I’m A “late” PhD Student And It’s The Best Decision I’ve Ever Taken.

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I’m gonna depress the hell out of all of you. ready? ok go

so, that “stop devaluing feminized work post”

nice idea and all

but the thing is, as soon as a decent number of women enter any field, it becomes “feminized,” and it becomes devalued.

as women enter a field in greater number, people become less willing to pay for it, the respect for it drops, and it’s seen as less of a big deal. it’s not about the job- it’s about the number of women in the job.

observe what happened with biology. it’s STEM, sure, but anyone in a male-dominated science will sneer at the idea of it being ‘for real,’ nevermind that everyone sure took it more seriously when it was a male dominated field. so has happened with scores of other areas; nursing comes to mind

so the thing is, it’s not the work or the job that has to be uplifted and seen as more respectable. it will never work out, until people start seeing women as respectable

but there’s a doozy and who the fuck knows if it’s ever happening in my life time

Water calms me down for some reason

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‘How Big, How Blue, How Beautiful’ Best Lyric Quotes

So here I am, back again with a new ‘Best Lyric Quotes’ post, this time with the enchanting Florence + the Machine. I picked this album first, not only ‘cause it’s the last one out, but also because I think it is immensely gorgeous. So let’s get to it already!

1. Ship to Wreck

“Did I drink too much? Am I losing touch? Did I build a ship to wreck?”

“Good God, under starless skies We are lost”

“Don’t touch the sleeping pills, they mess with my head”

“I can’t help but pull the earth around me to make my bed”

2. What Kind of Man

“You were on the other side, like always Wondering what to do with life”

“I’d already had a sip So I’d reasoned I was drunk enough to deal with it”

“Sometimes you’re half in and then you’re half out But you never close the door”

“You do such damage, how do you manage? To have me crawling back for more”

“I think I’m through it Then I’m back against the wall What kind of man loves like this?”

3. How Big How Blue How Beautiful

“Tell me you see it too We opened our eyes and it’s changing the view Oh, what are we gonna do? We opened the door now, it’s all coming through”

“So much time on the other side Waiting for you to wake up Maybe I’ll see you in another life If this one wasn’t enough“

4. Queen of Peace

“Oh, what is it worth When all that’s left is hurt?”

“Like the stars chase the sun Over the glowing hill, I will conquer Blood is running deep Some things never sleep”

“Suddenly I’m overcome Dissolving like the setting sun Like a boat into oblivion Cause you’re driving me away”

“Always does her best to please But is it any use? Somebody’s gotta lose”

“And my love is no good Against the fortress that it made of you”

“To give yourself over to another body That’s all you want really To be out of your own and consumed by another To swim inside the skin of your lover Not to have to breathe, not to have to think But you can’t live on love; salt water’s no drink”

5. Various Storms & Saints

“But you took your toll on me So I gave myself over willingly You got a hold on me”

“Don’t make the mountain your enemy Get out, get up there instead”

“You saw the stars out in front of you Too tempting not to touch But even though it shocked you Something’s electric in your blood”

“Outside the world seems a violent place But you had to have him, and so you did Some things you let go in order to live”

“You sing it out loud, ‘who made us this way?’ I know you’re bleeding, but you’ll be okay Hold on to your heart, you’ll keep it safe Hold on to your heart, don’t give it away”

“You don’t need no edge to cling from Your heart is there, it’s in your hands”

“I know it seems like forever I know it seems like an age But one day this will be over I swear it’s not so far away”

Hold on to your heart…

6. Delilah

“Cause I’m gonna be free and I’m gonna be fine”

“Too fast for freedom Sometimes it all falls down These chains never leave me I keep dragging them around”

“Strung up, strung out for your love Hanging, hung up, it’s so rough I’m wrung and ringing out Why can’t you let me know?”

7. Long & Lost

“Without your love, I’ll be So long and lost, are you missing me?”

“Is it too late to come on home? Can the city forgive? I hear its sad song”

“You wonder why it is that I came home I figured out where I belong”

8. Caught

“It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do To try and keep from calling you Well, can my dreams keep coming true? How can they? Cause when I sleep, I never dream of you”

“As if the dream of you, it sleeps too But it never slips away It just gains its strength and digs its hooks To drag me through the day”

“I can’t keep calm, I can’t keep still Pulled apart against my will”

“it’s hard to see it when you’re in it Cause I went blind for you”

9. Third Eye

“Look up Don’t make a shadow of yourself Always shutting out the light”

“You don’t have to be a ghost Here amongst the living You are flesh and blood And you deserve to be loved And you deserve what you are given“

“But your pain is a tribute The only thing you let hold you”

“I am the same, I’m the same I’m trying to change“

10. St. Jude

“Another battle never won And each side is a loser So who cares who fired the gun?”

“And I’m learning, so I’m leaving And even though I’m grieving I’m trying to find the meaning Let loss reveal it”

“Maybe I’ve always been more comfortable in chaos”

11. Mother

“Can you protect me from what I want? The love that I let in left me so lost”

“No use wishing on the water It grants you no relief”

“Make me a big tall tree So I can shed my leaves and let it blow through me”

“Make me a big grey cloud So I can rain on you things I can’t say out loud”

“Make me a bird of prey So I can rise above this, let it fall away”

“Make me a song so sweet Heaven trembles, fallen at our feet”

12. Hiding

“Tell me I will be released Not sure I can deal with this Up all night again this week Breaking things that I should keep”

“I know that you’re hiding I know there’s a part of you that I just cannot reach You don’t have to let me in Just know that I’m still here I’m ready for you whenever, whenever you need”

“it’s your pride That’s keeping us still so far apart But if you give a little, so will I”

“I’m still here…”

13. Make Up Your Mind

“Every time I try to bring it down You always turn my hand around”

“Let me live or let me love you”

“While you’ve been saving your neck I’ve been breaking mine for you”

“Is it best to sip it slowly Or drink it down in one?”

“Make up your mind Before I make it up for you”

14. Which Witch

“I’m miles away, he’s on my mind I’m getting tired of crawling all the way”

“Been in the dark since the day we met Fire, help me to forget”

“And it’s an old scar Trying to bleach it out”

15. Pure Feeling

“Staring out the window I could see into the soul of every passer by So many lives So many pairs of eyes”

“Our bodies moving in the dark It takes the pain from me And then I am in love With everyone I see I keep on moving in the spaces where you used to be”

16. Conductor

“If I write a song about you Does that make you mine?”

“The notes were flying up Higher and higher But they never reach the top”

“I am the orchestra The conductor too My heart is a concert hall And I filled it with you”

17. As Far As I Could Get

“Because I am unloved I went as far as I could get”

“I went as far as I could get And I’m not far enough yet”

“I went as far as I could get Cause if I am unloved, I have unloved too”

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Could you imagine?

You’re Charlotte Scott. You’re determined to get your math degree as a woman in the late 1800s. You fight sexism and condescension every day and somehow wrangle your way into a special and prestigious exam. And then this happens:

“In 1880, Scott obtained special permission to take the Cambridge Mathematical TriposExam, as women were not normally allowed to sit for the exam. She came eighth on the Tripos of all students taking them, but due to her sex, the title of “eighth wrangler,” a high honour, went officially to a male student.[1]

At the ceremony, however, after the seventh wrangler had been announced, all the students in the audience shouted her name.

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The man read out the names and when he came to ‘eighth,’ before he could say the name, all the undergraduates called out ‘Scott of Girton,’ and cheered tremendously, shouting her name over and over again with tremendous cheers and waving of hats.

— contemporary report, “Charlotte Angas Scott (1858–1931)” in Women of Mathematics: A Biobibliographic Sourcebook[1]

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Because she could not attend the award ceremony, Scott celebrated her accomplishment at Girton College where there were cheers and clapping at dinner, a special evening ceremony where the students sang “See the Conquering Hero Comes”, received an ode written by a staff member, and was crowned with laurels.[1]

After this incident women were allowed to formally take the exam and their exam scores listed, although separately from the men’s and thus not included in the rankings. Women obtaining the necessary score also received a special certificate instead of the BA degree with honours. In 1922, James Harkness remarked that Scott’s achievement marked “the turning point in England from the theoretical feminism of Mill and others to the practical education and political advances of the present time”.[1]“ — wikipedia

😭♥️

Later on, Charlotte became one of the core mathematics faculty of Bryn Mawr College, and also is seen as one of the key figures in the transition to abstract mathematical proofs, as well as the first female member of the New York Mathematical society, later known as the AMS. What a cool lady.

your intelligence means fucking nothing if youre devoid of empathy

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Brazilian cherries aren’t related to common cherries at all! They look like this and taste rather sour:

Also, if you’re not used to them, Brazilian grapetrees look really alien:

The fruit is formed in the trunk, not the branches!

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