6 Things People Don't Always Tell You About Studying

no fuckin way

september

I decided to start posting monthly, I hope it will help me keep it regular during the semester, it may also bring more structure into my posts

I gave my talk at the conference, I was surprised with the engagement I received, people asked a lot of questions even after the lecture was over. it seemed to be very successful in a sense that so many people found the topic interesting

what I need to do the most in the next 3 weeks is learn the damn geometry. sometimes I take breaks to study algebraic tolology, I did that yesterday

you guys seem to enjoy homology so here is me computing the simplicial homology groups of the projective plane. I tried to take one of these aesthetic photos I sometimes see on other studyblrs but unfortunately this is the best I can do lmao

my idea for mainly reading and taking notes only when it's for something really complicated seems to be working. I focus especially on the problem-solving side of things, because as I learned the hard way, I need to learn the theory and problem-solving separately. what I found is that sitting down and genuinely trying to prove the theorems stated in the textbook is a good way to get a grasp of how the problems related to that topic are generally treated. sometimes making one's own proof is too difficult, well, no wonder, experienced mathematicians spend months trying to get the result, so why would I expect myself to do that in one sitting. then I try to put a lot of effort into reading the proof, so that later I can at least describe how it's done. I find this quite effective when it comes to learning a particular subject. I will never skip the proof again lmao

in a month I'll try to post about the main things I will have managed to do, what I learned, what I solved, and hopefully more art projects

today I learned that for a surface with boundary, which I believe we can say a straw is, the genus is equal to that of a 2-manifold obtained from attaching disks to the boundary. hence the straw has genus equal to that of a 2-sphere, which is 0, therefore a straw has 0 holes

also a straw is not homotopic to a torus I think, but rather to S¹, as it's a product of S¹ and a closed interval, which is contractible. a torus has the fundamental group S¹×S¹, thus they cannot be homotopy equivalent. buuut that requires the straw to be infinitely thin so maybe I'm too idealistic for this claim to hold and it is in fact equivalent to a torus

lmao I love math but I can't stop laughing at the fact that it took me two years of university to be able to have this discussion

I’m really into internet discourse but only pointless and stupid internet discourse like how many holes there are in a straw (it’s 2)

ok now i might have some kind of super memory??

a week ago i played chess with bf and we didn't finish, so now i arranged the board as i remembered it and i got 13 out of 14 pieces correctly

i mean wow i didn't know i am capable of something like this

might be autism i suspect i might have

anyway now i want to know everything about human memory and take advantage of that

14 II 2023

so yesterday would be the last of my exams but I decided to retake both the written and the oral part. the grade I would get is 4, so not the highest possible, still pretty good especially for the standards of that course (it's one of the most difficult), but I am not satisfied

it was the professor who suggested I retake the exams, which surprised me, I was mentally prepared to finish being only half-happy about my results and his reactions, strangely enough, inspired me to try harder. he wouldn't offer it if he didn't think I could do better, right?

if he gave me a 5 with my written exam points I would feel like an impostor, because I don't think I am fluent enough with the topics to receive the best grade. to be graded 4 and not being effered the chance to try again would make me feel that it's done, I was just too slow and I can't do anything else to fix it (at least on paper, but we're talking symbolics now) and him giving me a second chance meant to me that he believes in my potential yet doesn't want to give me a participation trophy, instead he made it about earning the reward that I know I deserve

he achieved the aurea mediocritas with this and the most absurd part of it all is that he of all people was to give me this inspiration. half of the students I talk to think that he is pure evil, the majority of the other half think he is an inconsiderate asshole lmao

so in two weeks I'm trying the exam again. in the meantime I will have a party with friends (small – 5 people + my boyfriend's cat) and then I will be grading the math olympiad. afterwards my another grind of algebraic methods shall commence and this time please let me not fuck it up

2 IV 2023

oh god the programming task for today was so annoying. I was supposed to process the MIT database with ECG records, and the annotation part of it was hell. after three hours I finally did it but the anger I felt at that time put me seconds away from throwing my laptop out of the window lmao

a recent success is that I calculated the rank of the module that I am working with, the problem is almost solved! when I told my advisor about it he looked so happy, he said that maybe he should start looking for another problem for me to ponder, it was so satisfying. I have a thing for mentors. at each point in my life for which I had a mentor who would teach me my special interest the progress I was making improved significantly and those were always the happiest times of my life. I am not sure if my advisor will stay with me to further show me a way into the research, but it certainly feels like a possibility

today I did some algebraic topology and differential geometry, I'm trying not to fall behind with the material even when I don't feel like studying

next week the easter starts, so I will probably have to visit my family. it's an interesting feeling to see my sister all grown up, there is still the image in my head of when she was barely a teenager and we didn't have much to talk about. now she is almost 18 and the significance of the age difference is nearly gone. when she start university it will be even less noticeable as she will understand what I mean by "fuck my life it's exam session season" lol

for about a week I've been trying to eat more healthy food, it's going fine so far. my biggest problem is that I'm eating way too much sugar but undereating in the general sense at the same time. I'm trying to incorporate more fruits and vegetables into my diet, as well as different kinds of nuts. it's so important to be properly nourished for math and yet I neglect it so much

yesterday I had a conversation with my friend and he said that his vision for doing math is working on some huge open problem such as RH. obviously you do you, but this sounds like such a depressive idea to me lol. chances of solving something like this are almost non-existent, that's such a waste of time to work on something like this for 10, 20, 50 years and make no progress. I mean, it certainly would feel nice to prove or disprove something like RH, but I'm perfectly fine with reading papers and answering all the questions I can anwer, which might not be huge and famous but I'm pretty sure creating those small pieces of theory will be useful to somebody one day

If a homomorphism is a structure preserving map and an isomorphism is a bijective homorphism, does that mean an isosexual is a bijective homosexual?

I read this and it got me thinking that it's funny how many goals and standards people tend to have. my only goals are to have fairly good health and to improve my math skills constantly. maybe it's my obsession, maybe it's the fact that I just gave up long time ago on femininity, social skills, so called emotional intelligence and how I present to other people

besides… why does this sounds like I'm supposed to only date men lmao

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