Constantly Switching Between Healing And Complete Self Destruction

this is perhaps evil but I can boost my mood in almost any situation by playing a game called "what was my mom doing at this age?" like rn for instance I'm sleepy because I had a 12 hour work day + stayed up late, and my stomach hurts a little from the enormous chimichanga I smashed for dinner, and my head hurts a little bit from the fat margaritas I had with the chimichanga. and it's like hmm, okay, not optimal, but when my mom was this age she had a 2.5 year old to deal with. can you fucking imagine. can't stay in bed decadently bemoaning your overindulgences because there's a goblin in the next room that's utterly dependent on you for food and hygiene and social needs and if you drop the ball you've fucked up a perfectly good person. and I'm pretty normal so shout out to her for keeping it together but god that couldn't be me, I like fucking around way too much.

this is also my oc Keagen, propeller hat and all

wowie what a nice kid. I hope nothing bad or especially traumatic happens to him

click for quality please 🙏

Mauro C. Martinez (American, 1986) - Trust (2022)

you ever feel that deep ache in your chest and it feels like you can’t breathe and you’re not sure what’s real or fake and you’re not sure if you’re alive anymore and you feel so intensely empty and like a void is inside of you you just feel so reckless wanting to do something anything to fill that black hole in your chest and you just might try to run away or cvt or even expire yourself idk guys i’m just rambling

There are allegations that i am Wilbur Soot. NO I AM NOT 👺👺 IM NOT THE BRIGHTON BITER GUYS 😡😡😡

(i do create nations and love hamilton and hate the government and know all lovejoy songs BUT THATS UNRELATED)

me with undertale rn... idk why...

hyperfixation please stay with me long enough to complete the project. hyperfixation do not fade. hyperfixation finish what you started for the love of god

I don't want to feel like this anymore.

I just wanted to draw them idkkk

Lazy af drawing

I am unlovable. I should just isolate forever. Nobody can love me I hurt everyone I love. I will never leave this house again. Every time i think everything’s going fine I ruin it somehow. Maybe I should just kill myself.