Please Do

I have reached another milestone in my detrans notes game! Because I hit 75 Notes I now have to go out in public as a guy sometimes. I had a specific meaning for this in mind but it was a little wordy to put in the notes game. Basically anytime I go somewhere alone, without friends or family, running an errand or just getting out of the house, I will put on a deep voice and let everyone see my short hair. I'll use the men's restroom and no one will think I was ever a girl.

You’re so close, aren’t you?

I can see it your cock’s leaking, twitching…

Your hand’s soaked. Your balls are tight.

You’ve been edging like a good boy, letting all that pressure build.

This isn’t just horniness.

This is masculine hunger.

precum’s telling the truth your mind already knows

You’re a boy. A filthy, horny, real fucking boy.

Say it.

Say it while your tip pulses.

I’m a boy

Stroke slow. Feel your load begging to explode.

You’re not confused. You’re not hiding.

You’re a leaky, high-T, sex-charged boy about to cum like it’s your identity.

So don’t fight it anymore.

Let it go.

Loud. Messy. Full.

Cum like the man you are.

Are you attracted to men, women, nonbinary faggots, or all of the above?

I’m attracted to cis women and feminine trans mascs. I don’t like penis. Most of the people I’ve had sex with had penises so I know from experience I am not a fan.

What did you do to being called a creep?

When I was a girl I understood what it was like to be pursued by weirdos, and honestly I was kinda into it. Now I've sorta become like a lot of those guys that used to be after me. I want a girl to show affection to, and I'm desperate. I would never cross a line, but I'm definitely a pathetic horny simp sometimes.

that gif you reblogged… I need to be the girl worshiping your bulge

Then don't be shy, come in my dms and become my girl <3

Been hearing from a lot of people that they find my genuine public exploration of my gender identity really hot because I’m clearly also still jacking off to it and because clearly this is a very real thing for me. Honestly it’s a lot of internalized transphobia. I want to be a cis girl not a trans girl, and if I can’t I might as well just be a cis guy.

I think maybe I should shave my head again. Trap myself in this for longer.

I’ve been going through discord messages and my posts and such and I think detrans kink has been less appealing to me for several weeks now, pretty much all of May. I’m still getting off to it yeah, but at some point I realized how unhealthy it was for me, then I got really turned on by how unhealthy it was for me, and then I just started getting kinda sick of it.

I think I want to try to go back to one of my favorite kink fixations which was objectification through worship, which I was really into in 2022. Like yeah I’m dominant and alluring and powerful, but people only view that through the lens of me being porn, which makes it also kind of submissive. I miss those days. I want to go back to those days. I don’t even know if there’s a word for it.

13, 15, 17?

I’ll do the two less interesting ones first.

13 was something like “at what size can you not fit into panties” and idk I don’t think it has anything to do with my genitals, just the width of my hips. I can always just tuck.

17 was something like “what was the last girl you rated out of 10” uhhh i did that in literally my last reblog.

15 is the interesting one: How did girls in my school perceive me? Basically eccentric, autistic, sexually ambiguous theater kid. I wasn’t actually in theater anymore by the time I got to high school because I did pre-recorded productions so I guess technically i was a film kid? But same vibes. I’m autistic but like the type of autistic where I’m not just sociable but like, i dunno, people are kind of drawn to me. I’m good at working a crowd and networking and all that stuff but also I was seen as kind of weird because I was probably a little *too* charismatic sometimes. Also I had pretty bad mental health issues and everyone knew that so I think if anything a lot of people just felt sorry for me. I did have a girlfriend late in high school. I broke up with her because I figured I was asexual. Chat do you think I’m asexual? Oh also as I have mentioned before I was kind of like, half out of the closet that I was trans and that I’m intersex. I was pretty androgynous and towards the start of high school I was pretty openly a girl and had long hair and stuff but I think a lot of people still thought I was a boy, then roughly age 15-19 I tried way too hard to be male and it probably didn’t work. My voice has never been unambiguously male, and I don’t sound like a guy at all nowadays, but idk how people saw it back then. Probably a lot of people assumed i was gay. I wasn’t. Or at least not mlm, maybe I’m technically a lesbian.

for me a detrans kink isn’t about taking away his identity, it’s about letting him play with every messy piece of it. When he’s begging me to degrade him, he’s really begging me to accept every part of him, even the parts he’s terrified of.

He’s always been so guarded about gender, but in these moments, he’s wide open. When he’s desperate, humiliated, pleading to be my girl again, it’s not weakness, it’s bravery. Watching him break his own rules for pleasure makes me want to ruin him and protect him all at once.