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EMPEROR CARACELLA Gladiator II (2024)

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The 2054 nuclear family

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Do you think Hannibal ever missed being that boy who was torn apart in the snow? Because even through the excruciating pain, the unendurable torture, at least he wouldn't be the one that got away. He wouldn't be the man trying to piece together the remnants of his shards, trying to build a new foundation after an earthquake, trying to ignore everything that had happened to him, trying to go through the motions of life after the unspeakable. He wouldn't feel like a monster wandering among humans, humans who could never fathom what kind of void gaped within him and how desperately he was trying to forget the unforgettable. The only thing he would be is the broken boy, shattered and destroyed in the snow. At least he would feel every pang of hunger and pain that tore through his body. At least he would be helpless at the hands of his pain. He wouldn't have to struggle to be reborn from the ashes. He could just fall apart, let go, feel everything. And slip away.

Absolute gems from the old my chem website

Struck by a realization.

Caracalla, a horribly disease ridden forceps baby, seemingly forgets his involvement with his brother’s death a matter of hours, or days, after the fact.

I see people attributing this to neurosyphilis, the psychological effects of lead poisoning, etc. Obviously. But I feel like it could also be some flavor of a trauma response. Whether he is unintentionally repressing memories of violence, or deliberately refusing to accept reality and thus losing the thread, I’m not quite sure.

Yeah, the man is obviously deeply sick. But him and Geta have also been through a history of physical abuse. A cocktail of drinking, desensitization to violence, trauma, brain damage, and psychosis all contributed.

If Caracalla was experiencing some type of severe complex trauma or delusions (or both;) it would be incredibly easy to completely discard anything that doesn’t adhere to the reality his mind had created. Especially when that reality is a place where he is correct, protected, or vindicated. Caracalla’s deep fried and shredded brain tissue would have absolutely no problem tossing out the memory of literally sawing Geta’s head off. Caracalla might have simply dismissed it as an intrusive thought he ignored, a nightmare he had. I dunno, him being conscious of the event but not recognizing it is MISERABLE!! And I am nothing if not a creator of miserable fiction.

I don’t have all of the right words here. But god. I am sick to my stomach thinking about my blorbos.