Hated Masterlist

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Dean One Shots #3

Dean x reader

The Jealous Type (Dean x reader) - Dean tags along to the reader’s high school reunion where meeting one of her ex’s makes him feel threatened.

Imperfect Little Demon (Demon!Dean x reader) - Dean is a demon and Sam and the reader have been attempting to cure him for two months to no avail. Dean’s getting out more often though and it’s only a matter of time before he finds a way out of the bunker for good. Can the reader and Sam figure out a cure or are they stuck with Dean as a demon forever?

Cabin Fever (Dean x reader) - The reader and the boys take a break from hunting for the holidays to head up to an out of the way cabin to meet up with some friends and have an old fashioned Christmas together.

Years In The Making (Dean x reader) - The reader meets the Winchester boys at a young age and develops a special bond with one of them in particular.

Sweetheart Firefighter (Firefighter!Dean x reader) - The reader ends up saving a man from a fire after a night out with her best friend Sam. Only it turns out to be his brother.

Wanted (Detective!Dean x reader) - The reader is wrongly convicted of a crime she didn’t commit by Detective Winchester.

Dark Side? (Demon!Dean x reader) - The reader is searching for Demon Dean. He finds her first and makes an unusual offer.

Alpha & Omega Life (Alpha/Omega!Dean x Alpha/Omega!reader) (smut) - After Alpha!Dean complains to Omega!reader that she has an easier life than him, the pair recruit the help of a supernatural being to teach Dean a lesson.

Save Your Skin (Hunter!Dean x vampire!reader) - The reader, a vampire, stumbles upon a hunter, Dean Winchester.

Save Your Skin (Part 2) (Hunter!Dean x vampire!reader) - The reader crosses paths with Dean again.

My Sweet Lord (Actor!Dean x reader) - When the reader’s nose is broken in gym class during senior year, she speaks to Dean Winchester for the first time, none too fond of the best friend of her school bully, Tom. But neither one could realize how important that one small act would be.

The Family Business (Serial Killer!Dean x reader) - The reader’s night doesn’t turn out as she expected when she winds up in the hands of serial killer.

The Family Business (Part 2) (Serial Killer!Dean x reader) - Dean tells the reader they’re working a case but she’s convinced she’s about to wind up as his next victim.

Forward (Daddy!Dean x reader) - The reader recognizes one of the strippers at her friend’s bachelorette party and life takes a turn for the Winchesters.

Dean & The Diner (Alpha!Dean x Omega!Reader) - When one of the patrons in a diner sends the reader into heat, they’re both forced to consider that it’s meant to be.

Forget Me Not (insane asylum au!Dean x reader) - The reader finds herself stuck in an insane asylum where she makes a new friend who wants to help her out.

Lost & Found (Afterlife AU!Dean x reader) - The reader wakes up in the afterlife to discover she’s got some searching to do in this new world.

Not So Happy (Dean x reader) - Dean and the reader have to pretend to be married to work a case. The only thing is they aren’t getting along.

Rainbow Dash (Dean x reader) - Dean and the reader go on a run of the mill witch case that leaves him feeling not quite like himself.

New Guy (PE Teacher!Dean x English Teacher!reader) - There’s a new gym teacher at school and the reader hits things off with him.

Stuffed Bunny (Dean x reader) - The reader sleeps with her stuffed animal because it helps with her anxiety, especially after difficult hunts. Sam and Dean find out about it and have different reactions to the news.

Fresh Starts (Pirate!Dean x reader) - Reader is having a relaxing day out on the water when she comes across a man in need of some help. Or not.

Romeo, Romeo (Undercover Cop!Dean x Mafia!reader) - Dean goes undercover and joins the Mafia in order to take them down because they killed his family, but things gets complicated because he falls in love with the bosses daughter. 

Long Time Running (Alpha!Dean x Omega!reader) (smut) - The reader is warned to stay away from scary Alpha, Dean Winchester. Only when she runs into him, he turns out to be a kind man and courts the reader before sweetly claiming her.

Don’t Move (Dean x reader) (smut) - Sub Dean can’t move. He doesn’t have a problem with this.

Better Man (Endverse!Dean x reader) - In order to be kept safe, the reader is sent to another universe per Dean’s dying request. However, the place she winds up in isn’t all that great and neither is the man that finds her.

Better Man (Part 2) (Endverse!Dean x reader) - After getting to know endverse Dean better, he confronts the reader about their friendship.

Happy Litter Accident (AU!Dean x reader) - The reader gets pregnant but when the father leaves, Dean steps up to help her with whatever she needs.

Thunder & Rain (AU!Dean x reader) - The reader is quietly trying to put her life back together after a traumatizing incident, only to have a stranger break in one rainy night.

It’s Gonna Be Okay (Dean x reader) - After the reader says yes to Lucifer in an attempt to stop him, Dean pays the price.

Patient D.W. (Dean x vet!reader) - Dean is hurt on a hunt and Sam takes him to a vet to help save him.

Lullaby (Dean x reader) - Dean decides to get in some practice when he and the reader are forced to sleep in separate rooms.

Come Again? (Baker!Dean x reader) - The reader is working late one night when her coworker Dean tells her something.

I Won’t Tell ‘Em Your Name (Neighbor!Dean x reader) - After a failed attempt on her life by her husband, the reader is forced into witness protection and a new home where she meets her new neighbor, Dean Winchester, who may be exactly what she needs.

Bedside Manner (Nurse!Dean x Surgeon!reader) - Dean’s having some stomach issues but the reader thinks it may be something else.

The Deal (Criminal!Dean x reader) - The reader is on vacation when the bank she’s in gets held up. Only they aren’t there for the money, they’re there for her. Her only option to get through this might be a little help from one of her kidnappers but even he isn’t exactly what he seems.

Feelings (Cop!Dean x reader) - The reader decides that she wants to be a mom despite not being in a relationship. Luckily her best friend Dean has offered to stick by her side through it all.

Knight Winchester (Knight!Dean x Princess!reader) - The reader is tired of looking for a suitable future husband but she’s not having much luck. Especially when one of her Knight’s betrays her.

Omega In Need (Alpha!Dean x Omega!reader) (smut) - The reader is having the worst heat of her life and desperately needs an Alpha to get her through it.

Too Late (MOC!Dean x reader) - Dean pushes the reader away when he has the Mark of Cain.

Dirty Girl (Dean x reader, Sam x reader, Castiel x reader) (smut) - After the reader reveals her dirtiest, kinkiest fantasy to her boyfriend Dean, he helps her get her fill.

The Corner Booth Guy (Omega!Dean x Alpha!reader) - The reader meets an Alpha one day at the coffee shop but he’s not exactly what he seems.

Heading Home (Alpha/Purgatory!Dean x Omega!reader) (smut) - The reader finds Dean in purgatory but he’s got the itch to do something before they leave.

All In Good Fun (Alpha!Dean x Alpha!reader) (smut) - Dean and the reader are having a small prank war when one of Dean’s goes wrong.

Head Games (Dean x reader) - The reader takes an extra liking to Dean’s shirts after a hunt goes wrong. But as time goes on, she starts to think that maybe she can’t trust her own head.

Girls, Girls, Girls (Demon!Dean x reader) - While the reader is working a case undercover at a strip club, Dean shows up and offers his help. The reader realizes he’s not the same Dean she once knew though and has the feeling he might be up to something more than just the hunt.

Someday (Greek God!Dean x reader) - Dean is a Greek God in training but he’s still human until he can get his powers to present.

Big Brother (Dean x reader) - After a witch hunt gone wrong, Sam and Dean have landed themselves in prison and can’t remember who they are, making the reader’s breakout attempts all the more difficult.

First Ghost (Weechester!Dean x reader) - When John Winchester and Bobby Singer have to work a ghost hunt, they have to leave the kids behind to fend for themselves. But when the kids stumble into the ghosts their dads are looking for, they might have to take care of it themselves.

The Offer (Michael!Dean x reader) - Michael is in control of Dean at the moment and the reader is working to get him free but the archangel catches her off guard one night and approaches her with a deal.

Black Eyes (Demon!Dean x reader) - The reader, one of Azazel’s gifted kids, loves demon blood to fuel her powers. When Dean Winchester becomes a demon himself, she decides she wants to keep him.

Soft (Dean x reader) - The reader helped rid Dean of Michael today but it came at a cost.

Good Girls & Bad Boys (Mafia Boss!Dean x reader) - Dean is a Mafia boss that frequents the restaurant the reader works at. She’s been told to be careful of him but he seems to have a soft spot for her.

Mine Now (Michael!Dean x reader) - Dean thinks the reader made a deal with Michael to free him but it’s not quite that simple.

Wolf Girl (Dean x werewolf!reader) - The reader finds herself in a bad situation when she’s caught by the Winchesters.

I Know A Guy (Dean x reader) - Dean runs into an old flame on a hunt and they talk about what caused them to break apart in the first place.

How to write a kiss

Rebloggable version, as requested by davrosbro. :)

Oooh!  Yes!  I love kisses.  Kisses are where it all starts ;).

Okay, first, remember that kiss is much, much more than just lips.  It is lips, but also tongues, teeth, eyes, faces, hands, noses, bodies, heartbeats,  breath, voice- and most importantly, a kiss is emotions.  A kiss without emotion is just wet mushy lips stuck together.  Ew.  Gross.  The most important part of a kiss isn’t the how, but the who- because of the emotions between the two people.

Okay so:

lips- Lips can slide, glide over each other smoothly, or they can be chapped and rough and dry and get stuck on each other.  They can match, top-to-top and bottom-to-bottom, or they can overlap, with one person’s top or bottom lip captured between the other person’s lips (yummy).  If there is lipstick or chapstick there is lipstick or chapstick flavor, otherwise, lips don’t have a taste (can you taste yours?).  Lips also can smack- the sound of two of them coming together or pulling apart, because they’re wet and warm and soft. 

tongue- Tongues are always wet, and always warm.  They’re very versatile.  They can trace over lips, teeth, or another tongue.  They can be smooth and graceful or teasing and flicking.  When tongues are involved, there is drool.  It’s only sexy when you like the person you’re kissing, or else it’s kinda gross. :P

teeth- teeth can clack together awkwardly, or teeth can bite down sensually.  A person biting their own lip is cute, a person biting another’s lips is sexy.  A person biting gently is sensual, a person biting roughly is sexual. 

eyes- Eyes can be wide open with surprise, half-lidded with desire, fully closed with pleasure.  Eyes can gaze lovingly, lustfully, wistfully, hungrily, seductively- it all depends upon the emotions of your characters.  Have them do whatever you like, but don’t leave them out- give them at least a mention!

faces- Faces are what the lips are attached to.  Noses bump, cheeks flush, ears turn red, foreheads either wrinkle or relax.  Kisses can leave lips, quite easily, and become kisses on chins, cheeks, noses, foreheads, ears, necks, throats.  Kisses on noses or foreheads are cute and adorable, kisses on cheeks are sweet, kisses on chins, ears, and throats are very sexual.  And a kiss on the lips can be all of those! <3

hands- Hands are super-important.  In order to describe a kiss, usually you want to also describe the hands.  Where are they?  Does one character have on on the back of the other’s head or back, holding them close?  Are they on someone’s shoulders pulling them near, or pushing them away?  Fingers brushing someone’s cheek or palms grabbing someone’s ass convey two very different kinds of situations, even if the kiss itself is exactly the same.

noses- Noses are annoying.  They easily get in the way, especially for first kisses!  People have to tilt their head to one side or the other, and if they don’t, noses bump.  I’d only mention noses if a kiss is supposed to be awkward or uncertain or nervous.

bodies- bodies are either close together, or far away.  Someone can be surrounded comfortingly by someone’s arms, or terrifyingly trapped by them.  Bodies are warm or hot, they are calm or nervous, relaxed or tense.  Body language says a lot.  Is your character pulling away, or moving closer?

heartbeat- Hearts can beat fast or slow, and that’s about all they can do- but there are lots of reasons why they do!  A heart can beat fast with fear or excitement or nervousness; a heart can pound with lust or race with terror or sing with joy.  Hearts can glow, cower, or shatter.  When you really want to drive the emotions of a character home, mention the heart.

breath- To me, the most consuming part of a kiss is the breath.  The air that someone else has just breathed going deep into your lungs is very intimate.  Lips and tongues don’t have a taste, but breath does.  Each person’s breath tastes different, smells different, and surrounds a person differently than anyone else’s breath.  Breath can be warm and sweet, breath can be hot and sexy, breath can be hot and frightening.  It is something that is very present and should not be left out.  A lot of writers leave breath out.  And it’s so important; it’s the most intimate part of a kiss.  Someone else is breathing into your lungs, and it’s either heaven or it’s hell.

voice- Voice conveys much, even without words.  A voice can groan, whimper, gasp, moan, catch, whine, scream, sigh.  Voice can convey emotion powerfully, and while some kisses are silent, usually they’re not. 

emotion-  Emotion is the most important- and the thing you try not to say.  You want to describe it, through all of the things above, so that it’s perfectly clear what your characters are feeling, without you ever using the “feelings words”.  If they’re in love, their bodies will lean close, their eyes will smile, their voices will giggle softly.  If they’re nervous, their palms will sweat, their noses will bump, their voices will shudder.  If they’re afraid, their muscles will be tense, their faces will grimace, their lips will not open.  Emotion is the color that you keep inside your mind as you write; it’s the base line that drives the description behind everything else you say.

Wow, that was a lot!  Gosh I hope it wasn’t too much!  Keep in mind not every kiss has all these things- this is just a list of things to consider when writing a kiss, and based on how long of a kiss you want to make.  Keep in mind that typing “they kissed for a long time”…that’s six words, it takes half a second to read, so that’s a short kiss!  If you want a long kiss, you need long sentences that make the reader linger. 

So maybe to start off, pick three things on the list to describe in your first kiss.  Don’t try to do it all- that would be too much for even the most epic kiss.  Just pick what’s most important to this particular scene, to these particular characters, and describe those parts along with the lips, and you’ve got yourself an awesome, emotional kiss. <3

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Some words to use when writing things:

winking

clenching

pulsing

fluttering

contracting

twitching

sucking

quivering

pulsating

throbbing

beating

thumping

thudding

pounding

humming

palpitate

vibrate

grinding

crushing

hammering

lashing

knocking

driving

thrusting

pushing

force

injecting

filling

dilate

stretching

lingering

expanding

bouncing

reaming

elongate

enlarge

unfolding

yielding

sternly

firmly

tightly 

harshly

thoroughly

consistently

precision

accuracy

carefully

demanding

strictly

restriction

meticulously

scrupulously

rigorously

rim

edge

lip

circle

band

encircling

enclosing

surrounding

piercing

curl

lock

twist

coil

spiral

whorl

dip

wet

soak

madly

wildly

noisily

rowdily

rambunctiously

decadent

degenerate

immoral

indulgent

accept

take

invite

nook

indentation

niche

depression

indent

depress

delay

tossing

writhing

flailing

squirming

rolling

wriggling

wiggling

thrashing

struggling

grappling

striving

straining

Mobile Masterlist (Update 2/27/18)

I’ll be updating this as I continue to write, so please do save this if necessary. 

Fanfics:

Moving Forward (Derek Hale x Reader, Scott McCall x Reader) 

2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 12 - 13 - 14 - 15 - 16 - 17 - 18

Little Beta (Liam Dunbar -platonic x Reader, Scott McCall x Reader)

 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 12 - 13 - 14 - 15 - 16 - 17 - 18 - 19 - 20- 21 - 22 - 23 - 24 -25 - 26 - 27 - 28 - 29 - 30 - 31 - 32 - 33 - 34 - 35 - 36 - 37 - 38 - 39 - 40 - 41 - 42 - 43 - 44 - 45

Momma’s Boy (Liam Dunbar-platonic x Reader, Scott McCall x Reader)

2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 12 - 13 - 14 - 15 - 16 - 17 - 18 - 19 - 20- 21 - 22 - 23 - 24 - 25 - 26

The Hunter and The Alpha (Derek Hale x Reader, Dean Winchester x Reader)

2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8

Baby Daddies (Issac Lahey x Reader, Stiles Stilinski x Reader) 

2 -  3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11

Torn (Jordan Parrish x Reader, Theo Raeken x Reader)

2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 12 - 13

Imagines

I can’t do this anymore - Dean Winchester x Reader

If you get killed, I’ll get killed - Theo Raeken x Reader

Part 2

Bestfriends Secrets - Stiles Stilinski x Reader

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6 

She’s mine now - Theo Raeken x Reader, Stiles Stilinski x Reader

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6

Part 7

Part 8

Part 9

Part 10

Part 11

Taken - Liam Dunbar x Reader

Part 2

Holding on - Stiles Stilinski x Reader, Pack x Reader

Part 2

Nightmares - Theo Raeken x Reader

You’re Perfect - Stiles Stilinski x Reader

Current Location - Issac Lahey x Reader

Professor Hale - Derek Hale x Reader

Jealousy - Scott McCall x Reader

Betas - Issac Lahey x Reader , Theo Raeken x Reader

Little League - Derek Hale x Stiles Stilinski

Aim To Please - Derek Hale x Reader (SMUT)

Unexpected - Scott McCall x Reader

Mourn - Scott McCall x Reader

The Duff - Stiles Stilinski x Reader

Shift - Brett Tolbot x Reader

Drunk - Theo Raeken x Reader

Suspicion - Theo Raeken x Reader

Ten Things I Hate About You - Theo Raeken x Reader

Jealous Chimera - Theo Raeken x Reader

Lost Boy - Theo Raeken x Reader

Fronting - Theo Raeken x Reader

Happier - Theo Raeken x Reader, Scott McCall x Reader

Wait - Theo Raeken x Reader

Perfect - Theo Raeken x Reader

Gunshots - Theo Raeken x Reader, Issac Lahey x Reader

Lifting the Pain - Theo Raeken x Liam Dunbar

Anchor - Theo Raeken x Liam Dunbar

TVD/TO Masterlist

The Vampire Diaries Smut

Kai Parker Smut:

Rulebreaker

First Date

Shower Assistance

Getting Caught Making Out With Kai

Dominant Kai

Curious Fingers - Part Two

A Thousand Years

The Great Escape

Manipulator

Breakfast in Bed

The Customer is Always Right - Part Two

Stood Up

Photography Course

Princess

Caveman

Lace

Satisfied

Fireplace

Changing Room

The Little Sister

Secret

The Chase

Teeny Bikini

Picasso

Spoiled

Dark Theatre (Valentines)

Mouse (Valentines)

Only Rule

Yes Daddy (Visual Smut)

Crush (Visual Smut)

Dripping (Visual Smut)

Silent Treatment

Spring Break

Cutie

Enzo Smut: 

Interrogation

No Secret

I’m Yours

Time After Time

Matt Donovan Smut:

Chauffeur

Slow Dance

Stefan Salvatore Smut:

Dinner Date

I trust You

On the Road Again

Frustration

Helpless

4 A.M.

Damon Salvatore Smut: 

Hide & Seek

Damon Teasing You In Public

Intoxicating Dominance

Skinny Jeans

Pet Names

Kidnapped

Caroline Forbes Smut: 

Girl Crush

Katherine Pierce Smut:

Predator

Tyler Lockwood Smut:

FaceTime - Part Two

Jeremy Gilbert Smut:

Rules

The Originals Smut

Kol Mikaelson Smut:

Jealous Kol

Kol’s Dirty Talk

Sharing Clothes

A Little Help - Part Two

Family Friend

Bad Idea

Constant Tease

Royal Highness

One Year

Thigh Socks

Going Nowhere

Fatal Attraction

Minnie Mouse

Honor Roll

Tease

Comfort

Wildest Dreams

Take Charge

Unfamiliar Feelings

Breakfast

Taunt (Valentines)

Good Cause

Klaus Mikaelson Smut:

Birthday With the Enemy

In Heat - Part Two

In Spite

Road trip

Mutual Feelings

Blind Drunk

Mirror Mirror on the Wall

Monster

Only Mine

Fairness

Anger Management

All Day Project

Under The Table

New Position

Heartbeat

The Wall

Rut

Don’t Hold Back (Valentines)

Little Devil (Visual Smut)

Babygirl

Elijah Mikaelson Smut:

Lost Temper

Jealous Elijah

Punching Bag

Little Flirt

Christmas Jealousy

My Turn

Surprise Surprise

Hand cuffs

To The Rescue

Idea

Scent

Self Control

Under The Sheets

Held Back

Finals

Always Kol (Visual Smut)

Birthday Boy (Visual Smut)

Killer Party

Rebekah Mikaelson Smut:

The Original Sister

Freya Mikaelson Smut:

Spill It

Lucien Castle Smut:

Lucky Guest

Soft Spot

Yoga Mat

Thinking of You

Tristan De Martel Smut:

Compassion

Threesomes/Multiple Characters

Kai vs Klaus

Jealousy at Its Finest

Brotherly Love

Dirty Games

The Vampire Diaries Fluff

Kai Parker Fluff:

Making Breakfast

Telling Kai How You Feel

Bonnie Finding Out You Love Kai

Surprise Arrival

Split Love - Part Two

Attempt

Alone

Likes (Valentines)

Never Would Have

Cellar

Little Girl

Matt Donovan Fluff:

Chauffeur Pt 2

Mistaken

Damon Salvatore Fluff:

Hold Me

Big Bro

Big Brother

Stefan Salvatore Fluff:

Psychologist

On Edge (Valentines)

Big Bro

Enzo St. John Fluff: 

Your Home (Valentines)

The Originals Fluff

Kol Mikaelson Fluff:

The Original Sister

Crazy Ex Boyfriend

Good Husband

Mistletoe

Split Love - Part Two

Forgotten 19th

Death Wish

Blacked Out

Klaus Mikaelson Fluff:

The Original Sister

Mistletoe

Story Time

Perfect Imperfections

Helpless

Appreciation

Safe and Sound (Valentines)

Certain

Elijah Mikaelson Fluff:

The Original Sister 

Mistletoe

Family Christmas

Forgotten 19th

Mikaelson Charm

Thunder Buddy

Mourning

Pardon?

Rebekah Mikaelson Fluff:

The Original Sister

Mistletoe

More

Lucien Castle Fluff:

Percentage

Dating…Would Include/ Sex With…Would Include, etc

The Vampire Diaries:

Sex With Kai Would Include

Marrying Kai Would Include

Having A Child With Kai Would Include

A Date With Kai Would Include

Flirting With Kai Would Include

Sex With Stefan Would Include

Sex With Enzo Would Include

Sex With Jeremy Would Include

Dating Bonnie Would Include

Dating Caroline Would Include

The Originals:

Sex With Elijah Would Include

Sex With Kol Would Include

Having a Child With Kol Would Include

A Makeup With Kol Would Include

Sex With Klaus Would Include

Having a Child With Klaus Would Include

Sex With Lucien Would Include

Flirting With Kol Would Include

Being Married to Klaus Would Include

Being Married to Kol Would Include

A Makeup With Klaus Would Include

Jealous Sex With Kol Would Include

Klaus Flirting With You Would Include

Dating Lucien Would Include

Fake Texts

The Vampire Diaries:

Cramps

Damon in 2.01:

“You’ve gotta be kidding me”: the rug gets torn out from under him.  He thought Elena kissed him, thought that this was why she believed he was worth saving, because she was in love with him, only to find out all at once that not only is that not what happened, but that it was his first love fooling him again.

“I’m just gonna ignore the bitch”: he plays this off as a strategic move, but he also wants Katherine to feel all the rejection he did when he found out she left him, and, more importantly, he’s just not ready to face her.  He wants to pretend that nothing’s changed, that the main event is still Stefan wanting to fight him about Elena.  Because if he faces up to what’s going on, there’s a choice he has to make, and he wants to pretend like it’s already out of his hands.

“Now I’m hurt”: a day ago, Damon didn’t believe Elena would kiss him.  After he thanks her/Katherine, he kisses her cheek, and it’s only based on her body language communicating obvious willingness that he very very slowly goes in to kiss her on the lips, and he’s shocked that she kisses him back.  But now, the lines of reality are blurring for him - he knows it was Katherine, but believing that Elena kissed him momentarily put their relationship (and his relationship with Stefan) back into categories that he understands.  Everything was clear for him, and now he’s having trouble going back to the more complicated, nuanced world where Elena cares about him and wants him to be saved without being in love with him.  He’s hurt because he can’t remember how to be thankful for her love as it is; all he’s feeling is the loss of what he briefly thought he already possessed.

“Looks like Katherine’s trying to steal your guy, I mean it’s only fair, since I went after your girl”: this dialogue could have come straight out of History Repeating.  Possession, manipulation, revenge: these are Katherine’s categories.  

“I’ll forget everything and we can start over, this can be our defining moment”: although he kisses Katherine rather than kills her, his attempt to recreate the past doesn’t last longer than a couple seconds.  Even when he’s kissing her, he’s not letting her push him around (literally) like she used to - he wants her, wants her love, but on new terms.  He wants them to be equals, partners, wants them to trust each other, because he’s had the smallest taste of what that would be and he can’t go back.  He can’t be who he was, he wants to forgive everything and start over - and in the process, he’s more sweet, innocent Damon than ever before.  He’s asking for a relationship with Katherine - but on Elena’s terms.

“You can’t imagine that I’d believe that you want to, that what we’ve been doing here means something?”: Stefan’s been telling him nothing was real with Katherine for a whole season, Elena’s told him she’s surprised he thought she’d kiss him back, and now he’s had the final confirmation that Katherine never loved him.  Everyone’s trying to strip away the reality he sees and replace it with lies and emptiness.  He’s too afraid to trust Stefan’s offer to stand together, and so he goes back to Elena again, sure that if anyone loves him, she does, but he’s still too fragile for her being his friend to be enough.  He knows it’s not nothing, and so it must be romance, and she must be lying.  

“Lie about this”: he’s asking for a relationship with Elena, on Katherine’s terms.

“You wanna shut out the pain, it’s the easiest thing in the world”: there is nothing left.  Elena, everything he thought was good, has just repeated the killing blow of his worst enemy.  There is no hope, nothing trustworthy, nobody who really cares about him - Stefan, who’s trying to make peace with him, inadvertently took everything from him twice today.  And still Elena thinks he’s better than this, that he should be strong and good enough to just stop wanting her - well, he’ll prove her wrong once and for all.  Maybe he thinks Jeremy will come back as a vampire, maybe he doesn’t - he’s not thinking, he is blind emotion, and he doesn’t want Elena to have any power over him anymore, so he does something he knows she can’t forgive.  But he doesn’t, or can’t, shut out his feelings.  He pushed her away, but now all he feels is his regret for her grief.