Reunited

Please let this be a foreshadowing of their future together.

Confessions

Hello, everyone! I mentioned in a previous post of mine that I planned to post a new Kamilah x MC story before the new BloodBound chapter is released. So, here it is! I hope that you all like it! :)

The setting of this story takes place after the meeting with the Five of Japan.

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Amy’s POV

You sit on the bed of your chosen room at Takeshi’s penthouse suite. You absentmindedly clutch the soft comforter as your mind begins to wander.

You think of the Rheya and the impending doom that will surely come should you fail to stop her. You involuntarily swallow as you imagine the drastic consequences of such failure.

You then think of Gaius and automatically shudder as your mind relives the memory of your death at his hands. But you also can’t help but wonder at the vulnerability hidden behind his monstrous surface.

You then think of Kamilah… of how you and she went through so much together. And of how deep your feeling for her ran…

You also think of Aiko Nakamura and how Kamilah openly admitted to having a fling with her so carelessly. You then think of Gaius again and then of Serafine….

As an agitated feeling makes your chest ache, you force yourself to stop your train of thought. It’s not until you hear the tearing of fabric that you realize that your fingers actually ripped through the fabric of the comforter.

You sigh wearily and let go of the punctured cloth.

The sound of a knock then reaches your ears.

“Amy?” You hear Kamilah.

Upon hearing her voice, you automatically straighten your back and stare directly at the night sky beyond the floor-to-ceiling window.

You clear your throat before responding. “Yeah?”

The door opens and closes before you sense Kamilah approaching you. She stands at the foot of the bed - as if waiting for you turn your head to greet her.

You don’t.

After a silent second, the older vampire moves to sit beside you. Yet, you keep your eyes trained on the starry sky.

“Amy?” She calls out to you softly.

“What?”

From the corner of your eye, you notice Kamilah’s eyes widen almost imperceptibly at the curtness of your voice.

“I… just wanted to see how you’re feeling.”

“I’m fine. Thanks for asking.” You say a little too quickly. You internally wince and curse yourself for being too obvious.

As expected, Kamilah is clearly unconvinced. “Amy…” she lifts one hand to touch your cheek.

But before she can, you immediately stand to move to the window. Although your back is turned to her, you can sense her shock at your abruptness.

“I said that I’m fine.” You say again, hoping that she’ll take the hint.

It’s clear that she has no plans of doing so when she moves towards you. “You’re clearly not okay.” She steps to the window so that you’re standing side-by-side. You still refuse to look at her even though her head is turned to yours.

Kamilah lets a few silent moments pass until she speaks again. “Will you tell me what’s wrong?” She prompts, her tone concerned.

You mentally debate whether or not this is the right time to bring it up. You eventually decide that now is as good as any considering the circumstances.

You sigh as you continue to stare at the dark horizon. "You said that vampires have flings every century or so because they get bored..." You begin, still looking forward.

You pause. And you can sense that Kamilah is waiting for you to finish. A minute lapses before you speak again. "So, what does that make me? Another... fling?" Your voice cracks at the last moment. 

As you silently pull yourself together, you sense her stiffen momentarily. A few seconds later, you feel her fully turn toward you. You crane your head and see her looking at you with completely widened eyes.

"No..." she starts to say, her voice colored with subdued shock. "... of course not. You are much more to me than that, Amy." She starts to reach for your hand... but you move it away from her grasp.

Both Kamilah's outstretched arm and expression fall at your rejection.

You bite your lip to calm yourself. "Oh, really?" You manage to straighten your tone again. You exhale before continuing. "Do you remember before I left for Paris? We went to your office together. And on the way, you told me that I'm the first person you've been within a century. And that I should know that that means something..."

You then cross your arms in front of your chest. "When you said that, I felt... special." You clench your own biceps even more tightly. "I felt like I meant something to you. But literally, just about an hour ago, you said that vampires have flings every century because of boredom. And then we both just met another ex of yours - a pretty, rich and powerful ex who may or may not still have the hots for you. And well ..." You finally look at her as you wave one hand around aimlessly as if to wrap up your statement.

A pained look settles on Kamilah's face. She bows her head as she takes a breath. She keeps her head down for a moment before raising it to look at you.

You train your eyes away from her again.

"Amy..." she steps towards you. As she raises her hands and hovers them tentatively over your shoulders, you take a step back. "Don't. Just don't right now." You mumble.

Kamilah's arms fall down back to her sides.

"I --"she struggles with her words for a brief second before clearing her throat. "I'm sorry." She finally manages. "I'm sorry for what I said. It was thoughtless and careless of me. I should've been more considerate of you."

You smirk sardonically. "Hmph. Maybe you should have. But then again, when we first met, you admitted to having had a lot of lovers. So that doesn't make what you said about vampire flings any less true, does it?”

From your periphery, you see the older vampire flinch at your remark. A tense silence fills the air. "... No. It doesn't." She finally admits.

You give a derisive laugh at your ironic victory. "Ha. I thought so."

The agitated feeling in your chest begins to grow, and you breathe in an attempt to quell it. But it eventually grows into a raging storm of emotions – you feel as if it's threatening to shatter you. You try to choke back a sob and roughly press your hand against your mouth.

Tears eventually fall from eyes as you try to take a breath. “After everything we went through together…. All the personal and intimate moments. The fact that you Turned me because you said that you didn't want to lose me…” you try to wipe away the tears as they come.

“… All of those things should be enough to give me a sense of security about our relationship. But… they…they aren't!” You start to cry freely. “For some reason, they aren't! And… now I'm feeling upset and jealous because you and your ex have a vibe going!” You rub at your tear-streaked eyes in frustration.

You then finally look at Kamilah and see shock and hurt on her features. “I… don’t know about this anymore, Kamilah!” You hastily rub your wet cheeks. “You can make me feel as if I’m the only one you see. But at the same time, both your past and your actions give me mixed signals!”

You sniffle and sob at the same time. “I accept your past, Kamilah. But somehow, it always manages to bite me in the ass!”

A tense silence fills the room. For what seems like an agonizing eternity, Kamilah can only stare and gape at you. A myriad of emotions flashes in her eyes as the gravity of your outburst settles. Your frustrated sobbing soon calms down to silent weeping.

The older vampire finally moves – she closes her eyes as if to reflect, before taking a deep breath. When she opens them, her gaze is anxious and uncertain.

“A…amy.” She calls to you, her voice a soft whisper.

Without a word, you move to sit on the bed and bow your head – too tired and numb to even give her a response.

Kamilah approaches you tentatively. When you show no signs of wanting to move away, she sits down next to you.

"I..." She hesitates and pauses. From the corner of your eye, you see her rubbing her thumb against her palm – a telling sign of nervousness. “I… I want to explain." She stops as if waiting for you to retort. When you remain quiet, she continues.

"Let me explain, Amy... Please."

Your raise your head at the last word and finally look at her – unable to believe it. You see the vulnerability you just heard in her usually calm voice clearly reflected in her eyes. The shock stills you for a long moment.

The older vampire seems unsettled by your lack of response. “Please.” She says again, her tone pleading.

Kamilah is actually begging you to listen.

You thought that you would never hear that word from her outside the bedroom.

You continue to look at her in surprise, unsure of what to say or do. You take in the weakness she allowed to break through her walls. A fragile and sad woman stands in place of the fearsome and proud warrior you’ve come to know.

“Fine.” You finally say.

Kamilah sighs, relieved. She clenches her hands together as if to brace herself for what she’s about to say.

Moments pass by before she speaks. “I thought that I loved Gaius.” She begins, her voice just above a whisper. “But I realized that I was merely manipulated by him. He turned me into the worst version of myself.”

She shuts her eyes tightly as she continues. “But that doesn't change the fact that at one point in time, I was a monster. And that I was devoted to him, in a sick and twisted way.

“We had... what you would call an 'open relationship.' We had no qualms about each other seeking out the company of others. And... I was actually thankful for that. I sometimes sought out other people for amusement. But over the course of several centuries, I found myself yearning for something else. Something that he couldn't give me. So, I had lovers.”

When she opens her eyes again, she immediately looks away, as if ashamed. “But I always went back to him. I think it's because I felt tied to him and that I'll always be tied to him no matter what. And he always went back to me.”

“But after nearly two millennia of bloodshed, I started to become disillusioned with the life I had been living. I slowly stopped enjoying needless violence. Eventually, I grew tired and sick of it. I guess I have Adrian and his goodness to thank for that.” The corners of her mouth quirk upwards at the mention of her blood-brother. “Somehow, someway, I resonated with his compassion.”

“When we moved to America, I felt like it was a chance for me to be a better person. But I was still with Gaius during that time, so for the sake of keeping up appearances, I played along. But in reality, I no longer enjoyed partaking in his monstrous activities.

“A part of me wanted to leave Gaius back then. But another part of me told me to stay with him for two reasons: the first was because of the history we had together… and the second was because…” She trails off, and you notice the slight tremble of her hands. “…he would probably execute me for even thinking of leaving him.”

Suddenly, her voice hardens. “But in the 1920s, Gaius went too far.” You see her hands close into fists. “He planned to virtually eliminate all humans save for a few thousand who would be drugged to serve as bloodstock for us. I could no longer just stand by. So, I decided to help the other Council members take him down and imprison him.”

Her fists then unclench as she sighs wearily, the burdens of the past obviously weighing heavily on her mind. “When we succeeded, I... didn't know what to feel. I felt relief, sadness, and anger all at the same time. I was relieved because Gaius was stopped. I was sad because, despite everything, the fact remains that Gaius and I still had a history together. I was angry because I hadn't acted sooner and because I had been blind for so long.”

The Egyptian vampire raises her hands to rub her face tiredly. “I eventually realized that I hated myself. I hated how evil I was. How I caused so much pain and suffering.

“So, I decided to try to atone for my sins. From that day and onwards, I denied myself any true happiness because I deserved none of it. How could I? I was a monster.”

She pauses as if to let the weight of her words of reflection sink in.

“For an entire century, I had been leading an isolated existence – devoid of any true happiness.” She speaks with an air of resignation while looking at the polished floor of the room. “My relationship with Adrian was a small piece of salvation. But at the end of each day, I was alone.”

She then raises her eyes to meet yours. “… until I met you.”

You feel your heart thump almost painfully against your chest as Kamilah looks at you with amazement, tenderness, and yearning.

“Before I met you, I thought that I would live the rest of my existence alone and without any kind of happiness until the end of time. I was trapped in a darkness of my own making… But you came into my life and lit the way to a better and brighter path." Her voice, which was weighed down with anguish, is now uplifted with a quiet joy.

“You are a kind, beautiful, and brave soul who drew me in. You saw me for who I am and accepted all of me. You showed me that there's still hope in this world. I meant what I said before, Amy. You are the most remarkable person that I know. You are my greatest miracle.”

Kamilah slowly reaches for your hands. This time, you don’t pull away.

She grasps them in hers, and you feel the warmth of her gentle touch. "… And the greatest love of my life.”

Your heart soars at her declaration, and you feel as if you're flying. You feel tears form in your eyes again.

“It's true that I've had lovers. But none of them could ever compare to you, my firefly. I love you, Amy. With all that I am and all that I have.” Kamilah’s voice is raw with solemn devotion and passion.

You gasp as she moves from the bed to kneel in front of you – all the while keeping your gaze.

“I told you back at Elias's vineyard that if you would accept me, I'm ready to be yours. So... the question is... will you have me?”

You take in the sight of her – kneeling and bearing her heart out. The tears start to stream down your cheeks freely. You feel as if you’re dreaming.

"Ka... Kamilah..." you begin shakily.

You slowly kneel down to meet her eyes. The earnestness and vulnerability in them are as clear as day.

You take an unsteady breath. "You... you have no idea how badly I wanted to hear that." You sniffle. "How badly I needed to hear that."

Kamilah's lips curve into a sad and remorseful smile. "I... I should have told you sooner."

Amidst your tears, you manage a small laugh. You frame her face with your hands, and she leans into the touch. You stroke the sides of her face with your thumbs. "Of course, I'll have you." You lean closer. "I love you too." Your voice is heavy and thick with emotion. "I love you so much."

A bright and beautiful smile graces Kamilah's features. "I love you, my firefly. And I vow to always stand by you and protect you."

You feel warmth and happiness bloom inside of you – the joy rejuvenates your entire being. You giggle uncontrollably and lean in even closer until your forehead is resting against hers.

"Kiss me, Kamilah." You whisper against her lips.

She gladly obliges, and you meet together in a soft and heated kiss. You wrap your arms around her, and she pulls you closer by your waist. Your tongues brush together sensually, and you moan into her mouth. You eagerly press yourself against her – wanting your every sense to be engulfed with her. Kamilah slides one hand down from your side and down your thigh until it reaches behind your knee. 

You break away momentarily to look at each other - you're both breathless from the intensity of your shared kiss. Kamilah's gaze is smoldering, but at the same time, her eyes are alight with love and devotion. You feel your already flushed face become warmer at her potent gaze.

"I love you, Amy." She declares once again, her voice gentle and solemn. "I am so sorry for not saying so sooner. And for making you think and feel otherwise."

You move one hand from her neck to hold the side of her face. "Hey. Better late than never, right?" You jest to lighten the mood. Your effort is rewarded with a light chuckle from the older vampire.

"But all jokes aside," you say while caressing the side of her chin, "I'm just glad to finally hear that you feel the same way."

Kamilah turns her head to press a kiss to the side of your hand. "I do feel the same way. And I always will. No matter what."

Your smile widens as your chest flutters again. "I'm going to hold you to that."

End.

I'd be lying if I said, I wish you never found my bed

Note: My entry for Round 16 of Choices Creates, for the prompt: “Don’t ask me to say I don’t love you” Summary: Good old fashioned angst with a dab of get your sh!t together, guys. Book: The Freshman Pairing: Becca/MC (Note: I named my MC because I find it increasingly awkward to keep writing “MC”) Tagging this week’s host, @texanhusker :) Thank you for hosting!

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It was just a mistake! Thank goodness!

Master list: Updated as of 8/12/19

Hello, everyone. I decided to organize my stories by creating a masterlist with links for easier and more convenient access.

BloodBound:

Kamilah Sayeed x MC

The Brightest Light

Fears, Doubts, and Apprehensions

Mistakes (Part 1)

Mistakes (Part 2)

A Moment Alone

The Promise

Reunited

Glad that I Have You (NSFW) 

Making Every Moment Count [Latest addition to the list]

Note: I will update this masterlist whenever I post new stories. :)

This is like another version of: "You're cute when you're mad." This comment could make people think that Yami Marik is interested in Ishizu.

I agree with the points of this post.

I value quality over quantity when it comes to content and outputs. However, I understand that financial and logistical concerns affect the quality of the outputs produced. When resources and workforce personnel are limited, compromises and business-centered decisions have to be made.

I think that the people at Pixelberry are probably trying their best to deliver good content while also trying to meet demands and make ends meet. They're a group of creative and talented people, and I think that they know that they can do better. But at the end of the day, they have to make sacrifices and compromises.

Also, let's not forget that the PB team is composed of hardworking people who need to earn money. The PB people may do what they do because they love it, but the doesn't change the fact that they are persons who also need to earn to support themselves and their families.

All in all, I think that we should try our best to understand the problems that PB is currently going through. I know that other fans and readers have several concerns regarding the treatment of certain characters and representation in books. And I believe that all those concerns are valid and that they should be addressed. But I think that we should also try to make some room for understanding.

Since my last post about 2019 releases blew up with almost 400 notes in 1 day (long post ahead):

Please give Pixelberry the faith and time they need to bounce back.

Many users in here have pointed out that the single reason that 2019 has had poor releases, standalone books that were meant to be lengthier franchises, as well as a plethora of genderlocked books and wedding-centric trilogies is

Across the Void.

I will remind you that Across the Void had all new character designs, music, backgrounds, and a long story planned ahead. It is most likely the single most ambitious book in PB's recent history, with probably the biggest budget they'd had. And because the fandom failed to endure the warmup leading up to our MC's involvement in the war, PB lost a TON of money. That has led to:

1. Additional spending to rewrite the story of ATV in order to give it a(n) (semi-proper ending)

2. The release of cheaply-made "moneymakers" that rely a ton on players spending diamonds for romance scenes. See Wishful Thinking, Passport to Romance, Sunkissed, etc.

3. The reuse of face options for MCs and limiting the amount of free outfits one can wear drastically. (Bachelorette Party offers you one free dress. ONE.)

4. This is a minor one: The weird reusal of ATV's music in the Elementalists 2. Don't get me wrong, I like the music, but the mashup of the two soundtracks doesn't feel genuine enough.

We know for a fact that Pixelberry knows better than this. We know that they are able to write better stories than these most recent ones. We find ourselves focusing too much on the disappointment of Sunkissed and Passport to Romance that we sometimes forget to cherish the greatness that was and is Open Heart, Ride-Or-Die, and most recently, Nightbound.

The discourse of the fandom over Nightbound having only book took Tumblr by storm just yesterday. If romance lovers are PB's real moneymakers, then PB will cater to them first, before they can release their genuinely well-crafted passion projects.

We were spoiled in 2018 with the release of Bloodbound, Veil of Secrets, Perfect Match, A Courtesan of Rome, It Lives Beneath, The Elementalists, and The Heist:Monaco, just to name a few, which have all been excellent.

If Across the Void hadn't tanked, then there probably wouldn't even have been a need for Passport to Romance or Wishful Thinking. Or at least, there may have been more funds to give them more satisfying conclusions. Bloodbound II would probably have avoided turning into the bizarre series of fanservice-sexcapades that it has turned into.

Not to mention all of the heteronormative and sexually suggestive covers that we have had recently:

1. The change of the Nightbound cover (thank God it's been reversed now)

2. The Sunkissed cover (which has our MC LITERALLY kissing Nate, so rest in peace, WLW)

3. The Big Sky Country 2 cover, which suggestively features a female MC and Sawyer

4. The Red Carpet Diaries 3 cover, which features our MC marrying Matt (again, rest in peace, WLW. You've had it the toughest out of all of us.)

5. Platinum gets a pass here, since it lets you choose Raleigh's and Avery's genders in-game, in spite of showing the MC with a male Raleigh.

These changes are the result of careful data analysis, and PB knows what they're doing financially. They need to rebuild and gather funds for new stories. So, if you can, do purchase more diamonds to spend on those less romance-centric stories, or at least try to enjoy the (admittedly massive) amount of content that we are getting right now. Diamond miners have never had it this good.

Pixelberry just had a bit of a slump. Things will turn for the better, for sure. (Also, please refrain from attacking the "Facebook moms". If they're the ones who make it possible to receive our weekly content, then at least let them have this.)

Glad that I Have You

Warning labels: Smut, NSFW

Hello, everyone. I got the idea for this NSFW fic and wanted to write it out. I don’t usually write smut stories, so please bear with me. Hehe.

This story takes place after the MC delivered Council summonses to the Baron, Lester, and Priya. In this storyline, the MC did not sleep with Priya and immediately went to Kamilah's apartment afterward. I hope that you all like it. 😊

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Amy’s POV

You had just finished delivering summonses to the remaining Council members and are now sitting on one of the soft couches in Kamilah’s apartment.

You watch as Kamilah pours two glasses of wine at her private bar.

“How was your day?” You ask as she makes her way towards you with the two glasses.

“Stressful.” She replies while handing you a glass and taking a seat next to you.

You both sip your drinks in silence for a while. Once your glass is completely empty, you look at its clear bottom, pondering on what to say next. You sneak a sideways glance at Kamilah and see that she seems to be completely lost in her own thoughts.

Knowing that she's probably troubled about the vial and Gaius, you try to talk to her. "Kamilah ---," you begin.

She places her hand on top of yours, and you immediately stop. "Don't." She says.

She turns to look at you – her eyes are troubled and weary. "I know that you want to help me ease my mind, Amy." She takes your glass and sets it on the table before holding your hand. "And I appreciate it. But just for tonight, I want to forget about everything."

She places her own glass on the table and stands up. With her hand still gripping yours, she tugs at your arm, beckoning for you to stand as well. “Join me in bed?”

You smile at her. “Of course.”

You make your way to her bedroom and lie on the soft bed together. You lean against her, and she wraps an arm around you.

You stay like that for a few moments.

Kamilah eventually breaks the silence. "Are you feeling alright?" She asks, holding you close to her side.

You snuggle closer to her. "Not really." You reply honestly. "I mean, a lot has happened."

She sighs and begins to slowly run her hand up and down your back. "I can understand what you mean."

You take a deep breath. "So many things happened so quickly that I barely had time to process anything. A few days ago, we were captured by some crazy billionaire. And just earlier, I served summonses to the most elite vampires in New York for a top-secret meeting. I mean, what is my life even?”

The rhetorical question prompts Kamilah to chuckle.

You can’t help but smile at her reaction. “I feel stressed. And it doesn’t help that the other Council members are either creepy or mean. Or both.”

Kamilah's hand immediately stops moving. The amusement on her face disappears, and her eyes narrow. "Did they give you any trouble?"

You shake your head. “Not really. The Baron was just his nasty and grouchy old-self. Lester acted like a big creep, as usual. And Priya was… well… Priya.”

Kamilah’s eyes narrow even further. "Did she do anything to you?”

You shake your head again. “Not really. She just placed her hand on my thigh. But that’s about it.”

The vampire visibly relaxes. “Oh, good.” She then starts to stroke your back again.

You take note of her reactions, and suddenly, an idea comes to your mind.

You bury your face into the crook of Kamilah’s shoulder. "Yeah. Priya can be rather intense…" you say casually, "...and to think that I once had a crush on her before."

Her hand abruptly stops moving again.

"What did you say?"

You allow yourself a small smile before raising your head to look at her. You’re immediately met with an unreadable expression.

"Uhh... I... sorta ... had a crush on her?"

Kamilah raises an eyebrow. "Oh, really?"

Your plan appears to be working. "Yeah. Well, Priya is a famous fashion designer, so her face is pretty well-known. But it was a long time ago. It was before I knew about... well... before I knew about everything."

The vampire looks at you intently. "I see."

You then give a hint of a smile. "Yeah. But I did think that Priya was pretty hot before."

You see Kamilah’s brown eyes flash red for a brief second. And then in the blink of an eye, you're suddenly pinned against the mattress.

"Huh?!" You blurt out in response to the sudden movement.

Kamilah presses her body to yours, causing you to groan softly. "Both Adrian and Lily told me that Priya always makes advances towards you whenever she gets the chance.”

She raises herself slightly before placing her knees on either side of your waist.

You bite your lip as she slides her hands up and down your still clothed sides. "Tell me, Amy..." she trails off to slip her hands beneath the fabric of your shirt. "Do you enjoy it when your crush flirts with you?"

Your breath hitches as Kamilah slowly slides her hands up your front – pushing your shirt upwards in the process. "I... ah..." you're unable to form a coherent answer.

"Lift your arms." She whispers against your lips.

You do as she says, and she pulls your shirt over your head. After tossing the piece of fabric to the side, she pins your wrists over your head with one hand.

You then watch as Kamilah slowly unbuttons her blouse with her free hand. Your eyes hungrily take in every bit of soft flesh that becomes exposed with her every movement.

Once her blouse is entirely open, she crooks her fingers underneath your chin. "Now answer the question." She commands, her voice low.

"I... I..." you struggle to respond intelligently as Kamilah's hand starts to wander down your now-exposed torso. You tremble as it trails across your skin.

"Oh." You involuntarily moan as Kamilah finally settles her hand on the front of your jeans.

"Yes?" She presses her palm against you, and you gasp.

"... no.." You finally manage to say.

"What was that?" She deftly unhooks the button of your jeans and slides the zipper down.

"I said no." You say firmly.

She glides two fingers over the fabric of your underwear, and you shiver. "What?"

She then slips her entire hand underneath your waistband. You gasp as your hips move upward to meet her hand.

"I don't enjoy it!" You breathe out as she teases you with the tips of her fingers.

Kamilah smirks. "Good to know."

She leans down to nuzzle your neck, and you can feel her purring against the soft of your throat.

Your breathing starts to become ragged as you strain against her hold. "Kamilah..."

Hearing you say her name causes her to purr even more loudly. She starts to nibble across your jawline until her lips arrive at the shell of your ear. "So, tell me, darling..." you close your eyes at the sensation of her hot breath on your skin, "...what do you enjoy? What do you want?"

The question sends pleasurable chills down your spine. "You."

She chuckles as she presses herself flush against you while pushing her hips into yours. "I thought so."

Kamilah’s mouth is suddenly on yours. Her kiss – ravenous and fervent, translates her desire, hunger, and passion in ways that words can never accomplish. You moan into her mouth as you insistently roll your hips against hers, hungry for more.

She growls against your lips and presses herself even closer against your body. You wrap your legs around her waist, desperately needing to feel more of her.

When she breaks away, you start panting heavily, breathless from the intensity of your shared kiss.

Kamilah looks at your flushed face with red eyes. "Say my name."

You feel your cheeks become even warmer as you take in her potent gaze. "Ka... Kamilah." You whisper her name in an almost worship-like manner.

She finally releases your wrists, and you entangle your fingers into her hair as she trails hot kisses down from your chin and towards your chest.

She nibbles at the area between your breasts, and you groan in approval. As she teases the sensitive flesh, she removes her slacks and her blouse.

She then lifts her head to look at you with hunger in her eyes. "Listen to me, Amy."

She unwraps your legs from around her waist and sets them on the mattress.

She then slides her hands across your thighs until they're on either side of your jeans.

"Whenever anyone else flirts with you..."

She pulls your jeans down until they're entirely discarded.

"I want you to remember..."

Kamilah slowly spreads your legs apart before she tears your underwear away.

"...that I'm..." she begins to kiss her way towards your center. You gasp as her kisses edge closer and closer.

"...the only one..." her lips are now on one of your inner thighs, and you groan in anticipation.

"... who can make you feel like this." She maintains eye contact with you until she dips her head between your legs.

You immediately arch your back as pleasure courses through every nerve in your body. "Oh, Kamilah!"

With your fingers still entangled in her hair strands, you draw her in closer. And she responds by sending you deeper and deeper into bliss with each passing minute.

Loud and uninhibited moans escape from your throat as your entire body trembles with ecstasy. You forget about everything else as you take in the feeling Kamilah is giving you.

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A long while later, you're lying flat on your back with Kamilah still on top of you. You pant with effort – your throat is hoarse from all the groans that had escaped from your lips during your intimate session.

Kamilah trails a path of gentle kisses across your neck, cheeks, and shoulders.

"Still think that Priya is 'hot'?"

"Who?"

Kamilah laughs as she hovers over your face. "Good girl." She smirks before kissing you.

You kiss deeply for a long while before Kamilah rolls over to lie down beside you. She pulls you close, and you snuggle against her.

“You did that on purpose, didn’t you?” She whispers in your ear after a few seconds.

You smirk against her skin. “Maybe.”

She laughs and places a hand underneath your chin, causing you to look at her. "Clever girl."

You smile ruefully before giving her a tiny kiss. “Well, you did say that you wanted to get your mind off of things.”

Kamilah laughs again. “That wasn’t how I planned to do it, but to be fair, it still worked.”

She pulls you even closer. “But all jokes and… schemes aside…” She pauses to brush some of your hair away from your face. “…I’m glad that I have you, Amy.”

You smile gently and place a hand on her cheek. "I'll always be here whenever you need me, Kamilah."

She returns your smile and places a soft kiss on your forehead.

End.

Who's willing to bet that this is Kano Yoshimasa of Japan?

On Kamilah's behaviour for the last two chapters of BloodBound Book 2

Note: Hello, everyone. I've been a fan of Choices for a while now, but for the most part, I've just been silently observing and scrolling thtough Tumblr. Lol. Anyway, I just wanted to post my take on Kamilah Sayeed from BloodBound. Hehe.

At first, I was really pissed and annoyed that the MC wasn't able to spend any meaningful time with her during the last two chapters. (This is because she's my MC's LI.)

But upon further reflection, I think that her actions and attitude are understandable as well as are in character.

Here are the reasons why:

First and foremost, it was already established from the very start of the series that Kamilah is not generally considered to be a warm person. Apart from this, the character herself admitted that her years as a vampire have made her jaded and distant. Before meeting the MC, the only other person she genuinely cared for was Adrian - who she sees as a brother, and even with him, she's reserved and stern most of the time. However, despite the fact that she does not always show him warmth, Kamilah has shown that she truly cares greatly for Adrian - this is evidenced by the efforts and lengths she went through in Book 1 in order to protect and save him when he was sentenced to be executed for allegedly causing the feral attacks.

The point here is that while Kamilah is not generally expressive, she genuinely does care about those who are close to her and will do all that she can to protect them.

Second of all, the main plot of Book 2 revolves around Gauis and his return. As we all know, Gauis intends to rule the world and use humans as constant sources for food supplies. Kamilah and the rest of the council are more than aware of how powerful Gauis is and that he will stop at nothing to achieve his plan. This fact in itself is more than enough to cloud the mind of any vampire who has ever known Gauis personally.

But with regard to Kamilah - it would be completely understandable if she is the one most troubled by his return. Among the vampires who are known by the readers to have been recruited/Turned by him, Kamilah was actually the first. Not only that, she was also his lover at some point. On this, Kamilah herself admitted in the story that because of the fact that she loved him, she became blind to his lust for power and his willingness to do anything and everything to gain it.

This could be an indicator of her wariness and fear of Gauis's deception and charm - for centuries, she stood by him as his Queen because she was, in a way, under his spell. She fell for his charms, but when she finally saw the evil that lurked inside of him, the spell was broken and she turned against him.

All of these things considered, the curtness and reservation that Kamilah has shown in the latest chapters is understandable in more ways than one. On this, the fact that she hasn't spent any meaningful time with or paid much attention to the MC as of late (at least on screen) is also understandable.

She is shaken by Gauis's return. And her past experiences with him only seem to have further aggravated her worries. This, along with her nature - remember, she is generally reserved and is not usually expressive of her feelings in public (except for feelings of irritation and anger), is a logical and realistic reason as to why she is acting the way she does now.

But this does not mean that she does not care about the MC. For all those romancing her, she has expressly told the MC (in a diamond scene) that she cares greatly for the latter and is worried about their safety. And at the end of Book 1, at the end of the final diamond scene with her, she told the MC that she thinks that she was searching for them (the MC) and did not even know it.

The mere fact that Kamilah shared her apprehensions and opened up to the MC is a clear indicator that she genuinely cares - especially given her usually cold and stern demeanour. Based on the diamond scenes with her, it seems that she feels more comfortable expressing herself to the MC when the two of them are alone. If she didn't care at all, then she would have never had said those things.

Also, in relation to Kamilah's reaction to the MC being kidnapped, it was evident that she was shaken by the fact that Gauis had escaped from the Onyx Sarcophagus. So, it is understandable that her mind was troubled and pre-occupied by his return. However, her concern for the MC was also shown when she solemnly promised the latter that those who were responsible for the kidnapping will pay.

So, while we all wish for PB to have Kamilah be more affectionate with the MC (especially in public), I think that her recent actions and reactions are realistic for her character. While it isn't outrightly obvious, she truly does care.