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there was never a lucille. [19. 1. 24.]
everyone worries about the physical purity of the girl, lady, woman.
why doesn't anybody care about the mental purity of the girl, lady and woman?
telling to her keep her hands to herself.
to keep her eyes to herself.
her skin to herself.
her very presence.
but letting others be so quickly to impurify her mind with the red hot dousing of "bitch", "whore", "slut", "broad" and more on the stainless cloth of her psyche.
for that is worse than the judging irises
looking upon her like a virus.
worse than baneful whispers.
she then is mentally messed up for life,
finally proper and put into line by being called such foul monikers.
but, for she has no mind.
no light within her iris, pupils too.
she then is judged for that.
she is then going to be messed for a second time.
she will have nothing lacking in the eyes of the world.
no soul, no mind.
-- for rot has stripped it from her
she will ascend past humanity...
to femininity.
Copyright © 2024 Cattille Quettea
there is no lucille. [18. 1. 24.]
i wanna be more.
i need to want less.
less to earn,
less to get.
more to give,
more to learn.
why can't i keep the things that i earn?
must you rip them from me?
under and out from my hands?
my accomplishments are yours,
because we are friends.
but now we aren't friends.
no friendship seeds verdant.
don't expect me to again
remove this burden.
look what you've done.
look what you've made.
eat it all up,
dont avoid your plate.
no efforts of yours were verdant,
refrain from writing of letters,
you've sewed what you've sent.
now wanting to be friends?
now wanting to repent?
your accomplishments are mine,
because we were friends.
you and only you...
are the burden.
Copyright © 2024 Cattille Quettea
display [29. 4. 24]
i wish the people around saw the beauty of my soul.
i can understand how they may gaze over it and not realize how elated they could be to see it.
it is only not purely a classic, dolly beauty i possess.
it's a beauty only for the fatigued, harrowed eye-
for they are the only souls who can appreciate it's entirety entirely.
it's a beauty similar to no thing but,
to describe a close match;
it can be grouped together with the beauty of
black cygnets, bloody, and covered in clots.
unharmed,
not hurt.
for my visions are hazy and blurry.
forevermore covered in dots.
perhaps it is good that many ignore.
no threats to me,
less of the foul souls score.
Copyright © 2024 Cattille Quettea
demolish [7. 4. 25.]
exposure,
closure.
for sure,
i definitely need more...
more of it.
for i crave it like nothing else.
i'm in a space,
one with a fairly comforting embrace.
for i know it's just a burst of blackened energy.
but when it becomes rosy,
i'll hold close my posy.
looking at the petals for faith...
looking at the leaves for an esplanade...
looking-- the stems, for they are pretty waif...
and looking to the browned roots for gen.
Copyright © 2025 Cattille Quettea
citadelle [24. 1. 24]
i just wanna live like i know every thing,
i know everything.
like i own it,
i own it.
but the world didn't have time for a girl who lives like she wants,
dreams like she wants,
achieves like she wants.
so, why would it have time for a lady who does?
the truth is,
it didn't.
and the world still won't make time for a woman living like she lives,
doing what she did,
succeeding like she had.
so she says forget it:
"since they don't have time for my dreams, they must not have time for my success"
they can crumble, they can rot.
for all i care
because i don't care.
they don't have time for her dreams, they must not have time for her success.
they didn't have time then and they won't have time now.
i'll make my own time.
with lip-gloss and flowy-flower dresses, curly dark tresses.
we'll make our own time.
with short hair, long hair, no hair.
we'll make our own time.
with or without monolids.
we'll make our own time.
with a slimmer or bigger frame.
we'll make our own time.
with stainless or inked skin.
we'll make our own time.
we'll be our own fortress.
our own citadel.
it's gonna be glorious.
with peace and shades of pink
and side walks of rose gold, only the finest metals.
pearls will adorn us
and their mothers will make up our housings.
pearlescent skies will cover the heavens for us.
the weather will be warm but never too hot.
the air will never have foul smells nor will it show signs of pollution.
never ending days yet everlasting nights.
this time;
we'll know it
we'll own it.
we'll make our own time.
we'll be our own fortress.
our own citadel;
if we can't,
we'll rot trying,
trying to fashion our citadelle.
because the world is the angriest hellcat out here
and fantasy's a killer.
Copyright © 2024 Cattille Quettea
cattille's core catalogue ['24 - '25]
cattille's catalogue ['24] : lieux, personnes et actions
cattille's catalogue ['25] : pays de rêve
everlast [1. 7. 24.]
i finally went to a park, getting fresh air outside of my lawn.
days without a sole companion,
days seem that they never end,
sun details the darkness.
bugs, they seem as if they're my only ever friends
rises the moon.
other girls had all their fun, all their men.
over them, they do swoon.
but as for me, i am all alone.
my only company is sun, stars and moon.
silence details my darkness,
rotting alone in a finally clean room.
rises the moon.
something's left within a soul,
yearning,
longing,
with no hope.
rises the moon.
longing for a bezzie.
yearning for some sort of paisan.
i've subsist for far too long.
how did i possibly go on?
i did because i've no hope
and there's nothing else to do but cope.
so i stay up late and sleep all day, then rise in the noon.
Copyright © 2024 Cattille Quettea
lay claim [10. 8. 24]
when will it be my turn?
to rightfully see what i learned?
to righteously claim what i've earned.
when will it be my turn?
can you stop denying a lady a right to her life?
can you stop denying your ladies their merriment and light?
can you stop denying the ladies their birthright?
because ever since we were born, we've had to fight.
that simply isn't right, for you close out our light...
now is it?
we are made of flesh, blood and bones.
never once have we been left alone.
greedy hands and greedy men.
greedy eyes, from them, ourselves we must defend.
the laws that are in place
do not change the mindsets of the space.
we want to be seen,
level and equal,
not the greater of the two evils.
to that, we wern.
so when will it be my turn?
to rightfully see what i learned?
to righteously claim what i've earned.
when will it be my turn?
..._...
delicacy and respect cannot be decided on, practiced and maintained in a day.
if it was, the world would be in the best way:
an echo chamber of buoyant, auspicious ideas
and everyone, willing to listen.
no proposing to deaf ears.
but why is a universe like this seen as wild.
because when you disagree,
some see it's fitting to act as a child.
Copyright © 2024 Cattille Quettea
spun out [28. 12. 24.]
to drive,
to die,
it's all the same.
my mind,
my heart,
brittle bones and face.
killing yourself for perfection is a way to live.
dying because you cannot achieve it is also a way to wear your skin.
it's nothing.
it's nothing at all.
relish it and watch them fucking fall.
to drive,
to die,
it's all the same.
my mind,
my heart,
brittle bones and face.
i'll drive,
i'll die,
it's all the same.
Copyright © 2025 Cattille Quettea
FROTH [15. 7. 24.]
[after the "loss" of a shoddy "friend"]
rot, inexplainable rot.
froth, unforgettable froth.
loss, an unfortunate loss.
or is it fortunate?
it's early to determine.
now, i don't feel as if i have lost a single thing.
yet, as of now, i do feel a bit empty.
more room left in my life,
more room for the scar tissues.
more room for building up
and becoming more.
after the wound is cleaned with hydrogen peroxide,
germs are harshly ripped and stripped for it.
froth, stinging froth,
froth, singing froth.
froth, froth, FROTH!
if wishing on a star won't grant me friends,
perhaps nothing will.
and just because i lack companions,
does not means i never lack having time to kill.
loss, silencing loss.
loss, violently loss.
loss, loss, Loss!
but i must occupy my life,
i must occupy my time...
with useful things.
i must occupy mine.
i aspire to not
rot, rot, rot.
Copyright © 2024 Cattille Quettea
i know i'm not here to suffer, but i do it anyways ;;; been on this page since 18. 1. 24.
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