thinking about all the “small” art that’s ever existed. songs that were only ever sung in one village. stories written by children that got lost in the shuffle. personal paintings that didn’t survive the test of time. how they affected the lives of just a few, but still existed, still mattered to someone.
how am i meant to show my love when i peel an orange but need a shovel to give you a slice
i have a soft secret wish that conspires against me in the sleepy hours of late afternoon when my big dog sighs into my shoulder and nuzzles under my arm while we both procrastinate his walk a little longer just until we are done being on the couch together, curled up
i need to believe that if he could choose, he would stay looped indelicately, his legs a cascade in the air rolling his back on the only floor i can afford him instead of the romantic impossible wild
there are moments where his ears perk up at a rabbit and he watches their white tail tuck into a bush, like a wink. i don't know what dogs dream about but i hope to god
if he is dreaming about being a wolf he is not disappointed when he wakes up to blunted teeth
There was a young man from Peru
Whose limericks stopped at line two
ive retired this zine from print but you can still look at it here - take care of yourself idiot <3
I make more stuff go look at it.
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blistered fingertips scratch against constricting linen
i lay in a bed of moss
underneath my grandmothers afghan
and woke surrounded in mold
the clay beneath
tugs, tearing open old gashes
revealing layers of decay
interlocking rigid muscle tissue
every motion scattering spores
i find myself coughing, clenching
crawling through the colonies
for
i am not
your
host
i am only
flesh
and
blood
and yet
that flesh is powdered in mildew
that blood is blooming
i will not yield
i swear
i will taste fresh air
alongside a mushroom omelette
without an inkling of a sour memory
but i fear
i am
rotting
#80 I wish poetry came easily.
Bright words that could naturally sweep through me.
Like intoxicating and wonder filled seas.
Of lavender, teal and parsnip creme
Trickle from page from pen, from pen to me.
I wish the dam was never closed.
Inspiration endless but an eb and flow,
Not brilliant wet flashes then dry lonely stones.
Then the dam’s tight as a dish and I am alone.
Left to smack at cement and wait in the cold
For the stones to split apart and invite me to explore the sea.
But I fumble and stumble, push pen forward on.
I keep writing haiku, couplet or song,
With remaining words, mediocre and oblong as can be.
And I feel new stream beds forming beneath me.