Looks Like I'm A Straight Man Then.

hi baby, i'd love to go into your dms and send you some pretty pics to look at... but only if you admit that you're a perverted man (fixed fake boy)

Do you mean I’m a fixed fake girl? I promise I am just a gross perverted man now.

I think the reason being a guy appeals to me is that when I have sexual fantasies I always picture myself in a male role partnered with a cis woman and i dont have fun any other way. In order to get in a situation like that long term I would have to be a guy, and I’m so confused about my identity just in general that that sounds extremely appealing…

I will never send a picture of myself on this blog ever but believe me when I assure you that I look unambiguously female in every way outside of the dumb thing between my legs, and that was kind of the case even before I started hrt. This kink has so many layers to me and one of the big ones is like… i haven’t really been male since before I started puberty??

I really am kind of done with this kink at this point. I’m still getting off to it I just think any genuine desire to be male is kind of gone at this point. All it took was me looking at some nude pics from before I shaved my head and really taking in like… yeah, that’s transition goals. I achieved it. I’d be an idiot to give that up.

So I am definitely going through with bottom surgery :)

It’s in 12 months!!!

Would really appreciate more detrans related asks! I am very honest about this whole thing, I’ll answer any question. You can also just bully me or try to convince me to detrans. Also kiiinda related… looking for a hypnotist to help me with detrans kink?? Shape my personality at my core…

genuinely please come in my dms and goon with me and try to get me to develop new weird kinks, especially if its cringe.

I’ve been more clearheaded lately. I’ve been entertaining the idea that perhaps, actually, I am just a guy and I should actually detrans, not for kink but actually. My reasoning is that I only transitioned in the first place out of a desire to become a different person sort of, so being a girl is just kind of me pretending to be someone else. Am I genuinely a pretty feminine person? Yeah I guess so. Does that mean I am this trans girl I’ve been for the past few years? Not necessarily. I find that if I fall into who I am naturally… I honestly do seem to just be kind of a male sex pest, sooo maybe that’s what I am. Maybe that’s all I need to be.

My favorite moot by far tbh

awww thanks, I’m curious what makes you say that.

Maybe I’m gender fluid or something idk, but really I want to be binary one way or the other, permanently.

I’ve been going through discord messages and my posts and such and I think detrans kink has been less appealing to me for several weeks now, pretty much all of May. I’m still getting off to it yeah, but at some point I realized how unhealthy it was for me, then I got really turned on by how unhealthy it was for me, and then I just started getting kinda sick of it.

I think I want to try to go back to one of my favorite kink fixations which was objectification through worship, which I was really into in 2022. Like yeah I’m dominant and alluring and powerful, but people only view that through the lens of me being porn, which makes it also kind of submissive. I miss those days. I want to go back to those days. I don’t even know if there’s a word for it.

I love when I enter a space full of nominally supportive, also mentally ill people, but I’m too mentally ill for even them and they’re clearly uncomfortable being around me.