If Love Is A Promise

having a really cool art teacher brought the best artistic abilities in me, abilities i didn’t know i fucking had. 

I draw for myself? the fuck is that. boring. what the hell

I draw for arts class? oh my god how did i do this? did i get possessed by an artist? do i have hands?

some things i’ve learned while studying in quarantine

drink more water instead of more coffee.

weekly goals are bullshit. set yourself 3-day goals. you’ll be less laid-back.

don’t just mindlessly stare at words. before you start studying, know your approach to it. have a plan.

summarizing the concept in your own words is the key part of taking notes. don’t just copy things down, convert them into your own way of talking, your own vocabulary, no matter how dumb and unprofessional it sounds.

don’t let the “studyblr aesthetic” fool you. studying doesn’t have to be pretty. summaries and notes can be messy as long as they’re comprehensible. you can always rewrite and reorganize them later. (honestly, you better do. and you better keep them.)

don’t throw away the papers you’ve solved your problems in. staple them to the fucking textbook. you need to see them constantly. cause you’ll need reminders of how far you’ve came, when you’re feeling discouraged.

don’t be an armchair analyst for your issues. if you have an idea then act on it.

remember: the exact point where it becomes difficult, is where your growth begins. take a deep breath, and try to focus on the paragraph in front of you.

get off your high horse and understand that if you’re a zero, you won’t go to 100 in a couple of days. first, you’ll need to reach 30, then from 30 to 60, and then from 60 to 90. nobody is 100 everyday. that happens very rarely.

you need to have fun everyday. you need to have peaceful time every single day. even on exam night. especially on exam night, actually. so make sure you’ve studied enough so you can have some time to yourself.

once you’re on a roll and in need of some challenge to stay on track, start writing down your studying hours. tell yourself you’re not allowed to do less than 80% of what you did yesterday. whatever the hell it was, even just one hour. so if yesterday you really studied for like, say 8 hours, today your goal is to study for at least 6 and a half hours. if you can’t keep up with that, make it 70%, or 60%. 

be forgiving of yourself. be kind to yourself. even if you bounced back and lost your streak. start again. as slowly as you did before. take your time. it’s okay, you were there once you can get there again.

Dear Doctor Who fans,

thank you

I get it now :D

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im verybdrunk rn

funny workd ngl

didnt do much as academically i meab but i did elbaorate on some of my ideas.world is funny abd luving lmfai have a jcie day

The poetry of the ineffable husbands

It’s me ya boi I gotta go to bed in an hour so I’m writing it as fast as I can so I don’t lose my idea tomorrow. 

So, what do I mean by that? Literally what it says. I’m just going to ramble about how beautiful and full of metaphors their relationship is and how it just gives me a reason to live. It’s not going to be good rambling. Just rambling with a little bit of passion in it.

Ight imma start with the classic things. As a former Wattpad loyal user I know all the angel x demon tropes. And I am sick of them to my stomach, I can’t stand one more uwu baby angel corrupted by demon. And this is what is surprising but does make sense about them husbands. They cannot, in my opinion, be called angel or demon, they literally became 2 halves of the same entity, the supernatural entity that watches over humans and makes sure there is a balance between good and bad. Like Yin and Yang. Good and evil, black and white, light and darkness. Not opposing, but complementing each other.

 Aaaand they were like that from the beginning. Remember when Crowley said  "Funny thing is, I keep wondering whether the apple thing wasn’t the right thing to do, as well. A demon can get into real trouble, doing the right thing. Funny if we both got it wrong, eh? Funny if I did the good thing and you did the bad one, eh?". They somehow knew it, Crowley wasn’t evil and Aziraphale wasn’t as obedient as an angel should have been. From the first time they ever got in touch in each other (we do not have any information on the times before Crowley’s fall) they somehow ended up thinking they didn’t do the thing their roles assigned them to. And this just shows how interesting their relationship that would come will be. In their relationship they always ended up stepping on their values that were assigned and for what? For the sake of each other.

Now, I got into the light-darkness thing and I feel the need to extend it. I somewhere saw a theory that angel’s halo’s are so bright that it blinds them, the angels having to rely only on God’s word. Meanwhile, the fallen angels, the demons, had their halo’s broken, forming the shape of the horns, being able to see and think on their own but not having any form of guidance. Now that we uncovered that doesnt a relationship between a demon and an angel just make sense? Like, the angel, blinded by the divine light, would rely on the demon’s words and rationalizing. The demon would then be guided by the angel’s light, this way both benefiting for each other and having to bond to each other. It just makes me so soft to think about that need of each other, and just a silly little thing my brain just said: “the angel could guide the demon through the darkest of times’’ (yes I just quoted my brain deal with it). I am just a succkerrr for this kind of soft thing and many people would probably not empathize and thats okay.

Now the really corny shit. Like the “forbidden love” kind of. This is, again, a well-known trope, but this time one that didn’t lose as much value as others did. When you think “forbidden love” there are so many posibilities. Like... gays during the history, a maiden and a prince, a gay knight and a prince, mafia gang leader harry styles and crime detective, the entire plot of hannibal, drunken me and a laptop to write, hold on I’m going too far, just young people in love and not affording it aaannndd 2 people from opposite sides. Heaven/Hell I mean. Obviously very opposite. And what we have learned about this forbidden love kinda stuff? They almost always end up running away together. Yes I am proving Crowley is head over heels but like, isn’t that poetic as fuck? Being so sick of having to do your work, to hide your feelings, to just hide yourself and the person you would die for that you just want to dull off together and live the perfect life without being judged?

Related to the past point, even if this was an innevitable choice, just the fact that Crowley chose Alpha Centauri is just making my brain and fingers go nuts. Alpha Centauri is a triple star system, 2 of them forming a binary star, basically two stars that are pretty close to each other. Now I know this doesn’t really make any sense, but what if those 2 stars represent Crowley and Aziraphale, and the 3rd one represents Adam? Like in that moment they went during the time before the world was created. I just think it would be cool as fuck that there would actually be an association made.

Also just the ship’s name: Ineffable. What does it mean? Beyond words, beyond understanding. What we always try is to put our feelings into words, and we more than usual fail. Because feelings aren’t something to be shown by words. They are ineffable.

Where did I go with this? Absolutely. No. Idea. I just poured all I my thoughts on a tired keyboard until my fingers have gone cold. It’s just that there are small details or just small ideas that maybe aren’t that revolutionary or special, but why not randomly post them on the internet?

*screeches in happy*

Okay but hear me out.

Chaotic academia.

Listening to classical records at full volume, double the speed, jumping around the room like a maniac.

Low alcohol tolerance, doesn't stop the flow of wine.

Tries to smoke. Cigarettes, cigars, pipes, you name it. But instead of the suave, graceful demeanour that other possess, it just ends in a hacking cough and nicotine stained fingers.

Stephen King books hidden away behind 'The Fall of the Roman Empire' on the shelf.

A crate full of classical records, but should you look through them, there's a Spice Girls single and 'Born in the USA' by Springsteen.

Guilty of the oh-so dreadful act of wearing jeans.

"Byron was waaaaayayyyyyyy sluttier than Mozart."

It's like Dark Academia, but fun.

okay besties lets not talk about this one, okay?

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/100

im verybdrunk rn

funny workd ngl

didnt do much as academically i meab but i did elbaorate on some of my ideas.world is funny abd luving lmfai have a jcie day

french garden vocabulary 🌻🌷

🌿 Types of gardens

le jardin garden

le patio patio garden

le jardin sur le toit roof garden

la rocaille rock garden

le jardin floral a flower garden

le jardin d'agrément an ornamental garden

le jardin botanique a botanical garden

le jardin de fruit a fruit garden

un verger - orchard

le jardin potager a vegetable garden

le jardin paysan cottage garden

le jardin d’eau water garden

🍁 Some garden objects

un etang à poissons fish pond

le parterre flowerbed

le pavé paving

l’allée path

la pelouse lawn

la haie hedge

le potager vegetable garden

la serre greenhouse

le tas de compost compost heap

la fontaine fountain

le sol soil

la terre topsoil

le sable sand

la chaux chalk

l’argile clay

les outils de jardin garden tools

le balai à gazon lawn rake

la bêche spade

la fourche fork

le râteau rake

la tondeuse lawnmower

la brouette wheelbarrow

le terreau compost

le gravier gravel

les gants de jardinage gardening gloves

le pot à fleurs flower pot

l’arrosage watering

l’arrosoir watering can

le tuyau d’arrosage hose

la pelouse lawn

💐 Verbs

tondre to mow (the lawn)

ratisser to rake

tailler to trim

semer to sow

bêcher to trim

arroser to water

désherber to weed

pailler to mulch

cultiver to cultivate

récolter to harvest

cueillir to pick

🌱 Types of plants

les plantes à fleurs flowering plants

les plantes plants

les mauvaises herbes weeds

le bambou bamboo

la fougère fern

l’herbe herb

l’arbre tree

la plante aquatique water plant

le palmier palm

à feuilles persistantes evergreen

à feuilles caduques deciduous

la plante grasse succulent

le cactus cactus

la plante en pot potted plant

la plante d’ombre shade plant

la plante grimpante climber

l’herbe grass

la plante rampante creeper

l’arbuste à fleurs flowering shrub

les graines seeds

saplings les jeunes plants d'arbres

plant cuttings - les boutures de plantes

🌹 Types of flowers

rose la rose

marigold le souci

tulip la tulipe

crocus le crocus

lily le lys

iris l'iris

sweet pea le pois de senteur

geranium le géranium

gladiolus le glaïeul

chrysanthemum le chrysanthème

sunflower le tournesol

zinnia le zinnia

aster l'aster

dahlia le dahlia

daisy la pâquerette

carnation l'oeillet

primrose le primevère

peony la pivoine

bluebell la campanule

begonia le bégonia

daffodil la jonquille

jasmine le jasmin

lavender la lavande

azalea l'azalée

orchid l'orchidée

water lily le nénuphar

🌲 Types of trees

orange tree l'oranger

lemon tree le citronnier

plum tree le prunier

pear tree le poirier

olive tree l'olivier

cherry tree le cerisier

apple tree le pommier

apricot tree l'abricotier

fig tree le figuier

currently absorbed into (at least) 3 fandoms because of my obsession with David Tennant

I have no memory of this happening, nor of me typing this

idk if i should blame this on sleep deprivation or simply having a wohoo ass brain but i literally thought that i can see mushrooms growing out of my phone in the colours of the app im currently on so i switched to tumbl to make it more interesting so yeah