Bluethornprincess - Life.in.progress

04/06/2025

I just realized I reblogged my post yesterday to my own account lmao... Still nice to have tracked my study progress nonetheless!

I decided to not go to the workshop today. I just can't. Everyone was complaining about it and I just feel like I need to stay away from it for myself. Like, why stay here and complain all day when you can either accept it for what it is or leave entirely. Sorry, just my brain trying to problem solve for others. My family has always looked down on complaining, so I guess I don't do much of that unless I know I need to vent (probably like now lol).

Anyway, a good time to start getting some work done and taking it easy for the day =)

Completed

✅ Breakfast ✅ Watch Kaichou wa Maid-Sama! ✅ Wash dishes (been slacking off on this hehe) ✅ Shower!! ✅ Check and reply to emails ✅ Register for Fall classes ✌🏻 ✅ Discussion post ✅ Update report writing timeline and email my professor ✅ Create bullet points for thesis ✅ Dinner ✅ Watch cdrama shorts

To-Dos

⏹️ Revise thesis writing ⏹️ File taxes ⏹️ [maybe] Clinic document

Not the most productive day for me, but I think I have been building the consistency I have wanted since the beginning of the year. I am now telling myself that I can be proud of my achievements and hard work even when I do not finish 100% of the tasks. There are different interruptions in life, and we can't control them all. So I choose to be grateful and content when I have tried my best. Let's do this again tmr 🩵

04/26/2025

Coming back to my studyblr after a few days of MIA =) Even though I haven't been logging my progress, I have actually been working hard! I think it's just that when I do work at school, I don't think about tracking, and it actually saves me time because I have Notion and an Excel sheet to track my progress anyway. I'm so ready to finish everything by 5/1 (next Wednesday) and wrap up the semester!!!

Today's mood:

Completed

✅ Yoga ✅ Walk my dog ✅ Breakfast ✅ Read To Love Your Enemy ✅ Thesis bullet points (3 hours!) ✅ Play A Little To The Left (?) ✅ Dinner ✅ Read more manga (hehe) ✅ Case study paper (1 hour)

To-Dos

⏹️ Video review paper ⏹️ Thesis revise paragraphs ⏹️ Shower

[End of study: 12:04am] Not too bad! I actually read my manhwa for 3 hours before I started anything lol. I feel like using a visual timer has been helpful to not rush myself to finish things at a certain time, but instead just know how long I need to do a task. Glad the day didn't turn out too bad. Good night 🩵

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

I have been overwhelmed lately with everything I realize I need to finish by the end of the semester, which is in 7 weeks. Sadly, my birthday is within the next 7 weeks, and I would hate to be stressed out on my birthday weekend. I was in a similar spot last year having to finish preparing for a presentation the night before my birthday. I wish it would've been different. And I so do not wish this fate upon myself again this year.

Another year, a better me.

It's time to change how I handle my schoolwork and life in general. No more hiding away or being frozen in place. I have to keep my eyes open no matter what comes my way and see it for what it is - a challenge I have been trained to overcome. It just gets a little scary when everything gets thrown at you at the same time.

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

Ngl I always felt like I was behind when I couldn't work on the same schedule as others or I would take longer to complete certain tasks. So many times I've beaten myself up internally for not being as efficient, as confident, as hardworking as other people. But now is the time to remind myself that this is not the case. I work hard. I do enough. I am confident. Just in my own way. And being neurodivergent doesn't make me a failure in life.

Even if it takes me longer to do one thing, doesn't mean I am any less than the others. I just am. I'm just me, living myself at the pace I choose 🩵

3/3/2025 Day 2

I changed my schedule yesterday and created a new plan. Seems to be working so far!

It feels a little weird to start doing my main task at 3pm, but I feel less pressured to wake up early and speed through my morning routine. Also, I noticed that I don't like checking my phone when I want to focus on my day. I feel slightly guilty for people who text me on a Monday, but seriously, I just want to be in my own head all day and focus on what I want to finish.

Side tangent: My dog was snoring and making growling sounds while he was napping today lol. He makes me feel alive 😂

This looks like my dog but is not my dog. Close enough =P

04/15/2025

Today, I think I tapped into hyperfocus mode because (1) I only slept for 4 hours, and this is what happens sometimes when I'm sleep-deprived, and (2) my period just started, so I'm getting some energy back? I still need more evidence to support this claim haha.

I am very grateful today because even though my follow-up appointment with my doctor was basically unnecessary (I think she Googled my diagnosis and gave me recommendations from online...), I had an overall good day. I was on time for my 9am class (after a few weeks of being late). I attended all my classes. I got food for this week. I tried to get my oil changed, but the shop was busy, and somehow the staff miraculously offered to change my oil for free because they overestimated their workflow (thank you, Universe!!!). I ended up going to do my car inspection today, which worked out. And I was on the phone with my partner for a couple hours while he shopped, and somehow I felt included and valued. It feels good to be loved and supported by the people around me and the Universe 🩵

Completed

✅ School ✅ Doctor's appointment ✅ Part-time job (didn't do my full shift today so I'll have to work more hours tmr...) ✅ Car inspection ✅ Renew car registration ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Case presentation - part 2 (1.5 hours) ✅ Walk my dog ✅ Dinner ✅ Watch Everyone Loves Me ✅ Case presentation - final (0.5 hours) ✅ Clinic report - result 3 (0.5 hours) ✅ Clinic report - result 4 (0.25 hours) ✅ Clinic report - result 5 (0.25 hours) ✅ Sleep by 12:30am?

To-Dos

I switched out a task and finished 2 small ones instead! 🎉

[End of study: 12:25am] So ready for bed 😴 Can't wait to get my beauty sleep tonight because I so so deserve it 🩵

A little reminder for the day 🩵

Another day, another progress post 🩵

04/05/2025

I just want a freaking free day!!! 😤 Do you ever get so tired of studying and school that you don't know how you're going to last another 30 days?? That's why I am right now. I can't. I just can't right now.

I so want to just say f it and go take a break for a day, but I also feel like I can't. I also don't work like most people, and nighttime is my friend. But then, I can't even enjoy a relaxing night because I need to do work... Make it make sense. Why do I feel punished in society simply by being a night owl? That's not fair.

Grievances aside, only 1 more day of this workshop, and I seriously still don't know how much I'm learning. I'm not sure if this will feel worth it in the end. Maybe I need to reevaluate tomorrow morning before I decide to go.

Me feeling angry (also exhausted and frustrated) at the whole world rn:

Completed

✅ Full-day workshop ✅ Check and respond to emails ✅ Clinic note revision ✅ Grocery shopping ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Dinner and snacks ✅ Watch Me Before You (I cried my eyes out for this 😭) ✅ Phone call with parents ✅ Clinic notes x4 ✅ Add article summaries to class notes ✅ Read research articles for thesis (30 minutes - that's all the energy I have for today) ✅ Shower (finally!!!)

To-Dos

I cut out some original plans cause I overestimated how much energy I had lol. Full-day workshop is a energy-drainer... Time for bed 😴

Some laughs for today 😂

Types of study break (tag yourself!):

The Productive One: refilling a drink, crossing a task off your to do list, the comfort of knowing that you're exactly on track.

The I-can't-fucking-take-this-any-longer: flinging yourself dramatically onto the couch or bed because this subject is turning your brain into mulch. snacking on something unhealthy but so delicious. texting friends who are suffering alongside you just to cry or scream together.

The "Just five more minutes" : Scrolling through tumblr or instagram. trying to pull your thoughts together on a bad day. convincing yourself that viewing motivational posts online is almost the same as actually doing that homework, really!

The Leg Cramp: No idea how long you've been sitting motionless but you gotta MOVE. Dancing badly and singing along to your favourite song. The joy of realising you've accomplished more than you hoped.

Affirmation: I speak words of love and kindness 🩵