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Hello, everyone. After I played the most recent chapter of BloodBound and saw what Kamilah would have replied if players had chosen the 'vampire flings' dialogue choice, I did some thinking and I eventually became inspired to write a new story. I haven't completed it yet, but I'd like to share a small preview of what I have so far. Here it is:

"I'm sorry." She finally manages. "I'm sorry for what I said. It was thoughtless and careless of me. I should've been more considerate of you."

You smirk sardonically. "Hmph. Maybe you should have. But then again, when we first met, you admitted to having had a lot of lovers. So that doesn't make what you said about vampire flings any less true, does it?

From the corner of your eye, you see the older vampire flinch at your remark.

A tense silence fills the air. "... No. It doesn't." She finally admits.

You give a derisive laugh at your ironic victory. "Ha. I thought so."

I'll probably post the story within the week, but I'll make sure to post it before the new chapter of BloodBound is released. I hope that you'll enjoy the story once it's posted!

A Moment Alone

Note: I kinda thought of a modified version of the second half of the latest diamond scene with Kamilah. So, here it is. It's rather short. Lol. Hope that you guys like it. :)

Amy's POV

"Can we just be together for a sec?"

Kamilah looks at you intently. "A moment alone?" She steps towards you.

"Yeah." You hold her gaze. "With everything that's happened... and everything that might happen, I just want to... slow down for a moment with you.

She leans closer so that your faces are but mere inches away from each other. "And how would you like us to slow down?" Her voice was low.

"Hold me." You reply in an equally low voice.

She wraps her arms around you, and you rest your chin on her shoulder as your own arms coil themselves around her waist.

Her embrace is tight and protective. That, along with the warmth she emanates, makes you feel safe. You forget about everything else for a brief moment.

You stay together like that for a while.

"I don't want to leave you." You murmur into her neck, quietly breaking the comfortable silence.

"I don't want to leave you either." She whispers in your ear.

She pulls away slightly, so that you're facing each other again.

"But our clan members need me." She begins softly while pulling you closer. "They need someone that they can trust to guide and protect them. Adrian, unfortunately, can't stay. Among all of us, he's the closest to Serafine, so he has to go to Paris with you."

You sigh deeply. "Yeah. I know." You shift your gaze downward.

Kamilah places two fingers beneath your chin, causing you to meet her eyes.

"This won't be the last time we see each other, Amy."

Despite everything, you let out a small laugh.

Kamilah lifts an eyebrow in confusion. "What's so funny?"

You smile at her. "I'm just not used to seeing you so optimistic."

Your response prompts her to smirk. "Well, I have you to blame for that."

You chuckle again before the feeling of dread seeps in again.

You sigh. "This is going to be one hell of a ride."

"That's an understatement." Kamilah cups one side of your face. "But I hope to see you at the end of it."

You lean into her touch. "I hope to see you there too."

You meet together for a kiss - your lips and tongues move against each other deeply and insistently.

You then break away reluctantly. "I'll miss you, Kamilah." You breathe the words against her lips.

"Not as much as I'll miss you, Amy." She kisses you again, more tenderly this time. "Now, let's get you out of here before it's too late."

Together you walk hand in hand and make your way to the airport.

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Later, you're inside Adrian's privately-owned building at the airport. His private tarmac is just beyond the glass doors. The tastefully decorated holding area is empty except for you and the furniture.

"Well, I guess this is me." You say to Kamilah who is still holding your hand.

She turns to you and you can sense the worry in her eyes. "Be careful, Amy."

"I will." You squeeze her hand. "You too, Kamilah."

She squeezes back and gently runs her thumb across the back of your hand. She gives you a small smile before letting you go. You smile back at her before you make your way through the automatic glass doors.

As you walk towards the plane, thoughts of everything at stake enter your mind. You start to walk with a purpose - determined to do whatever it takes.

My first choice was the "Kiss her" option because I usually take any opportunity to have my MC kiss Kamilah. Hehe.

But out of curiosity, I replayed yesterday's chapter to find out what happens if players choose the "Continue to dance" option.

In this option-route, Kamilah opens up to the MC. I love how the vampire queen has become more open with the latter. Compared to before, she's now more forthcoming about how she feels and how things affect her. I also love how the MC responds in this scene by listening, understanding, and supporting Kamilah as best as she can.

I hope to see more tender moments between these two.

Some BloodBound Book II and III Parallels

On the left: Chapter 10: The Plan, Book 2 - Kamilah tells the MC that she doesn't think that she could bear to lose her mortal lover.

On the right: Chapter 1: The Hunger, Book 3 - Kamilah tells the MC that she refused to accept that she had lost the latter.

On the left: Chapter 16: The End, Book 2 - Kamilah laments that they didn't have enough time.

On the right: Chapter 1: The Hunger, Book 3 - Kamilah expresses that having more time with the MC feels like a miracle.

I was honestly pissed that the writers didn't have her say 'I love you' directly, but it's obvious that Kamilah's love for the MC is reflected in both her words and actions.

I love these two together and I'm excited to see more tender and loving scenes featuring that two of them.

Mistakes (Part 2)

Hello, everyone. I want to thank you all for your positive feedback and comments about the first part of “Mistakes”! Here is the second and final part of the story. I hope that you all like it! :)

Fair warning: It’s rather lengthy. Lol.

Click here to go to Part 1.

"Why?"

The tone of her voice is tensely calm. And it chills you.

"Kamilah..." You trail off, unsure of how to even begin.

For several moments, you continue to grasp for words. "I ---"

You hear her take a breath. "Stop." She says. "This isn't the place to have this conversation. Get in the car."

With her back still turned to you and without another word, she strides towards the exit of the Cavern and makes her way to her sleek black automobile. You hurry to follow her.

The ride to her apartment building is long and silent. The tension between you two hangs heavily in the air.

You silently follow her to the elevator and into her apartment. You stand in the middle of the living room, unsure of what to do while Kamilah rummages through her liquor collection at the bar.

Kamilah slams a glass on top of the counter and pours bourbon into it. She takes the glass and walks to the wall-sized windows. She takes a long sip.

“I’ll ask you again. Why?”

Her voice is still eerily calm. You feel even more chills running down your spine.

“I…” you begin to stammer.

She swirls her drink. “Go on.”

“I… I… I’m… sorry.”

She downs all of the bourbon. “Oh, you’re sorry?”

In the blink of an eye, the glass goes sailing through the air before smashing against the wall. Kamilah rounds on you, eyes smoldering.

“Is that all you have to say?! That you’re sorry?!”  Her beautiful face is twisted with anger. Her eyes are narrowed down to slits, and her forehead is creased with lines.

“Why? Why did you do it?” Although she is no longer shouting, her tone is still laced with rage.

You freeze – terror and guilt force you to remain still even as Kamilah glares at you.

“I don’t know what else to say right now.” You manage to say after a moment. “I am so s-sorry.” Your voice begins to tremble.

Your response only seems to spur the vampire even further into a spiral of rage. "Not only did you sleep with someone else, but you also slept with Priya Lacroix of all people! Do you know how stupid and foolish that was?! She could've killed you!"

She looks at her hands, which you see are trembling with anger. “Am I not good enough for you?” She asks. “Have I been lacking?! Haven’t I been good to you?!”

Haven’t I been good to you?

Amidst your feelings of fear and guilt, the last question causes you to snap out of your stupor.

And it also causes something else inside to snap. And before you know it, you blurt out your answer.

“No.”

The single word stops Kamilah dead in her tracks. “Excuse me?” She responds in disbelief.

“I said…” You begin to speak – the terror you initially felt beginning to subside to give way to something else entirely. “… no. You haven’t been good to me.”

Your answer seems to have rendered Kamilah speechless. So, you decide to take advantage of the silence to elaborate before she gets the chance to retaliate.

“Lately, you’ve done nothing but act coldly towards me.” You begin, gaining momentum. “Whenever I try to talk to you, you brush me off. Whenever I text you, you always reply with “Not now.” Whenever we’re in the same room, you act as if I’m not even there! The only time you actually acknowledge me is either when you need something from me or if you want me to shut up whenever you think that I’m talking too much!”

You notice that your voice has become raised and high-pitched. But right now, you don’t care – all the hurt and pain you’ve bottled up have started to spill over.

“So, no. You haven’t been good to me! In case you haven’t realized, you’ve actually been treating me like crap!”

Kamilah remains stunned for a few seconds. Then she comes alive again with indignation.

"In case you haven't realized, Gaius is on the loose! And he wants to conquer the world and destroy everything as we know it! The others, Adrian and I must do all that we can to stop him at all costs. I don't have time for anything else!"

Undeterred and feeling indignant yourself, you retaliate.

"You don't think that I know that? He kidnapped me, Kamilah! He used me to get the information he needed! I know what's at stake! I’m fully aware of how dangerous he is!"

"Then why are you mewling about not getting enough attention?!”

Her statement was like a slap to your face.

"I'm not asking that you dote on me or baby me 24/7! All I'm asking for is a little consideration! Even though the others are busy, they still take time to check on me. They talk to me. They make me feel that they care.

"You, on the other hand? You barely look at me! You act like you don’t care at all!"

Your retort causes her to pause for a moment. A flash of hurt similar to the one you saw in the Cavern crosses her features.

"How can you say that?! Have you forgotten all those nights we spent together? All those conversations we had?"

At the mere mention of those moments, memories begin to flash in your mind. The smiles you shared as lay entangled in each other’s arms. The small laughs during the most unexpected moments. The kisses you trailed across each other's bodies as the moon shone brilliantly from outside the windows.

At this point, the hurt you’ve been feeling seems to have reached its boiling point. You feel tears beginning to prick your eyes. “Honestly? With how you’ve been acting? I’ve started to think that you only give a damn about me whenever you want to have sex!” The tears start to flow freely. “I feel like your dirty little secret!”

At your words, all traces of fury immediately evaporate from the Egyptian vampire's face. A look of shock and hurt instantly replaces the rage.

“Are you… blaming me for your affair with Priya?”

You’re caught-off guard by her question. You stare at her with tear-stricken eyes, unable to utter a word.

Your silence seems to be the only answer Kamilah needs. She walks over to her desk and picks up a phone.

“Samuel. It’s Miss Sayeed. Take a car and come to my apartment. I need you to escort Miss Amy Walsh to her home.”

She sets the phone down.

“I called one of my Clan members to give you a lift.” She speaks in a monotone without so much as a glance at you. “Go downstairs and wait for him.”

“Kamilah…” You finally get the strength to say something.

“Leave.”

“But –”

“I said leave!”

It was all too much to bear. You turn on her heel and leave Kamilah’s apartment in tears.

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Three months later

It appears that the Council’s plan is working – the rotation of hiding places has kept the vial of the First Vampire’s blood secured and safe. So far, none of the already utilized hiding places have been disturbed – a good sign.

Yet, the Council refuses to become complacent. Knowing the danger and threat that Gaius poses, they regularly meet to discuss updates and strategies. And as Adrian’s assistant, and also because you are already deeply involved in their plans, you dutifully attended each meeting. No matter how difficult it is for you.

You and Kamilah haven’t spoken to each other ever since that fateful night months earlier. The memory of that night is still fresh in your mind as if it had only happened yesterday. You feel hurt, angry, and regretful all at once.

Kamilah doesn’t acknowledge you at all during the meetings – you’ve shared absolutely no eye contact or any form exchange whatsoever. Even during the times that Priya tries to make a move on you again, she doesn’t react. Due to the effectiveness of the rotation plan, she seems less tired and less on edge. But she still leads the meetings and strategy discussions with focused calculation and silent intensity.

She’s doing well. And she seems to have placed everything that’s happened between the two of you behind her.

That’s what hurts the most.

The others have noticed your sullen demeanor and have tried to coax into confiding in them. Lily, being your best friend, kept insisting that you can tell her anything. Adrian offered to give you some time off from work and assured you that he's always there to listen of you ever needed someone to unload to. Jax tried to cheer you up by touring you around the Shadow Den and by engaging in all sorts of the activities with the former Clanless vampires.

But you insisted that you were just tired and stressed because of everything that has happened and because of the possible dangers. The others, knowing that anyone would be distressed by those circumstances, accepted your explanation. But they still insisted that you go to them if you ever wanted to talk.

One day, you’re strolling across town. You’ve just finished having an early dinner and you were on your way to work.

You suddenly stop when a man steps in your way.

“Uh… excuse me.” You try to move around him, but he grabs your arm and lifts you onto his shoulder, and before you can retaliate, you suddenly find yourself in a back alley located several blocks away from where you were strolling.

“Hey! What gives?!”

When he turns to look at you, you’re met with red eyes and fangs. “You’re coming with me, missy.”

He looks around for a moment to make sure that you’re alone, and just as he’s about to make a run for it, you see a pipe leaning against the wall and immediately take it.

“Hiya!” You scream as you bash it into the side of his head with all of your strength

He grunts and drops you in surprise. You scramble to your feet, but before you can run, he lands a blow to your side which causes to fly into the adjacent brick wall. The side of your head makes contact against the dirty cemented surface, and you feel warm blood oozing from your temple. 

Through your hazy state of mind, you see a second and familiar figure approaching the vampire.

“You careless fool!” Although you’re barely conscious, you’re still able to recognize that voice. “You could’ve killed her! We need her alive for our mission to be successful!”

“I’m sorry, Lord Jameson.” The other vampire answered while lowering his head.

The scholar takes a breath and composes himself. He then turns to you. “No matter. What matters is that you’re still alive. It was wise that I came along just in case something like this happened.”

He walks over to you and kneels beside you. “Now, to find the vial." He takes hold of your head and suddenly visions of different vampires flood your mind.

 …No… Have… to… stop…

Despite the literal throbbing pain in your head and the feeling that your mind was being torn apart, you’re somehow able to stop the visions.

Scholar Jameson notices the abrupt halt of the flow of visions and presses his fingers and palms even deeper into your scalp and skin as he attempts to force the flow through his psychic abilities. But without knowing how, you’re able to counter his powers.

“What?!” The shock was apparent in Jameson’s voice. “How is this possible?!”

Even though you feel weak, you manage to smirk at Jameson. “… Take…that.” You say feebly.

Your feeling of triumph is cut short when Jameson deals a second blow to your head – causing more blood to ooze from your wound. The strike drains you of all strength, thus weakening your mental barrier.

"That's better. Now, on to business." His grip on the sides of your head tightens, and a stream of memories and visions overwhelms you.

Pain takes over all your senses. The combined force of Jameson’s powers and your own, as well as the steady flow of blood that was streaming from your injury, are all too much for you to handle. You barely hold on.

Despite all the random memories you see, you also sense your own memories. You think of the times you spent with Lily before she was Turned. All the inside jokes you and Adrian shared in-between office meetings. The moments you spent with Jax at the Shadow Den along with the other Clanless.

But out of all of them, the memories that stand out the most are your memories of one certain Egyptian vampire.

It was all too much, so you start to drift away, but before unconsciousness takes over, you hear a third voice from a distance.

“Get away from her!”

Those words are all that you hear before you black out.

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When you start to regain consciousness, you suddenly notice that your back wasn’t leaning against cement anymore. Instead, you find yourself lying on… cotton and silk?

You blearily open your eyes and see Adrian, Lily, and Jax by your bedside.

Lily wraps her arms around you. “You’re awake!” Her happy exclamation causes your head to throb.

“Lil… not so loud…”

“Sorry!”

“Amy.” Adrian takes one of your hands. “I’m so glad that you’re okay.”

“Yeah.” Jax moves to sit at the edge of your bed. “You scared us back there.”

You smile at them. Relieved to be out of danger and to be surrounded by friendly faces. You then move your right hand and notice that an IV line has been attached to it. “How long have I been out?”

“Girl, you were out cold for two days!”

“Two days!? W-what? What happened?”

Adrian is the first to speak, as he does, his face hardens. “You were attacked by Scholar Jameson and one of Gaius’s other followers.”

Flashes of the encounter suddenly reappear in your mind. “Oh, no!” Your own exclamation causes your head to hurt again.

“Easy there.” Jax says. “Don’t overdo it.”

You nurse your bandaged head and take a breath. “Jameson… tried to use his powers to use me to look through other vampires’ memories. He tried to get information about the location of the vial.”

The three vampires suddenly become alarmed. “Was he successful?” Adrian asks, dread lacing his voice.

“No.” You say, recalling what had happened. “I passed out before he got what he was looking for. If he saw it, then I would have seen it too.”

They visibly relax. “That was a close one.” Lily comments, her shoulder sagging in relief.

You notice Adrian’s eyes narrow in calculation. “It was. But we need to move the vial again. As a precaution.” Adrian looks at Jax.

“Already on it.” The black-haired vampire moves to stand. “I’m going to contact my Clan members and coordinate with the other Clan leaders. Lily, I’m going to need your help.” 

“You got it.” Lily looks at you and hugs you again. “We gotta go, Amy. I’m so glad that you made it out okay. Get well soon.”

 “I will. Thanks, Lil.”

Jax moves to place a hand on your shoulder. “Take care of yourself, Amy.”

You give him a smile before he and Lily leave.

You then start to notice your surroundings for the first time. You take in the polished marble floor and the soft king-sized bed. In front of you is a large screen TV, a mini-fridge to the right side of the room, and a liquor cabinet to the left. But what really caught your attention was the room’s distinctly Egyptian themed decor…

You tense up, not daring to hope. “Where are we?”

“We’re in Kamilah’s private suite in Ahmanet Financial.”

The mere mention of Kamilah’s name causes your heart to beat faster. “What?!”

Adrian leans back against his chair and smiles at your reaction. “Yes. Kamilah also has private living quarters in her company building.”

You blink unable to process what you’re hearing. “How… how did I even get here?”

The amusement disappears from his face. “When Jameson…” his expression hardens again, “… was attacking you, a member of Clan Sayeed was looking for you. Fortunately, he got there just in time.”

Your heart starts beating even more quickly. “A Clan Sayeed member saved me?”

Adrian nods. “Yes. His name is Samuel Cavanaugh – he’s one of Kamilah’s strongest clan members. Kamilah told me that she tasked Samuel to watch you closely just in case something happens. Kamilah was afraid that you might be targeted by Gaius again. It was a good thing that she had the foresight to do so.

“When he found you, he immediately brought you to Kamilah and she placed you here to keep you safe.”

You can hardly believe what you were hearing. It all felt too unreal. “Where is Kamilah?” you finally ask.

“She and some of her Clan members are on a man-hunt for Scholar Jameson.”

She’s on a man-hunt?! “So, Scholar Jameson escaped?”

He nods gravely. “I’m afraid so. Samuel was able to kill the other vampire, but Jameson managed to get away.”

Panic and anxiety suddenly start to shoot through your nerves. “But what if Jameson has more lackeys with him?! Kamilah and the others could get hurt!” You start to sit up, but a sensation of pain causes you to double over.

Your boss places his hands on your shoulders. “Calm down. It’s going to be okay.” He gently settles you down onto your pillow. “Kamilah can more than handle her own and her Clan members are not to be underestimated. And they’re also armed with UV flashlight beams and other weapons.”

You take a long and deep breath to calm yourself. “Okay.”

A phone suddenly vibrates in Adrian’s inner pocket. When he checks it, he frowns. “I have to go. Something urgent came up.” He places his phone away. “I’ll visit again as soon as I can. For now, get some rest.”

You give him a small smile. “You got it, boss.”

He returns it and leaves. Soon, you’re lying restlessly on the comfortable bed with your racing thoughts. It all seemed surreal. Things between you and Kamilah ended badly, but you just learned five minutes ago that she sent someone to protect you and that she’s on a man-hunt for your attacker.

Drowsiness and fatigue eventually overtake your senses. You soon drift off into a dreamless sleep. 

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You’re in a state of relatively peaceful slumber when you feel something brushing your hand. You open your eyes to see a tanned hand stroking yours with a manicured thumb.

When you lift your gaze, you immediately see a familiar pair of brown eyes looking at you with worry.

Your own eyes widen in surprise. “Kamilah…”

With great effort, you try to sit up and Kamilah reaches out to grab the pillow behind you.

“Here. Let me.” She adjusts the pillow so that you can sit more comfortably before she pulls at the comforter to give you more room to move. You lean back against the headboard and look at her. You notice that her normally well-kept hair is slightly tousled and that the collar of her blouse is ruffled.

You know that you’re wide awake, but you feel as if you’re dreaming. Kamilah is sitting at the edge of the side of the bed and is holding your hand.

“Amy…” she says your name softly as a relieved smile forms on her lips. “I’m glad that you're safe now.”

You look at her for a moment, still processing her presence. “Thanks.” You then glimpse at your joined hands before glancing back at her again. “You… sent one of your Clan members to keep watch over me?”

“Of course.” She begins to stroke your hand again. “I promised that we wouldn’t fail you again.”

“Right. You did say that…” you trail off. “Did you get Jameson?”

Fury flashes across her face briefly. “Sadly, no. He managed to slip away.” She then sighs.

You spend a few moments of awkward silence together. After everything that happened, you don’t know what to say, much less know how to continue your conversation. You look at the blank screen of the plasma screen TV while Kamilah stares at your still linked hands, lost in thought.

She’s the first to break the tension. “Amy…can we talk?”

You take in the uncharacteristically troubled look on her face and you nod. The Egyptian vampire lets out a breath before speaking again.

“When I heard that you were attacked, all I could think about was our fight… And when I saw how badly hurt you were, all I could think about was how things ended between us.

"With Gaius still on the loose, there's no telling what could happen. Or who would survive. And...”, she pauses for a moment before looking into your eyes.

“I don't want our last words to each other to be words said in anger or hurt."

You practically feel your heart quicken its pace at her words. “Kamilah…”

She gently tightens her grip on your hand. “I thought about what you said. And you’re right. I’ve treated you poorly. Ever since we learned that Gaius has returned, I’ve been focused on nothing but stopping him at all costs. I’ve been so pre-occupied that I forgot that there are other important things…” she trails off.

When she continues, you notice an unusual tone of vulnerability in her voice. “I should have been more considerate of your feelings. I realized that it’s not enough that I actually care. I should also make you feel that I do care. I didn’t show you just how much I value you… and I-I’m sorry.” Her voice cracks slightly as she says the last words.

The sincerity of her words overwhelms you, and you feel tears starting to form in the corners of your eyes. "Kamilah. I'm sorry, too." A tear slides down your cheek. "I don't blame you for what happened between Priya and me. That was my choice." More tears flow. "I'm so sorry for hurting you that way."

She gives your hand a gentle squeeze. "You did hurt me. But then again, I also hurt you... And I'd been hurting you for a long time."

Hesitantly, she lifts her other hand before using it to take your other one.

"We both made mistakes, Amy. And what's done is done..." She pauses as if she's contemplating what to say next.

"The only thing that we can do now is to try to put all of it behind us and move forward."

Your heart thunders as a mixture of anticipation and anxiety curl in your stomach. "What do you mean by that exactly?"

Kamilah stares at you with an earnest and exposed expression - a look that rarely graces her features. "I... want us to try again."

"What?" You ask again, hoping that you heard her correctly the first time.

"I want us to try again, Amy. I want to be better for you. Be better to you. Regardless of what happens. Come what may. I want to be with you."

You feel a huge smile slowly starting to form on your face as streams of tears begin to flow freely from your eyes.

"Oh, Kamilah... Yes!" You're unable to suppress the happiness you feel. "I want us to try again too.” You sniffle as more tears wet your cheeks. “I want to be with you again."

A wide, brilliant, and joyous smile begins to form on Kamilah's beautiful face as well. Her own eyes also start to glisten over.

She gently takes you into her arms, and you brace yourself against her shoulder, weeping tears of joy and relief as she strokes your hair from behind.

Her embrace is warm and comforting, and it melts all the hurt, anger, and pain away.

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One week later

You've recovered from your injuries, and you feel strong enough to attend the latest scheduled Council meeting. Despite Kamilah's protests, you insisted on going. And knowing that you couldn't be persuaded, she eventually relented.

You walk side-by-side as you enter the Cavern. And you see that Priya is already there, waiting for the others. The fashion designer's eyes light up when she sees you.

"Look who's finally up and about." She purrs. "Glad to see that you've recovered, gorgeous." She saunters towards you.

In a flash, Kamilah is between you and Priya. "Back off, Priya." She quietly glares at the younger vampire who raises a perfectly-shaped eyebrow.

"Well, look who decided to play hero again." She laughs lightly. "Stand down, Kamilah. Amy's a big girl." Priya leans around Kamilah to grin at you. "She can make decisions for herself."

You look at her intently. "You're right. I can." You step forward to stand beside Kamilah and hold her hand. She responds by lacing your fingers together for Priya to see.

The fashion designer's eyes widen in surprise. "Wait... seriously?"

"Yes. Seriously." You reply firmly.

The shock eventually gives way to curiosity. "Oh... so, does this mean that she's all yours now, Kamilah?"

"Indeed, she is." You can’t help but smile at how she replied without missing a beat.

You then turn to Priya. Steeling yourself, you address the other vampire. "What happened between us was a mistake, Priya. It shouldn't have happened. I'm sorry."

The fashion designer scoffs. "Hmph. It's your loss." She turns to Kamilah again, smiling mischievously. "Well, I hope you enjoy her, Kamilah... I certainly did." She laughs before stalking away. Kamilah's eyes flash red and you grip her hand tightly to stop her from attacking the younger vampire.

"She's not worth it." You tell her softly.

She lets out a growl before taking a calming breath. "You're right." She glares at the vampire who is now typing away at her phone on the other side of the room. "Besides, if I kill her, I'd just start a Clan war. Which is definitely not what we need right now."

You chuckle, and she cranes her head to look at you. Her eyes, now back to their brown color, soften. "Are you okay?"

You smile at her. "Yeah. I am. What about you?"

She gives you a small but warm smile before raising your joined hands to her lips. "I'm more than okay." She places a kiss on your knuckles.

End.

As a Kamilah stan, I concur!

I just dont really get why some people are upset over hearing about Gaius constantly.

Kamilah was with him, for almost 2000 years, hes not just some insignificant figure from her past.

She said it herself this chapter. Gaius reminds her of everything she did, who she used to be. The pain and suffering that shes caused. All these things that shes suppressed, she now needs to face.

Her past isnt something that she can just 'get over', Kamilah herself doesnt feel worthy of redemption. Kamilah needs this, she needs to come to terms with what shes done, her relationship with Gaius. Then, she can truly begin to heal, and let go.

Its understandable that shes hurting, and its understandable that she needs time. Thats the process of healing, and forgiving herself.

We as her li should be understanding, and respectful of her space, just like MC was this chapter. It was good, healthy, and I liked it. I get that we all just want some time with Kamilah, I do too, but I think we should all acknowledge that Kamilahs situation isnt easy.

Gaius coming back has brought back everything that Kamilah has tried to keep hidden, its clear she hasnt properly had time to think about it, and if what she needs right now is time to come to terms with it, I think thats completely fair.

(I dont mean to offend anyone with this, its my opinion. I am not 'coming for anyone' or attacking them)

What happened to Kamilah?!

Guess you can’t upgrade perfection 🤷🏽‍♀️

Some thoughts on Gaius and Kamilah’s relationship

Note: These are just my opinions on the matter. They may change depending on what the future chapters will show us.

I will be one of the first people to admit that seeing the two of them being so intimate together in the diamond scene of today’s BloodBound chapter made me feel frustrated. But after some reflection, I eventually realized that such an interaction between them makes sense.

I understand that Gaius is manipulative, power-hungry, deceptive, and cruel. But I think that it was his nature that initially drew Kamilah to him. I understand that  he Turned her against her will. She probably and most likely did not welcome her transformation immediately. And it's also likely that she initially felt anger towards Gaius for taking away her humanity.

But taking into consideration his deceptively charming and manipulative nature, as well as the fact that they spent centuries together, it should not be too surprising that Gaius was able to make Kamilah fall for him.

It's essential to first analyze the circumstances surrounding her Turning. Kamilah was an Egyptian nomarch whose guards were slaughtered by Gaius before the latter Turned her into a vampire. While it is certainly possible and likely that she might have felt anger and resentment towards him at first, he was probably able to force her to listen to him and obey him because she had no one else at the time.

Even before her Turning, Kamilah was already a mature, calculating, and logical woman. This is evidenced by the fact that she was given a position of power during a time when men were considered to be superior to women. Concerning this, it is likely that she realized that she had no choice but to follow and obey Gaius since he was the only she knew who was capable of guiding and teaching her to adapt to her new life as a vampire. She must have thought that it would have been foolish to reveal the truth to other humans. She also must have realized that she could have been destroyed had she done so.

If this were the case, then Gaius must have used her dependence on him to manipulate and convince her to believe in his ideas and views. It is possible that as time passed by, Kamilah started to share his views and eventually developed romantic feelings for him.

Another thing to consider is that they were in a romantic relationship for more than a millennia. On this, their relationship likely took years - probably even centuries, to develop into what it was. The passage of time can influence a person's way of thinking and perceiving things - and it probably caused Kamilah to see Gaius in a positive and romantic light. And Gaius probably used their time together and his deceptive charms to his advantage and made her his Queen.

So with centuries of history and experiences together, the fact that Kamilah and Gaius shared intimate and loving moments should not be too surprising. To his credit, Gaius was not always evil - at one point, he was capable of genuine sympathy and kindness. This was shown when he first met Rheya. When she was about to go into the caves, she asked for him to untie her. He did so and also gave her his dagger for protection before she ventured inside.

Another instance where Gaius exhibited kindness and compassion was when he was willing to face the Order of the Dawn all by himself to help the vampires who were being attacked and slaughtered as well as to give the surviving ones a chance to escape.

The significance of these scenes/moments is that they show that Gaius was not born evil and that before he became truly evil, he had a sense of humanity and a capacity for goodness. On this, it is likely that he did have genuine feelings for Kamilah and that he did care for her.

However, it has already been practically established that his cruelty, rage, and lust for control completely overtook whatever goodness and affection he might have once had. The darkness that grew inside of him became too much to the point that it consumed him entirely - when Adrian, who Gaius claims to have loved, turned against him, Gaius was furious and would have killed the younger vampire had Kamilah not intervened. 

Regarding that moment, I would like to give a quick analysis: Adrian is the opposite of Gaius. Whereas Gaius completely disregards humanity, Adrian understands that humanity has the potential for positive and progressive growth and that there are truly good humans. Kamilah loves Adrian as a brother. She acknowledges that Adrian has a good heart and has said herself that it's part of why she loves him. The fact that Kamilah cleaved Gaius into two indicates that she chose Adrian and his goodness over Gaius and his darkness.

This, I think, is one of the most defining points of Gaius and Kamilah's relationship. The fact that Kamilah chose to save Adrian despite having known and loved Gaius for a longer time shows that Kamilah cannot and does not condone the latter's evil. And even assuming that she did tolerate it before, she had already stopped doing so. Perhaps knowing Adrian changed her perspective - it is possible that his influence on her was strong, considering that she openly admits to loving him as a brother.

All in all, to say the least, Gaius and Kamilah's relationship was complicated. But considering all the relevant factors, it can be said that there was some degree of love and affection between the two at some point during their time together. However, it appears that whatever tenderness they might have had has no significant bearing on Kamilah's determination to stop him once and for all.

P.S.: I know that Kamilah admitted to having several lovers. With regard to that, I think that she and Gaius might have had an open relationship of some sort. It's certainly not impossible per se. The full extent and nature of their relationship are still currently unknown, though. So, I could be wrong. Like what I said, my opinions may change depending on the contents of the future chapters.

Fears, Doubts, and Apprehensions

Note: Hello, again. The idea for this short Kamilah x MC story popped into my mind a few days ago and I wanted to try my hand at writing it. Hehe.

Her hands trembled as she stepped out of the elevator and made her way to the door of Kamilah's apartment.

Before she could even raise her hand to knock, the door swung open to reveal the vampire standing behind it.

"Amy. Come in." Kamilah said as she stepped to the side to let the blonde enter.

"Thanks." Amy made her way inside until she sat herself at the end of the leather sofa in the middle of the room.

She watched silently as Kamilah made her way to the bar.

"Would you like a drink?"

"I'm good. No, thanks."

The mortal watched as the vampire filled one glass with red wine and drank from it. She consumed all of the contents before setting the glass down and shifting her gaze to the blonde.

"Thank you for coming here. I needed to speak with you."

Kamilah walked over to the couch and sat next to Amy, keeping a certain distance between them.

The blonde gripped the leather cushion. "Okay. What about?"

Kamilah took a breath. "I... want to apologize. And to explain."

Amy's eyes widened in confusion. "What?"

Kamilah looked at her with earnest eyes and Amy could see guilt in them.

"I know that I haven't... been paying much attention to you lately. I know that we haven't really spent time together. And I want to apologize for that.

"Ever since we learned that Gauis has returned, I couldn't stop thinking about how we are all in danger. If he succeeds, if he accomplishes all of his goals - the consequences would be beyond anything that we could even imagine.

"I've been so pre-occupied with planning precautions and gathering information... to the point that I've ignored everything else. Including you."

The vampire tentatively and gently placed her hand on top of Amy's.

"I'm sorry."

The blonde let out a relieved sigh that she didn't know that she was holding.

"Kamilah..." she released her grip on the couch to hold the vampire's hand.

"I get it. Don't get me wrong, I really do get it. I understand that stopping Gauis is everyone's top priority right now. So, I can understand that all of you are busy.

"But, I have to admit that the cold shoulder treatment really stung."

"'Cold shoulder treatment'?" Kamilah asked, brows furrowed in confusion.

"It means that you've been ignoring me."

"Ah."

"Listen. I don't mean to sound clingy or anything. It's just that I feel as if I've been forgotten. I know that you're not exactly open in public or big on PDA, but you've been acting as if I'm nothing but a stranger to you." The mortal woman looked down at their joined hands.

"Oh, Amy." Kamilah's voice was laced with regret.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel that way."

A smile started to form on the blonde's face but it suddenly disappeared when she looked up to see that Kamilah was forlornly looking at the carpetted floor.

"What's wrong?" She prompted.

Kamilah briefly looked at their joined hands and pulled hers away and Amy's hand suddenly felt cold.

"I haven't been completely honest with you." She turned away from the blonde completely. "There's another reason for the... 'cold shoulder treatment'."

Amy's stomach suddenly started to curl with dread. "What do you mean?"

The vampire was silent as she collected her thoughts. After a moment that felt like eternity, she met her eyes once more.

"I feel... afraid."

That was not the response that Amy was expecting. "Afraid? Of what?"

Kamilah sighed before moving to stand up. Amy watched as she made her way to the wall-sized glass window.

"I've been alive for more than two thousand years. And I've done many things. Things... that I'm not proud of. Things that I eventually came to regret."

She paused for a brief moment before continuing.

"Some of them are unspeakable. And I wish that there was a way that I could undo them."

She finally turned towards the blonde. Kamilah's face was fraught with both apprehension and sadness.

"You're a bloodkeeper. You have the ability to see every single memory of every single vampire. You are able to witness everything that we ourselves have witnessed. And..."

It was then that Amy understood.

"... I'm afraid. Afraid that you'll hate me for what I had done once you see my memories."

For a while, the mortal could only look at the vampire in surprise and in shock.

The silence eventually became too much for Kamilah to bear. "Amy... Say something." Her tone carried a silent plea.

Her words seem to have awaken the blonde from her stupor.

"Oh, Kamilah."

Amy made her way to the vampire and took the latter's hands in hers.

"Listen to me. Whatever you did before doesn't matter."

The blonde began stroking the vampire's hands with her thumbs.

"Whoever you were in the past is not who you are right now. If you say that you regret the things that you did in the past, then I believe you."

Kamilah's eyes widened slightly in disbelief. "You do?"

Amy gripped her hands even more firmly as a form of reassurance.

"Yes. I do. Because I've seen for myself how much you care about the people close to you. I've seen how determined you are when it comes to doing what you think is right and best for everyone.

"I've seen how good you are, Kamilah. You're strong, brilliant, and you want to do what's right. The Kamilah of the past doesn't matter. The only Kamilah that matters is the one that's standing right in front of me."

The younger woman watched as Kamilah took a shaky and uneven breath. A relieved smile started to form on her lips.

"Amy..." The relief was apparent in her voice. "You have no idea how glad I am to hear you say that." Her smile grew even wider.

The blonde mortal gave a laugh. She closed her eyes until tears started to spill from them.

The vampire noticed and became alarmed. "Why are you crying?" She brought one hand to the weeping girl's cheek.

The woman gave her a watery smile. "Honestly, Kamilah, I'm just relieved that our conversation turned out the way that it did."

"You are? Why?"

"Because I..." she sniffled, "I thought that you called me here because you wanted to end things between us."

Kamilah instantly took the other woman's face in both her hands in response.

"Oh, Amy." She placed a kiss on her forehead. "I would never want that." She looked into her brown eyes. "You mean a great deal to me. And I'm sorry for making you think and feel otherwise."

Amidst the tears, Amy gave her a bright and sincere smile. "You mean a lot to me too, Kamilah." She rested her hands on top of the vampire's. "You mean so much to me."

The two smiled at each other before meeting together for a kiss that melted all their worries, doubts and apprehensions away.