Cainisss - 😔

This new year sucks. Knowing that you will be out with another guy. I know he’s a lot like me, muka dia cara dia type style dia even course degree pun sama. I hope you will be happy with him. Ofcourse i feel jealous that he gets your full attention even he treats you bare minimum. There’s nothing i can do, you like him you want him and not me anymore. Im sorry, ive done everything i could to make you stay even begging you to stay. But all you ever said, we will never made it, you don’t love me anymore, you don’t want me anymore. It hurts that you made up excuses to push me away, to break my spirit down for loving you but you know no matter what i always forgive and love you back hard. You didn’t see how much i love you. You didn’t know how much i fall for you everytime we meet. But all that are just me. It’s one sided love. Im sorry i had to block you. I had to. Because you know i will always stalk you everytime i hold my phone. It’s already new year now. But still im the same me that crave for your love and attention. I love you so much. Ive been missing to hear your voice, your laugh, your smile, your annoyed face, your touch, your warm hug and everything about you i miss it. I hope you are fine, happy and always get what you want. Takecare nfmk…

“Well, the rain had stopped but the pain was still there.”

— Charles Bukowski; Pulp

Imynfmk.

How i wish i can spend my new year with her 😭😭😭