Ebb And Flow Of A Dream

I think I like Mulaney because he tells stories like how I tell stories:

Repeats things for emphasis.

Comments on parts of the story while telling the story, “You know, like how you talk to an 8 year old.”

Adds unnecessary details because I need to be fully immersed in the story I’m telling you. They hold no weight at all to the story but are purely for my own satisfaction.

Inserts random pop culture reference because my mind is basically the Wheel of Fortune and things just seemingly are linked (when they probably really aren’t ).

Facial exaggerations.

sending “I hope you get that job” vibes to the people out here tryna get jobs

quarantine is just having to confront your old hyperfixations as they resurface one by one like you're scott pilgrim and they're each one of ramona's exes

“What do you think your prom date is doing right now?”

articles and essays I keep coming back to:

“joy” by zadie smith (about, well, joy)

“roaming the greenwood” by colm tóibín (ostensibly a book review of the history of gay literature but actually just very incisive thoughts on…the history of gay literature)

“the murder of leo tolstoy” by elif batuman (about exactly what it says in the title)

“the love that dare not squeak its name” by david rakoff (about, i swear to god, stuart little)

“a room of one’s own” by virginia woolf (I mean, you know)

the entire lingua franca archive but in particular “bio hazard” by fred kaplan (about writing a biography of gore vidal) and “the stand” by daniel mendelsohn (about the role of a philosopher (martha nussbaum love of my life) in a colorado gay rights case in the 90s)

“the professor of parody” by martha nussbaum (about judith butler)

do u ever just love someone so much it overwhelms ur entire heart and thats all u can think about and even seeing a picture of them or something just triggers this rush of emotion and all u can think is like wtf i love u 

choose a partner who is good for you. not good for your parents. not good for your image. not good for your bank account. choose someone who’s going to make your life emotionally fulfilling.