I Worked So Hard To Make Myself Lunch, But Now I Worry There Won't Be Any Left For Me...

Throwback to the time I spent a lot of money on a gift to Sen's little sister... I really hope she liked it (´;ω;｀)

Would you enjoy a gift like this?

Late

I feel like it’s too late to accomplish much- I’m already too deep into my school year to turn around my bio grade, I’m already too old to have a completely new personality- I’m already too late to think that I can do everything I sset my heart to. I wish things worked out as wonderful as they do in the Disney movies, the novels, and the webcomics- but maybe I feel like I should wake up from my delusions?

Who knows. I’ts too late.

Caramel

I took a photo of my dog today and spent the rest of the night distracted from my work (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠)

it’s showtime boys

Dinner after an exhausting day

Not sure if this helps but I don't really believe that knowing we'll die in the end changes anything.

Do you listen to a song just because it ends?

Do you read a book just to close the cover in a few days?

Look, I'm no fully grown adult with a grip on life or a real job or anything, but I'm a bit of a believer in just trying to make the best of things while we're here. The time limit isn't really the end goal per se, but it's something to give our lives value.

What's the point in living forever anyways? With an ~80 year lifespan, these days matter!

Or at least, that's what I believe in theory. Might want to consult @aletheia-mou for more thoughts on life, since I've kind of reached a point in this line of thought that satisfied my need for knowledge in this area.

Hang in there<3

Caramel

☆ Meaningless? ☆

What's the meaning of life? I need an answer--not something along the lines of "it's all about self-discovery!" Discovering one's life is part of the journey, but if that's all there is to life, I don't want any part of it. If it's truly the case, then I discovered that my life is full of wrath and meaningless things. I use too much oxygen and produce too much carbon dioxide. My presence is negative even on an environmental level. My life is all about academics I swear. Although I love academia, it kinda sucks that I am 2 dimensional outside of school. Why should I even pity myself? Maybe everything happens for a reason. I'm gonna die anyway sooner or later.

I hope it's sooner rather than later.

(o´∀`o)

So far so good

[2023-09-09]

It's my first week back at school and things are going amazingly! I'm on top of my work, extracurriculars, and have energy to do more and more each day.

Has some sort of magical spell been cast on me? It seems almost too good to be true. Things are just so wonderful as of late, and all this praise might end up going to my head if I'm not careful. As long as I continue having this motivation, things will end up fine, right?

In other news, a few of my friends have been telling me how I've been noticeably happier lately- which warms my heart. Things really are looking up!

Dissonance

Got left alone at the mall today but strangely I feel better, I just did the AP exam today and cried in an underground parking lot until my voice hurt but honestly I feel better than I did a couple days ago

Happiness is back on the menu lads, I feel like I have energy again

look upon your sins

Need your favourite vegetable

And thoughts on Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS)

carrot

kinda based