Clearlycleverdestiny - My Garage

Music Friday

A great collaboration

Marcin on guitar

Legend Jordan Rudess from

Dream Theater on keyboard

Hang in there

I spent a lot of wasted time hating myself for having a gay orgasm. I was introduced to gay sex very early on. I won't go into details but I seem to have had fate place events and people in my life to tell me that I was going to be gay. I ignored mostly but looking back, I realized I was an idiot. But every time after wonderful, rare and amazing gay sex sessions, I would get the guilts. Those guilts imposed upon me by my strict and religious parents and religious washing. So silly.

Anyway, if you have had those purge sessions, where you think erasing your gay porn stash, deleting your gay hookup accounts, and tossing those dildos is gonna help you stop thinking of what is ingrained in your brain neurons, you have another think needed. It's not going to happen. Evah! Gay urges are permanent.

And if you are married and its been years since you have gotten anywhere near your wife's nether regions and you have gay or bisexual tendencies, you are gonna stroke to porn and more than likely, its gonna be gay porn. You were gonna find opportunities to break out those dildos and popper bottles and enjoy a fully gay session where you reveal your true self to your self. Where admitting out loud that you are gay makes you even harder. You cum harder than you ever came with your wife.

And as you stroke out the last drops you look around and see the mess you created. Slippery lubricant bottles, popper bottle opened on the floor that you almost knocked over, the dirty dildo you now have to clean and the towel you hide in the wash room hamper.

But that urge to purge has gone away. You secretly replace your "gay evidence" to their hiding places and revel in the warmth of true self revelation. Deeply and sincerely coming out to oneself is wonderfully simple. ....and erotic. I am gay.

I created this meme after someone told me that this had happened to them. He was half afraid his wife would find it and half hoping she would. Turns out she already had her suspicions. It was only a few months later before he came out to her.

He was fortunate that his wife was reasonable. He moved into the guest bedroom (they hadn't been having much sex anyway) while they figured out what to do. They had kids, but older and no longer living at home.

Within a year, she had moved out (her choice), he met a guy who helped him be open about being a gay man. His wife was happy for him and they divorced so they could both move forward. Lost touch with him shortly after that.

This was actually a recurring fantasy and theme in the beginning of my relationship with my wife. Sometimes, there would be a female crew member, but she'd be a lesbian.

Hmmmm..... a sign?