create a part two some other time. 

Please hit me up if I am missing anything or if you have a personal connection with these texts, I’d love to be in conversation. 

Many of these mentioned texts can be found online for Free.99. 

Also, sorry this is a long ass post. 

My Personal Favorites:

   1. Jambalaya: The Natural Woman’s Book of Personal Charms & Practical Rituals - Luisah Teish

 2.  Of Mules & Men- Zora Neale Hurston

3. Working the Roots: Over 400 Years of Traditional African American Healing

4. Mojo Workin: The Old African American Hoodoo System- Katrina Hazzard-Donald

5. Black Magic: Religion and the African American Conjuring Tradition- Yvonne P. Chireau

6. Secret Doctors: Ethnomedicine of African Americans by Wonda L. Fontenot ( I think this one might be out of print but much of it can be found online via Google Books) 

Honorable Mention: Tell My Horse- Zora Neale Hurston

 Ok, so this is one of my absolute favorite texts though it doesnt discuss American hoodoo. It focuses on Haitian Voodoo and Jamaican Obeah. However, there is a lot that can be learned from this text and how African magico-spiritual practices are indeed “scientific” as opposed to mere superstition. 

Additional texts that I haven’t gotten to reading yet or are simply not in my favorites (no shade, no tea):

7. Hoodoo Medicine: Gullah Herbal Remedies - Faith Mitchell

8. 365 Days of Hoodoo: Daily Rootwork, Mojo and Conjuration- Stephanie Rose Bird

9. Sticks, Stones, Roots & Bones: Hoodoo, Mojo and Conjuring with Herbs- Stephanie Rose Bird

10. A Healing Grove: African Tree Remedies and Rituals for Body and Spirit - Stephanie Rose Bird

11. African American Folk Healing- Stephanie Mitchem

12. Faith, Health, and Healing in African American Life (Religion, Health, and Healing) - Stephanie Mitchem ED. 

13.  God, Dr. Buzzard, and the Bolito Man: A Saltwater Geechee Talks About Life on Sapelo Island, Georgia - Cornelia Walker Bailey

14. Rootwork: Using the Folk Magick of Black America for Love, Money and Success- Tayannah Lee McQuillar

15. Voodoo & Hoodoo: The Craft as Revealed by Traditional Practitioners- Jim Haskins

Ate me up

mrigashira nakshatra:

the fifth constellation— (23°20 to 6°40) taurus-gemini.

symbol: deer head 🦌

animal: female serpent

ruler: mars

these individuals seem to always be on the ‘chase’ or journey to seek what life has to offer them. the way they think is profound in a way because they are never really satisfied with the knowledge they accumulate in this present moment, making them used to the act of getting the answers that they both need and want.

the mind here is inclined in thinking of bigger and better solutions, ideas, etc. the search never ends with this nak. these people don’t really have a clue as to what it’s like to be in a fixated/stable situation or relationship. they have a tendency of thinking that the people around them have a motive against them.

mrigashira’s absolutely love being in the limelight, especially in front of cameras. they crave the attention. things such as multitasking, communication, curiosity and artistic ability are more emphasized here. they have the ability to learn different things in a very quick way, but just don’t want to go through the process.

these are the types of people that tend to ask the most complex questions known to man. they truly desire to know the reasoning behind their existence. the ones who consistently ask “why..?” to everything they were taught or told about their reality.

mrigashira are connected with themes of stalking and infatuation. (mentioned this on my tiktok, which includes more detail..) will ask you every question in the book upon first meeting—have a tendency to pry themselves into other lives. they want to be around people and learn how their mind functions. if you think about it, the more connections you have with people, the more knowledge and or resources one can gain within their life which can really benefit a person. for shorter terms, they are extremely clever with the type of people they associate themselves with, usually individuals that can get them ‘higher’.

the curiousness is everlasting. those with this nak prominent in their chart like the idea of jumping into tasks that require days worth of learning about and just do it without really knowing the accurate way of performing whatever it is they want to do. just like how deer run out in the middle of the road unexpectedly.

a visual representation of what this nakshatra is energy wise:

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