You are. My friend
Today you found out that I can write poetry AND that I study English. A little Macbeth-themed thingy inspired by @two-bees-poetry
Fan fact: because English is not my native language I had to write both columns in the same time, otherwise I won't be able to stick my grammar together.
#192
It's just one of those days
All things look the same
But nothing feels quite safe.
I'm scrounging for a sense of security.
So I'll wear a friends old t-shirt
And strum until my fingers hurt
And wash until my brain just works.
Little things are the start to stability.
Vultures are holy creatures.
Tending the dead.
Bowing low.
Bared head.
Whispers to cold flesh,
“Your old name is not your king.
I rename you ‘Everything.’”
#203
It just kept haunting.
Vying for a steely, totalitarian grasp on my thoughts,
Snatching with it’s thick greedy fingers at fragments of tranquility,
Lurking in every shadowed alleyway of my subconscious.
I eventually concluded that I needed to settle this with a confrontation.
The next time it tried to influence my thinking, I asked,
“Why are you here? What do you want?”
It rung it's hands for a moment, silent.
The first time, it replied “To change you.”
I tried to talk into it every attack.
It grew more anxious every time I asked, as if no one took the time to confer with it.
Its answers became more telling
“So you will suffer for what you've done.”
“You need to remember what a miserable creature you are.”
“I will not leave your side. I am what you deserve.”
It is extremely insistent.
But I know it will not retain this power forever.
I will continue to note its arrival.
Someday, I hope that it will be a fleeting, inconsequential specter.
But today isn’t someday I suppose.
We all live with demons.
Sadly, this isn’t the first or last.
The Trans Agenda is to Keep My F*cking Friends Alive — sol rios
published as part of the Citizen Trans* {Project} by New Words Press
I’m gnashing my teeth like a child of Cain
If this is a prison I’m willing to bite my own chain