Day 6 In Front. GET ME OUT

Leaving this here for... no reason

All of this thinking about the past is making me want to relapse out of fear, i'm working so hard on practicing healthier coping mechanisms but god i really can't stand all this pressure

Not sure how much longer i can keep on going

There were plenty of reason not to do that

Gimme one single reason not to do it rn

Grieving the man i could've easily been if only my brain would've developped normally<<<<<

"i have a feeling you don't have multiple personalities" MF SCIENCE IS BASED ON FACTS NOT FEELINGS

Ntm mpd isn't even the right name anymore

You know what makes me more enraged about this? He kept acting like i was talking about it as if having alters is some funny shit when i hate these fuckers. I want them dead. I'm being so serious when i say if there was a way to detach them from my brain i'll just instantly kill them. I'm suffering here i'm not here for the shits and giggles. Fuck you

Gimme one single reason not to do it rn

You know what makes me more enraged about this? He kept acting like i was talking about it as if having alters is some funny shit when i hate these fuckers. I want them dead. I'm being so serious when i say if there was a way to detach them from my brain i'll just instantly kill them. I'm suffering here i'm not here for the shits and giggles. Fuck you

I think aknowledging i need help is a big step.

Will i accept it tho? Who fucking knows

Is this what guilt feels like. Why. Why does it hurt so bad. Why does it feel like drowning