Um Sorry For Moaning When You Stabbed Me. It's Been A Really Long Time Since Anyone Touched Me Like That

so glitchx...

I Saw The TV Glow (2024) | dir. Jane Schoenbrun

gods i've been unemployed and in pain for so long that the thought of going to an interview is making me explode

i'm afraid i'm using tumblr wrong but that is because i've not used it regularly like ever. i feel like i'm trying to join a tight-knit friend group by peering over peoples shoulders and hoping i'll be welcomed into the conversation but being to scared to initiate anything lest i be shunned for not following The Rules(tm)

if my mom thinks reminding me how bad i am at something is "helpful" then i don't wanna know how helpful she can be

dont put your faith in the walmart tech guy. dont be like me.

k so you know how typically women are pretty nervous around men who are yelling/threatening violence? some more so than others?

in the twilight zone reboot there's an episode where a bunch of weird meteorites fall from the heavens and infect the water stream, making it go a reddish orange and smell like butt. if you drink that stuff? you'd get real hecking sick for one, and then if you are genetically male (not sure about trans men and women yet but they aren't represented in the show sadly so idk) there is a 99% chance that it'll mess with your prefrontal cortex and you will go psycho and start going on a killing spree.

aNd as if i'm not alREaDy anxious around people, now i'm scared out of my pants to go to school or even have a civil conversation with my dad. and it doesn't help that i used to have nightmares of the men in my life (and women too but less often) slipping into a murderous rage and now i want to cry.

Oh so when Ella Ashmore finds out her God(s) are false and gets power from a new more Eldrich one to defeat her enemies it's a good thing and she's seen as a hero. But when I, Grace Chasity-