"But Why Would They Treat Me Like That?!" Because They Are Abusive People. It's Not Because Of Something

Trying to stop motherfuckers from fronting when they shouldn't is like herding cats I swear to god I'm so fucking done

the rest of his height went somewhere else

People with autism or ADHD: I have this symptom

Me, a schizophrenic: oh me too!

People with autism or ADHD: I have this symptom

Me, a schizophrenic: haha yeah I got that too

People with autism or ADHD: I have this symptom

Me, a schizophrenic: yeah I deal with that daily

People with autism or ADHD: have you been checked for autism/ADHD? It really seems like you have it

Me, a schizophrenic: you know those are all possible symptoms of schizophrenia too right? You know that we have more than just psychosis right? And we can experience almost every symptom of autism and ADHD combined right? You know that we are more alike than we are different, right? Right?

I've never had an entire account that's just mine before and that's what we're trying to do with this one now. Going back and forth on if I want to stick to the plan (main blog inactive except for long articles & maybe shit we both like if my host is cofronting/coconscious) or if I want to have different shit on each one.

Like my other one could be art and shitposting & this could be system shit and whatever I don't want to put there. I've been putting system shit on the other one with everything else but I keep going real tag-heavy when I post about that and my theme makes that hard to read. I don't want to change themes because my shit is ~aesthetic~ and I like how it looks.

But I don't know, I feel like it should be ~cohesive~ and if this blog went from my host's Vi thirst traps and whatever else to what I'd be posting then it wouldn't be cohesive at all. Have to decide what to do there. Looking at the posts here up until yesterday and it all feels so "not mine" that I feel weird taking it over. But I don't want to delete it all either. We don't delete each other's shit. So I don't know.

"Do you understand the violence it took to become this gentle?"

How do you figure out everyone's names?

question 46:

is your system a council or a twitch chat

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Dissociative amnesia is most often retrograde! This is why lots of people don't realize that they have more severe amnesia than they think.

What I mean by this is let's say your persecutor part switches in and says some horrible stuff. It's not necessarily that you (whoever was fronting before/the host) weren't there for those actions, but rather after the fact, the brain compartmentalizes those memories to stay with the persecutor part.

And adding onto this it can be localized, selective, or generalized (which is what often clues people in that something is seriously wrong and often only occurs during times of severe stress)

While dissociative amnesia can be anterograde (blocking the formation of new memories) that is seen more in dissociative fugue states or during active trauma.

Okay so hear me out.

What if I'm not a system, but I'm just genderfluid and also an age regressor and also extremely traumatized and just happen to dissociate a lot and talk to my own brain as a coping mechanism